I tried to post this a few days ago, I don't know what happened. I guess to put it simply... I believe all that I've read on joyofsatan.org, but I need proof. I need a way to prove to myself that this is real. Everything I've read makes sense when I think about it and think about what I already...

I believe everything. Or at least I thought I did. Everything I've read about satanism and correlated to history makes sense, but I don't know how to prove it to myself that this is all real. I don't want to question it, but I can't help it. I need to believe in something I know is real, but I...