Did you just throw a "lol" in your story. Rape isn't a funny thing and you talk like someone who's never been through it, trust me when I say you wouldn't be "laughing out loud" if it happened. 

Read the info contained here http://www.joyofsatan.org/

No. Just a meth trip.

This is what I'm scared of. Why I haven't done my dedication ritual, I'm scared there's too much outside energies that aren't part of satan and his demons that I need to watch out for and protect myself from and I feel I wouldn't have the heart to ignore them and just freak out or something. But...

No it's not true you can't sell your soul that's BS. You can dedicate yourself and in doing so it should be to free yourself from the norm, stand up for yourself, find happiness, and know Satan is the one and only. Not because you want money or something in return it doesn't work that way. 

Exactly what do you need help with. You mention a degree, and your failing grades. Study more?

1-Dedicate your soul to satan. 2-Go to college.3-Graduate. 4-Make money. 5-Get rich. 6-Hope to become famous. 

Ok quick questions, I'm about to do my deduction ritual this week probably Monday. Should I master simple meditating first before the ritual, or does that not matter? Also after the ritual how often should I be meditating a week? 

Ok thank you that helped very much actually. I'm Mary by the way I don't know if I needed to make a proper introduction to all of you, I'm in college for a nursing degree, I live in utah (crazy Mormon land) I hate it and I don't fit in at all I seem to break every rule like swearing in public...

I'm fluent in Spanish. English. And Italian. I can speak and write fluently all 3. (Because of family and how I was raised) but I'm also in the process of finishing German college courses :) I love languages, if you need help. I'm here. 

As a nursing student who did a research paper on this topic I'd really like to say that vaccines and immunizations have no link at all with autism or Aspergers the doctor who made those claims got his license taken away and wrote an apology for writing false claims about vaccines/immunizations...

Yea I've read everything on the website already, spent 3 days but finally I think I read every paragraph, page and link on there. I tried meditating (not sure I did it right) and now I feel like satanism is correct for me. I love learning and I love reading, I wish there was more I could read up...

If I were to dedicate myself to satan and satanism. Would that be something easy I could probably hide from my family? 

Thank you for welcoming me, I'll be sure to read up on it more before I make the choice of doing a dedication ritual, as of what I've read (which is A LOT, that website is huge haha) I really love what satanism is all about, I will seek your guys help once I fully agree to do it in case I need...

So I'm new to satanism, in fact I've only been reading up on it, no dedication ritual yet, hopefully soon. But everything I read on Satan is about him loving us for who we are, flaws, defects, mistakes and all. I don't know what exactly you guys are arguing about but instead of arguing can't you...