I agree, i dont think with simple blunt thoughts. Thats why i trust you all. I regard on dedicating, its gonna be verry hard. I dont have the money to buy any candles. But the paper and blood is posible, i smoke so i could burn it myself if that would be a option. But i fear thats probably...

Thankd for the heads up.

Thnx to most that replied, I do have some points that go black though. Im a male , are there any advantages\disadvamtantages for that. And, i kind of know that i have some spiritual energy. It happens randomly troughout the day, i get this heavy electrict sensation going from top to bottom...

Yea i dont quite know what i should follow, there,s a big list with loads of meditations.

Good day to anyone reading this. I have been watching the joyofsatan, site for awhile. But i dont know where to start. The reason i want to do this, Whell it's the reason that i dont feel like i have a purpose. Bluntly said, i have been interested in the feared of things. I think of demons...