Other #78529 Have you experienced this attack?

[AskSatanOperator]

I've been a dedicated Zevist for 10 years. Dedicated my soul immediately and have been in devoted practice since. During this time Ive done a great many amazing things with the help of the Gods. I've seen, I've spoken, and I've felt the spiritual on this path. Things you can't ever do as a xtian.

Recently I have been called, like a siren song, back to xtianity. It's embarrassing. I have resisted it and simple logic debunks so much of their belief, as well as the experiences I've directly had with the Gods. But I'm still being called to it like someone from your past asking to sit down to have a conversation with you.

I don't even fully know what I'm trying to say here. I've just been called back to my old religion recently and I've never experienced influence from the enemy like this before. It's an emotional appeal and a nostalgic one and I feel... almost like I miss the feeling of having so many people around you with similar beliefs, the community and understanding that comes with that. The aesthetics that go with it, the crosses that logically I know they stole from the diagram of human chakras, the grand cathedrals, and the straightforward structure of the religion. I'm very conservative and I share a lot of beliefs with xtians, like sex work is disgusting, marriage is for one man and one woman only, polygamy isn't for humans, etc.

I could never go back to a religion so starved of knowledge and wisdom but I've never experienced this feeling before. I'm used to the enemy sending me terror but since I conquered fear and those don't work anymore, this has been the recent trend. Doesn't help that the exposing christianity site is down.

This feels like a failure to even think about xtianity. I abhored it for nearly 10 years and for some reason right now it's calling. I haven't given in of course but I guess I'm wondering if others have felt this before.

 

[Eatingjoy]

No. Because I know by logic it is an inherent slave religion. But if you want to be a slave, go ahead.
You do you. I went away from christian moral framework and christian/atheist world view to get stronger, and wiser. To better myself.

I am not afraid of it. I see some wisdom in it that they have taken from greek philosophy. So not absolutely everything in it is bad.

At times I listen to gospel of thomas, even though I would be classified as a serpent.

This is through an inherent love for myself.

Its a self sabotaging religion that suffocate life. And you will be sherparded by wolves in sheeps clothing.

 

[Tethys333]

Personally, I have received many psychic attacks, but fortunately, none of them ever happened. But, despite this, trust me, it is a very common type of attack.
You've been dedicated for 10 years, right? Are you meditating? Are you protecting yourself? Are you purifying your aura, your soul, and your chakras? If the answer is no, you need to start doing so immediately. You can't live a day without it.
I also recommend that you send back curses after purification by vibrating "Surya."

How to Clean Your Aura

Returning Curses Part 1

Returning Curses Part 2

Aura Of Protection

 

[Henu the Great]

Sounds like you need to engage in the Zevist community more because what appeals to you about these christians, is actually already taking place in here.

 

[The Pythagorean]

I hope the irony of yearning for community while posting to our community from an anonymous service isn't lost on you.

That's your solution, actually being here.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Have you ever done the Final RTR? It would erase the jewish/christian cueses out of your soul and make you more free.

 

[Shadowcat]

It sounds to me like the enemy is pulling at your heartstrings to get you to come back to xnity. Your post almost conveys that you're more so looking for the type of fellowship and nostalgia and sort of family memories that you think you miss that you have tied to Church events and such. Believe it or not this is a deep rooted obstacle for many people trying to deprogram from xnity because it makes them ultimately feel even subconsciously that they are betraying their friends and family and even parts of the very identity and very precious memories. Holidays gatherings and time spent with loved ones come to mind here.

Remember you aren't betraying the people you love or the times that you have to together but it doesn't mean that you have to bring jewsus or xnity into the mix. It is still possible to create these types of things with your loved ones without being centered around a religious themed event or memory at any time of fellowship at all.

As far as the beliefs you claim to share with xtians it does show that you still have a good deal of deprogramming to do. Homophobia is exclusively jewish programming, and I don't mean about supporting the degeneracy that the political LGBT movement has evolved into today (they are behind this as well) Human sexuality in many facets has been shamed and made out to be something disgusting in a lot of ways by jewish religions. Please don't take this the wrong way but as someone who claims to be a zevist for almost 10 years there is something that has been lacking for a good while. It is possible that rtr's may not have been done enough on your part as others have voiced here.

Don't feel like a failure humans have setbacks all the time just pick back up and keep going and you will be fine.

 

[Acolyte Of Pan 666]

Another “i’ve been a zevist for 10 years”, that’s 3 in a month.

They need to tell the yeshiva kids to use different numbers of years

 

[Acolyte Of Pan 666]

Just kidding i don’t think OP is a yid.