I strayed from my path. I really am ready to follow father learn to meditate learn to follow him. Will he take me back? I'm serious about this

are there any satanists from NC? particularly the Charlotte/Matthews area? anybody?

can someone give me a different site for the samhain ritual? my computer wont connect me to JoS.com i'm also dedicating that night so should i do both?or is one of the two enough? even though i feel i can never do enough for father.