Thank you everyone for your input.  While it is still unfortunate that I am unable to manifest anything from my attempts so far, I will continue to try.  I am interested in the truth, beyond all else, and since there is a lot going for this worldview I will continue to put forth the effort...

And thank you, by the way, for replying.  I appreciate it!

I will be attempting power meditations again, and hope that they work.  I am not above putting real work and effort into getting what I want.  On the contrary, should a sign be given to me I will be putting a LOT of effort into improving myself and my abilities this way. As for the sigil prayer...

First of all I would like to apologize.  No doubt what I have to ask will be very familiar, as I am sure those of you who are reading this have seen these situations and questions I will be presenting many times before, from many other people.  I have looked through and read other conversations...