I'm haveing alot of trouble doing the meditations my parents are always breathing down my neck and I have to brothers who tell them every thing I do So my question is how do I meditate with out them knowing?

How do I know what color my aura is

This doesn't realy have to do with satanism just me fucking with the church I bought some red contacts online and vampire teeth and wore them to church they offered me that blood of Christ shit so I drank it and spat the shit on the floor should have seen there face HAIL SATAN

I want to deticate my life to Satan but I'm scared and don't know why I feel like a pansy