Thank you for the great advice and encouragement guys. I have to say, I have been feeling really alone in this decision as I live in a very, very christian community and have nearly no friends or family. I certainly cant share what is stressing me with anyone here. I have not found anything...

I had thought just my general locale was safe, but if that struck a red flag to you as personal - i deleted it. I am sincere...just very used to the concept of not fitting into anything religious. I have actually been kicked out of churches and groups because "they didnt feel comfortable...