Im really insecure since becoming a satanist.. O_o im not the person i used to be.. ;( im pretty messed up, since i wont even trust my girlfriend.. what could be causing this deppression and constant worry?

I dont want people to think of me as odd, But i need help. When im with my girlfriend i feel powerful urges to smite her. Or cause her harm in some way.. I dont wana hurt her because i love her, Is this Negative influence? Or i am a dangerous person and i should kill myself immediately?

Im auctually worried, Hes a christian and a christian in power is no good thing for anyone, even their own false religion.. Im wondering if some effects could prove to be rather damaging to The Collective Power of All the leigons of hell, and The amassed satanist force... Truly This...

I have 2 questions. #1 Ive been practicing focusing engergy into a small ball that i can fit into my palm now that i can visibly see it, but when i begin to focus the engery ball doesnt stay in my hand, it starting growing Pretty large.. Does this mean i have a lack of concentration...

Barack obama, a chrisian now the president of the united states. Its a bad thing that hes a christian anyway, But now he has Power Christianity is dangerous to even its own false religion. Im kinda worried about what the effects could be on our factions.. Someone reassure me? :(

I was reading a few posts and i thought of, what if you have no faith what is your place in the afterlife? Do you just cease into nothingness?