Maybe a strange question.

Maybe a strange question. At the moment, I am going through an extremely difficult period. Thus, I never have a very social animal... Recently, I met a Zevist sister who showed me the way to Father Zeus. I fell in love with her. At the moment, she is in the process of a divorce and she told me that for a while, she wants to be alone... It's already been 7 days since I haven't spoken to her and I feel like I'm going crazy... I tried to anything in such a way that I can respect his wish. I feel torn... I would try another solution... The question is: How could I get in touch with Zevists in the area where I live? I say this because if I were to talk face to face about Zevism, maybe I would be able to exterminate my anxiety. Until I met her, I was able to successfully manage my negative thoughts. Another problem would be that since June 19, I have a difficulty in visualizing the chakras and spinning them. I see them as if I were looking through a window dirty with black mold... Thank you for your patience in reading my message. HAIL ZEUS!