if a dedicated Zevist kills himself will the gods be angry or understanding?
would it be more ethical to distance from the gods before dying?
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Active HelperYou would only be cursing yourself, and would be making your next lifetime twice as difficult as the current one. Maybe even worse than that. You would be amplifying all of your problems exponentially.
You are here for the opportunity to grow and to heal. Every thing that you do to heal your soul and improve your life will stay with you in future generations, and all of your future life times will each be improving exponentially. If you decide to be working to improve yourself, there will never be another lifetime that is as bad as this current one was.
I can tell you have a lot of christian programming that you need to remove. What we do or not do in Zevism has nothing to do with fear of external beings, but natural consequences and cause and effect. It's easy to cop out in this christian-style morality, but you can't escape the natural consequences of anything you do.
When you commit suicide, it means that the karma that caused you your current situation wasn't removed and was probably even made worse, so your next life will still have similar and worse problems.
Also, you can never distance from the Gods if you are a dedicated Zevist. It's been said on ToZ that the dedication is permanent and no matter what you do, even if you convert to christianity, the Gods will still be with you to protect you and escort you after you die. Those who aren't dedicated Zevists and protected by the Gods risk of being captured enemy vampiric beings, so I'm not even sure why you would want to distance from the Gods anyway.