In addition to your advice, I came to reason with the more essential parts of myself as to what I can do with this, so again, thank you for the assistance.

Alright everyone, I got what I needed from your responses. I appreciate your advice.

I only made this second account to ask certain personal questions which I don't want those who can identify me who read the forums to know I asked. Here goes. I have this strange and deep connection to a woman who is a bit older than me, not too much just enough to be considered a babysitter...