When I pray do I pray directly to Satan? What kind of things can I pray for? I would like to enjoy some of the wilds of the world since I haven't before. Is there anything out of bounds, i.e. sex, drinking, drugs? Also, I been to several sites that deal with Satan on the internet and most of...

I am a 47 yr old male. I was raised a christian. In fact just four years ago I was ordained as a deacon in the baptist church. My problem is that the more i did for god the more pain and suffering would enter into my life. I was born a bastard and at birth was given away. my life has been cursed...