Thank you! I have gone to the JoS site and have started reading. You are right, it is a lot to learn. I have admit that I am scared somewhat. The fear is based in my upbringing i know. Everyone in this group has been very helpful and kind. I have to admit this took me by surprise.

I thank you for your response. The bastard label doesn't bother me a bit. I am who I am and I had no control over my birth. I was amazed one day when I read in the old testiment of the bible that "bastards" are cursed and forbiddened from god's temple. Not just me but ten generations after me...

When I pray do I pray directly to Satan? What kind of things can I pray for? I would like to enjoy some of the wilds of the world since I haven't before. Is there anything out of bounds, i.e. sex, drinking, drugs? Also, I been to several sites that deal with Satan on the internet and most of...

I am a 47 yr old male. I was raised a christian. In fact just four years ago I was ordained as a deacon in the baptist church. My problem is that the more i did for god the more pain and suffering would enter into my life. I was born a bastard and at birth was given away. my life has been cursed...