I always was forced to go to church as well, but I looked at it as a personal challenge. I went to forgo arguments with my parents, but I used it to make myself stronger. I found it harder to concentrate on father with all the chanting of catholic church, but every week I found it getting easier...

It is not applicable. Read it if you want to, but it isn't JoS beliefs. It is an interesting read, however, and I enjoyed it if only to understand the religion better (out of curiosity). Hail Father!

Welcome! Take your time, and I'm glad you have someone else so close to you to share your experiences with. I wish you the best with your dedication! Any questions, of course just ask. Hail Father!

I like your description. Welcome, brother! Hail Father!

I know exactly what you mean, Brother :) always here to help! Hail Father!

I also don't believe she can 'banish' Father, but if it makes you feel better you could perhaps put protection around just your room, or something along those lines, that way her negative intentions won't disrupt your routine or whatever you wish to accomplish. I would, even if just so I have my...

My opinion is to simply take a break to recuperate. Even if it is only a day or two, reserve some time for yourself, recharge, and relax a bit. Perhaps just do some of the meditations like void and simply feel your personal energy without sending it on any missions. We all need to take off a bit...

I also took the longer road to Father's truth. I always hated the Christian religions. My mother dragged me to baptist, then Methodist, then finally to catholic church. I hated each and every one, for longer than I can remember, though at the time I could never pinpoint why. While living with my...

Much of the time the sad truth is we can't help them. Only by being an example so they want to help themselves can we make any progress. There is no possible way to force someone to listen; they will or won't, and it is entirely their decision. I sometimes feel great pity for those others that...

I want to thank you, brother. This is very inspirational, gives me much hope, and you have my congratulations! Hail Father!

As dedicated, I know that as much as entities try to smother you away, once you gather up your courage and take the step to bring you to Father, if that is what you wish, you will have his and your guardian's protection. It is still a path you must step onto yourself, and you must walk along by...

Glad to have helped! Another thing that has helped me with meditating is to sit in a kind of couch chair/bean bag chair/something fluffy and prop my feet up with a few pillows or a short footrest to get your feet suspended. Also, here's a link off of JoS that really helped me with general...

It sounds like you have just a little too much on your plate to deal with for the moment. I'm not suggesting putting your training or any other responsibilities on the "back burner" at all, but I've found it helps tremendously to take a step back, catch your breath, some sleep, and maybe do a...