I think something's going on here. It looks like I might be getting nearer the point where the anger in me is finally almost washed out. Here are some recurring symptoms that have surfaced as of late: -Anger and frustration seems to be spiking at points, but I also have more awareness of...

I believe it has been one year since I dedicated to Father. A little late in celebrating my anniversary of being in the family, but I thought I should recap everything that's happened, as well as tell you all some of the stuff that's been going on. So, when I first dedicated, I was under...

Today I want to tell you a story. It's been ages since I was first put on medication for psychiatric problems. Well, up until just about two months ago, I had no knowledge or even awareness that these medicines were in fact destroying me. However, recently, I became aware of something...

If there was any doubt of my allegiance to Father, it's gone now. The reason is thanks to this article here. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/44724529/ns ... oYofnIpnIe Seeing as this crime happened in my state, I felt sickened beyond all belief. Today's paper even covered the story; and...

Lately, something feels wrong with me. When I fall asleep, I tend to usually go without dreaming. However, for some reason, my body fears sleep, as it does death. Especially painful death. But just a few minutes ago, as I was trying to let off some steam through masturbation, I felt my...

Tonight, I asked Gusion two serious questions: Did I truly make the dedication with my whole heart loyal to Father, and was he my Guardian Demon. As I am writing this now, I still retain (within my eyes) a vision of a brilliant set of three white dragon heads. These heads are oriental in nature...

I'm not sure of anything specific regarding this matter, but I felt I should probably bring it up. Last Thursday, I went to see my doctor. I wanted to put the idea of Candida on the table (as someone had suggested that it might be the case). Prior to that, I went and researched as much as I...

Last night, I did a ritual to father, asking him to assist me in banishing the angel(s) that I spoke of in my last summoning recollection. This time, however, I came more prepared than last time. I did the following before the ritual: -Candle and Match Prep -Preparing all black clothes...