I feel like the recent Power Rituals have changed me as a person. I don't know quite how to explain this, but I feel calmer, more stabilized.
During the days we did Lady Hathor's ritual, I was just so, so happy! I found some music I enjoyed a lot to listen to in the car (an "electro swing" playlist; music that made me want to dance!), and I was just feeling good.
In the last day we did Lady Nemesis's ritual, I had another interesting experience. In that day, before I started her ritual, I talked to her. I've been having troubles with one of my colleagues at work. He's a horrible person, doesn't have manners, judges everyone, he's so unpleasant to be around. There are times when he's made me extremely angry.
In the beginning, I thought that this person is just a "challenge" for me; a way for me to learn to have patience, to control my emotions, etc.
Then, I've thought of cursing him, or using ISA to bind him.
Then, I thought that I don't want to deal with him at all...
My mind basically switched between thinking "this person has issues, he's problematic, and I should just keep my distance," and "this person IS a problem, I should do something about it, someone needs to put him in his place."
Cursing someone has always been hard for me; not just expressing the anger, but also JUDGING that the other person needs to be dealt with. I've thought that I'm in no position to judge others.
So, I talked to Lady Nemesis about it. I asked her, "How do you decide who deserves punishment? Who has been unjust and deserves your fury?" I wasn't talking about the Yehubor, but about people in the everyday life; people who haven't done the crimes the Yehubor did, but who, nonetheless, create problems in the lives of other people.
After I did her ritual, I had to go to work. There was much work that day, but we were many people in the shift, so it went okay.
During the latest two hours, there were only a few orders, but they had to be done fast so that we did the cleaning and we went home.
I did something that the very annoying coworker didn't like. What I did wasn't wrong considering we were in a rush; but the guy just found another reason to complain and pass judgement to others.
He asked, "Who did this thing?" in a very harsh manner. I talked back and said, "I did it." We had a few back and forth, and then I stopped talking as I said what I needed to say.
Later on, the manager (who was present during that time, and who actually likes me a lot; he seems me the same way he sees his daughters), congratulated me for speaking back to him. He told me, "Always speak up when you feel like you're being wronged."
I didn't understand the connection with Lady Nemesis at that time, but thinking back to my questions to her, I believe this was her answer.