I don't think you're an idiot at all. From the looks of it, nobody else thinks that either. I do think you're learning something, though. You can say you're going to be this or that forever, but beliefs do change over time, so it's best not to claim that but enjoy being what you are for as long...

They don't they the angels are enemies, they do believe the angels are good. They don't think the binding is blasphemous, like you do. There's a difference between your beliefs and theirs; it's not dangerous to them as it may appear to you. There's nothing wrong with that. It's best going...

I highly doubt what you say is the truth. Have you actually studied Wicca? It's white magic, which usually involves healing and protection. I have three friends, one who was Wiccan, one who may be Wiccan (I'll ask her, I would not be surprised.), and one who I know for sure that is Wiccan...