What's up Hunter a lot of us who left Christianity for spiritual satanism had that problem at first. What keptme strong were rituals and meditation. I could feel the Daemonic energy making me invincible you have to embody yourself in Father Lucifers aura.
Well our God has been showing me that I belong by his side since my adolescence and eventually I found jos when I was 19 and dedicated myself. I'm 27 so I have a lot of experience with rituals, meditation, and astrology. Within these 8 years the enemy has been working strong to guide me away...