Very simple actually, you said it yourself. This happens when your mind is rebelling against the system you keep struggling with, which in this case would be your “work”. Feeling free afterwards could be a sign you are not completely happy with what you do, the hobbies, all that you actually...

Seems like there are two/three jews/vampires at my work. They are in high positions, not surprising. Due to the work contract they cannot fire me, I feel how they watch me, one of them tries to find every mistake I do, raging when it is me, when someone else does it, it seems ok, the other one...

it was also the first day

When I did the repetitions for the sun mantra in the hour of the sun, I finished more than the half of it in the hour, but the rest just two/three minutes while the hour changed planet, is this okay ? Does this ruin the work ?

I think you misunderstood ? Clarify this. I am not talking about ‘external’ recreational use, I am talking about the ability to induce this state by your own power. How will this damage your brain, when it comes from yourself within ?

Peace. Basically searching for a technique/mantra or rune to feel a high, or get a visual change as psychedelics are able to induce.

Peace. 1. I am not sure if I zoomed out and missed a repetition, or a word while working on the square. On the other side it could be only imagination. What do I do ? Start over just to be sure ? 2. Can some of you tell me personal experiences with sun square ? What were your experiences ?