Judging off the things you've said, I can only assume you haven't done much reading on the main site. And I'm not gonna tell you to go read it because if you wanted to you would've already done it
With that being said, your desire to commit suicide is an issue in and of itself. That's a very...
I recently came to this conclusion on my own, after helping a handful of others. It's nice to see others here are of the same mindset. A strong and tightly knit community of guidance and fostering is what we need here more than anything else right now, imo.
A Satanist who I helped dedicate...
Wow, I wish I read this years ago. I'm glad Father gave this context to you, it adds a lot more understanding of what we're dealing with and what's at stake
Also I've noticed, in my limited interactions with Father Satan, that when he speaks he uses little words but the feeling/emotion in what...
It's a natural reaction. You'll even feel this from other meditations, more than likely. Just work on amassing more light/bioelectricity and try it again at another date