Thank you. I will, over time, cultivate strength as this body wears away.

I recently learned something about flexibility. It came from a former body builder who got a bunch of injuries & wasn't happy with his movement & how tight he was, changing the way he worked out. He said you can be more mobile & flexible together if you strengthened your muscles in flexed...

Boy oh boy I wish there were an easy way to convert my bookmarks, because I have a LOAD of them before everything changed to TOZ.

I have not been here for quite some time, but this constant mention of Satanism is essentially what brought me back. I left a few social media comments explaining where "Adversary" started etc...but ultimately deleted them because it is like fighting a zombie horde. It's very frustrating. A...

I enjoyed reading the summary right after I read the whole thing. I'm hoping it helps permanent retention.

"as one must stay close to them on the high moments as to remember them and to not crash" Remembering at my high points felt extremely relevant to me. I became blind pursuing a large goal & I still haven't re-lit my fire of pursuit after 2 years. The act of believing in a goal & having more...

The will to destrudo can be very deceptive at times. I didn't know I subconsciously thought I deserved punishment until I got rid of it & the dissociation tied to it. The ripples that caused over 32 years were vast. It's like I rode a wave that I did not put myself on, but because I was...

I wonder if it's effective at all to simply vibrate to music? Like, instead of typical humming, make the R for raum or that bee bv vibration that's for the crown chakra. If that were the case I could just open my crown chakra to music while I do work 🙃

Oh I'm definitely past depression & resignation, that was before I therapy'd myself. It'll never be that bad again. I just always feel behind since I feel like opportunities in parts of my life were stolen by circumstance. It's definitely not a powerful way to frame the past. I know I...

No. I have practiced skills that bottleneck in similar places, the same aspects of development, & I don't know how to resolve my issues. I'm sorta spinning my wheels grinding practice & not doing much in the world. As far as trust, I was abused & I learned to not trust the world or myself. I...

I hate being full of potential. I'm 42 this 26th, & all this potential energy not going anywhere swirls up into anxiety. There's something about me & confidence, trust, faith in myself, & picking up after a setback.

Because of the history of non-income that came from my creative skill, I am almost irritated how I feel compelled to chisel out perfection when I really care about what I'm doing. Looking at the beauty of the culmination of maybe hundreds of small decisions is always satisfying at the end, &...

I think Asmodeus & I will become friends.

After I built my PC, I wondered about treating my apartment like a PC case. I have 2 small fans that are like mini-box fans. I set them on the window behind the screen with a little cardboard to seal the area not taken up by the fan. The one that pulls air in from the outside works great, since...

I wasn't sure what Andrapoda was so I searched & hey, it led back to a JOS pdf from Feb 22, The NPC = The Andrapoda. What a great read. THEN another search link led to "IX. Andrapoda Ethics" & my head exploded. I have an unstarted career in UI Design, & seeing text all centered made some of my...