It's really freaking hard to vibrate "Thoth" while still pronouncing the "TH" part throughout the whole entire word!!!!!! Dose anyone else have this same problem??? Of course you do!

Since I've gotten to the point to where I don't have to "breathe" in energy I can just "direct" it. I've continued to constantly protect my self with the protection meditation. However I am stuck on a few parts. One is that after I've directed the energy into my body do I then direct it out and...

While breathing in "white-gold" energy, how am I suppose to visualize it? Is it just white energy with streaks of gold in it? Or do the colors become "blended"???