I've been satanist for awhile, but I've just only started to get in gear and do the 6 month program. Today my grandmother took us to the worst place on earth (church) and I refused to say a single word, sing a single song (Which I used to always do) and shoved the wafer in my pocket and then...
Sometimes we HAVE to deal with these idiots, and I hate when I clearly put out when I want a person to leave but they won't. The best you can do is mentally get the anger out in these situations, picture bashing angels, them just going -poof-, one it helps the deprograming stick, and two when...