honestly I didn't change anything about the way I managed my money in those 70 days
I still continued to play games of chance
I have nothing to inherit except my parents' desire to become someone.
or at least a man with a family
That's how it was for me, the first year I dedicated myself.
I thought I was going crazy and sometimes I thought I was in a dream,
(mostly due to the substances I took )
yes indeed, but for some time now I can't get out of the situation I'm in, meaning there's always some obstacle, some imbalance that brings me back to the same point.
I totally understand. Don't worry we have all been there. In my first 2 months I was doing the PDF for wealth and then going into the lottery house like an idiot and expecting to win.
I actually won a few times; understood this wouldn't save me from what I was really asking. Thought they would tell me the lottery and all that, felt convenient. Even if they told me the lottery in retrospect after 17 years in this, I understand I would be again bankrupt as I was totally ignorant. Winning anything would be wasted again in a cycle of ignorance.
I did not know nothing about money or wealth at all and expected a quick bailout for emotional reasons; I projected this to the Gods and even tried to do the same thing you do here, I was fed up (but did not give up as I knew there was more to life and the knowledge).
For wealth generation long term, you must start accumulating at least a form of some assets (look up what assets vs liabilities are) or invest in yourself and skills or tools to create more wealth with. Investing in yourself (job, spiritual progress, actual skills) is the fastest way. It's better to save for objects or skills that will give you more returns of money or give you life advantage.
Gambling or games of chance is not it. In the rare case one wins, one might see they have lost more from this in the process.
The above doesn't mean your spells doesn't work it means knowledge is lacking.
As for not inheriting, don't worry, this is also something I am familiar with. Started from minus in existence in general. Therefore without this one has to accept that they have to start from ground up. It's good enough if you don't have tremendous debts or health issues (very bad things). Unless you have these you are in zero.
Substances, no comment. You must get out of this, these just affect your judgement and they are also a financial and health net loss. You lose more than you gain in all domains.
Change habits, start education and definitely cut substances. The spiritual means aid you from the back to this, and then you must take the steps. There are no other long-term and formidable ways to turn this around.
Set 3 years plan minimum for this and do your earnest to manifest your full will to stay on this. Your previous lifestyle has taught you that quick reactions is progress (drugs = altered state in 10 seconds), (gambling = instant reward), (If I don't get my way immediately = that shit ain't working). This programmed you to not see things very clearly, but new knowledge and ethic can help you here.
If you practice what I tell you above for 3 years you WILL see life getting better.
Give this gift to yourself and start from where you are, and you'll see. No empty promises the above is functional advice.