I'm loving all of the knowledge being available! Can't wait to see the releases of the new ones!
Odd, now I wonder why the entropy spoken at my physics class felt 'important', as if the concept of chaos was there, but at the same time, it wasn't.
The academics were speaking so casually about the chaos present in the universe, but since the mainstream Science insists that pseudoscience isn't relevant,
they couldn't grasp the real meaning behind it.
For people speaking casually about atheists here, probably they didn't encounter the most hardcore ones, that mock Astrology and such.
There are people wanting to study science and draw parallels with astrology, numerology, phenomenons on the astral plane, but the status quo (maintained by the Yehubor) never lets it (if the research isn't accepted, how will money appear to fund it?).
Even if the research goes, the researcher is seen as a joke, not to be taken seriously.
I have already sensed that this year was going to be an important one, for some reason I was preparing myself to return here.
Even if I was practicing in the background and meditating, there was something that kept me silent.
Last year, close to the last months, I had the urge to re-do almost all the Gods rituals and speak loudly the affirmations.
There was a certain Daemon that I started to get fascinated with Him, doing His ritual every month.
Besides Him, I was doing the Grand Ritual of Zeus every week too.
In my first years as a Zevist, for many times I thought of abandoning it, thinking that maybe it didn't matter much.
Every birthday I wished for Zeus to give me the strength to remain in the path, to resist one more year.
But no matter what, I always felt comfortable with the Gods, the meditations always made me feel better.
For all my life I was searching for some group that I could identify myself.
As if no matter how much I interacted with other people, there was always something missing, all the talking seemed empty.
If I looked for spiritual meaning, or I would find the usual Yehubor preaching, or the weird New Age mix.
I used to ask myself why me? Why I had the opportunity to become a Zevist?
So many talented people out there, why among them only I noticed something was wrong?
I even thought of why the burden of traveling to another country, learn English, and return back to almost never use the language anywhere.
After some time, I started to not care anymore about my doubts, my voice wanted to be heard.
I even got into translations, why not do something that I can do to help?
I'm glad of being part of this wonderful transformation, of seeing the Temple of Zeus getting more brighter and purified.
I guess it's not only us that strives to complete the Magnum Opus.
As built by humans (with the help from the Gods, obvious), the Temple itself need to strive for perfection as well.
As for the people having doubts about the future of the Temple of Zeus, I use to remind myself (from a sermon) that the future isn't set in stone.
Some changes are meant for the better.