All my life I have feared death especially as a pathetic lost xian for I feared "oh if I die I will suffer in hell."But of course through study I have learned that was a load of bullshit, but I have noticed ever since my leaving of the xian lies that my fear of death is decreasing fast.  I know...

I may just be being dramatic here or just depressed but why does Father want me I am nobody but a kid trying to find himself on Earth living a meaningless existence.  I feel that I am not wanted anywhere.somebody help me please Hail Father

I am apart of the other group "Teens For Satan" but I need any help possible ASAP because I am just afraid without Him with me and I need to learn how to praise Him how to speak to Him.  I have read in some places that if I am only 17 rather than 18 I am not able to make this connection yet but...