hey I need advice... would it be considered a disrespect to satan if during chakra training or more importantly a ritual I listened to music to relax my body to get into a quicker deeper trance?

I am 15 soon to be 16, I was born christian, but it never felt right. I could always feel a power, one I could never explain. I belive it was this power that opened my eyes. I've always wondered "If this religion is not true, then what is?" I had my own belifes, but I avoided my idea on...

I was reading the ritual o dedication and i need to know... do you write the whole prayer in blood or just your name? please reply asap, i wish Lucifer's grace