Is anyone in Indianapolis or in close proximity?

I haven't been on a regular basis, I have time to, I've just been putting it off for some reason. I know you get what you put into it, but I literally feel like something is wrong, like I'm not wanted or something, just a vibe I get. I just didn't know if someone had an experience like this or...

I've been a Satanist for a couple years now, but I have been wasting time getting started. I was wondering why almost everyone I've seen has had an experience right after dedication or soon after that, and I haven't had a single thing happen. I know I'm not open enough to actually hear or seen...