I have recently discovered a specific type of curse from the enemy, I call it a Soul Mark. If you have ever had any Christians or non Satanists touch you for healing, or done Reiki, you may have a Soul Mark. Its usually invisible, but you can be reincarnated with this mark if my intution is...

Killing yourself will only result in being reincarnated again, so its kind of pointless. Give it more time, and ask Satan and the Demons to strength you.