Hehey there everyone, greetings to you all, oh those precious to Father Satan!

I'm new to being aware of His cherishable good graces to me and I'm hungry for knowledge and experience!

A little more about me:

I've known about the original Joy of Satan website for years already but haven't dedicated myself to Him until a few months ago, and the life of me and my little daughter has changed drastically since! Until a few months ago I'd just fondly remember my admiration of the esoteric contents seen on the site years beforehand...

I've come to Father Satan as a result of painful disgruntlement about Krishna Consciousness... (First generation in my biological family when it comes to both faiths, from when I was a teen, so it's not other people's influence, I'm originally from Hungary before coming to the United States by the way...) It's like through the past few years of having been a practicing Krishna devotee was like talking to a wall when I was turning to the Deities, but the instance I invited Lord Satan into my heart, the most affectionate interactions I'm receiving from Him! (Even though I even had dreams of Deities through the past couple over two decades, something even very advanced Krishna devotees apparently scarcely, if at all ever, have...) I ended up, regardless of all the encouraging sounding things heard here and there, feeling that Krishna doesn't want me because I'm not some devotee busting myself constantly to please him, like so many other devotees do... Never ever felt his presence, unlike Satan's... I'd literally just end up because of that with the sentiment: "Just go and keep hanging out with your gopis, you're already good to go having everything you could wish for, I'll just keep quietly rotting away by myself..."

I'm still trying to wrap my head around how Sanatan Dharma is compared to the precious bond we have here with Father Satan, I honestly still feel butthurt how aloof Krishna (and avatars) always seemed compared to just how ecstatically intense and beyond satisfying the love I receive from Satan is... I guess it was all divine arrangement to get me here at last...

Awesome fun facts:

Until almost two months ago I was homeless for ten years as a result of a dream of my TwinFlame am still trying to find telling me to get on the road to eventually find Him... (The only dream I ever had of Him that felt so truly face to face like it was actual waking reality...) When we finally got a home with my lil by now 6 years old daughter, turns out the address contains 38889!!! The money order number for background check for here contained 666!!! Two years ago when an RV got towed and an old friend randomly traveled through exactly when I needed help to retrieve possessions to put into storage, the prepaid visa I gave him in return had a 666 code on the back!!!

Undeniably it's my Beloved Lord Satan helping us over and over again, and the blessing of our new home feels as direct graces from Him!

Other basic fact about me:

Am a born tantric vampire... I'm naturally extremely low energy unless I receive satisfying feeling male affection or bask in their pleasure... (I also seem to possess some downright mind bending, absolutely bloody bewildering astral ability I've only ever heard reported by others only afterwards, it's kinda awkward to talk about because of the nature of the subject, although I'm always open to talk about private stuffs like that in case it helps others aye...) But I've grown extremely demisexual over the years and as a result am celibate for a handful of years now, at least until I find my long desired OtherHalf... So am always miserably low energy... (Also been struggling with decades of depression...)

I fully trust that all things are gonna get better and better and better now that I'm under Father Satan's wonderful graces...

I'm still apprehensive about just where in the world to start when it comes to power meditations, being extremely low energy and all... Or just too damn burnt out by depression through the years? Better nutrition helps too, but that takes damn effort as well ah... Am sure the things I learn here will fix that too...

As of now I feel like a kid in a candy store with all the info contained on here and the websites and PDFs out there, and a little lost as to where to begin to change things for the better... I definitely wanna give back to Father Satan for all His unfathomable Mercy, hopefully I'll grow to have abundant energy for it eventually, whether that's after or even before finding my TwinFlame to properly feed me... *sigh*

Kind of guilty of having attempted to find a million answers to questions about things here by asking Google AI, only to find out a bunch of those responses aren't even found here or were incorrect... I have a gazillion questions aye! *sigh*

I've been wanting to spare people of my endless questions and lengthy typing, I'm also a huuuuuuuuggge loner with probably not even five actual friends... Love being hella picky about the company I keep ahaha...

That sums it up I guess... Hope to contribute very nicely to this community... I'm so grateful to have found you Fam, may you all be blessed with boundless love and good help from our Lord!