I think you have to coax yourself into things. You don't have to tell me, but I am presuming that you masturbate. Do. Then after you have orgasmed, use that orgasm energy for something. I would suggest Aura of Protection or Soul Cleaning. It's better to clean yourself first before empowering yourself; if you empower yourself with crap still in your Soul then that crap might increase, or at least hinder you and block things off and clog things up. After you get yourself to do AoP/SC with orgasm energy twice per day (after waking up and before sleeping), then keep doing that meditation, then add something else after a bit of time.
In at least some ways, I have been similar to what you have said. Maybe you have to just force yourself to do a small thing, and if (and maybe when, if you have been susceptible to these) you forget or procrastinate or are distracted, then just continue again, but don't be disheartened. The Mind can be so stubborn; forcing it is hard for some people, so maybe instead of forcing yourself, you should just ease yourself into it gently, like I said in the first sentence above. The reason the Mind can be so stubborn is that like attracts like; we increase whatever we do, have, be, put into ourselves - and that becomes more and more, and trying to break that and change it is like trying to uproot a big tree which has rooted very deeply into our Mind/Psyche; therefore, very deeply into our Soul - and yes, that can be painful, uncomfortable, etc.
Say you have a million copper coins and you think that's nice, but then you decide that you want some silver coins because silver coins are better than copper coins - you need to add silver coins to the collection. At first, it will be 1 silver coin amid a million copper coins, so with that 1:1000000 silver:copper coins, it looks, feels, seems like nothing but a waste of time - but the more silver coins you add to it, the greater the percentage of those silver coins is in your collection - and the smaller the percentage of copper coins are in your collection. Eventually, you have 1 million copper coins and 1 million silver coins. Nice. That also means that not only do you have 50:50 each, you have also increased yourself - from 1 million to 2 million. You just have to do it. Get there. Then you decide you want gold coins because gold coins are better than silver coins, and you do the same thing. The reason I think this analogy works very well (which I just made up on the spot here and now, so if I do say so myself, lol) is because we can always have more and more types of coins/paper money/etc. - and we, as beings, have the innate ability to increase ourselves infinitely. We want more - we do more; we have and become more. Maybe we decide we like copper coins again because of their properties, so we increase those again. Eventually when we realise to work evenly and with balance, we'll have all of the coins, and other things, in their own respective amounts in balance for us. We don't need to steal coins from others and parasitise off them, because we can raise Energies ourselves straight from the Aether.
Copper coins have properties that silver coins and gold coins don't have, just like the others also do with each other, etc., as well. Maybe later, we find platinum coins... Once upon a time, surely Satan was an unmagick or little-magick being, but look at Him now! He has so many copper, silver and gold coins - plus platinum coins and whatever-else coins, as well. More so than that, He also has various denominations of paper big money, etc. He has higher denominations because He has been working on it for so long and consistently - getting into a pattern of behaviour, which then became; therefore is now, a part of Him. Once, He might have had just 1 copper coin and no other coins at all, nor any papers nor anything. Then now He is the God of Gods, the highest-ranking God. Is it possible any other God or Goddess could increase past Him? If the Universe is infinite and eternal, and if there is no such thing as "absolute power", then yes, They could. Maybe They don't want to - maybe Satan is too far ahead for Them to be able to! We all - Gods and Goddeses, and us alike - have to start somewhere.
For example, if you are at 0 and you want to get to 100, then you have to work to get there. In this example, 0 is doing nothing. 1 is, for example, AoP. 2 is Soul Cleaning. 3 is expanding 2 to include Aura and/or Chakra Cleaning. 4 might be yoga, etc., etc., etc. You make your meditation programme up yourself, for yourself, so it works the best way for you. How it might happen - and this is just an example, don't forget; you do yours yourself - you might start to do 1, and then for a few days you do 1, but then you forget by accident. After you remember, later that day or the next day, you do 1 again. This might happen repeatedly for a week or a month... Lather, rinse, repeat. After some time, while you have started to do that 1 repeatedly, even if you forget, procrastinate or are distracted, it then becomes a part of you. The more you do it, the more it becomes a part of you. What you focus on consumes you; thoughts create things.
It might take a short time or a long time, but doing it, even if not every single day, it becomes a part of you. Every day and consistency are extremely important, but don't fret - we're working up to that. We can't run before we can walk. Maybe some are walking with a limp, or they are only crawling, or they are in a wheelchair. We start from somewhere, and work from there. After it has become, or while it is becoming, a part of you, you would then do 1 and 2, and while you are doing 1 and keep doing it and no longer forget, procrastinate or be distracted (which might still happen sometimes), you are still doing 1, but also 2 now, as well.
Maybe you'll have a repeat performance with 2 as you did with 1 - forgetting/procrastinating/being distracted, but this time with 2, but you're still doing 1 already anyway. After some time, 2 will also become a part of you, just like 1 did. Then you can add 3, so you'll be doing 1, 2 and 3. Maybe, or maybe not, 3 would be much easier than 1 and 2 were, so you've grasped 1 and 2 and are doing them properly, and now 3 is added and you might or might not do it easily. Because you've been doing 1, 2 and 3 and managed to do them consistently, it might then be easier for other things to be done consistently without forgetting/procrastinating/being distracted, because you'd had the practice of overcoming any forgetting/procrastinating/being distracted by this point (or maybe still need more practice with it), so other things might be easier. Of course, I don't know, so that's why I say that it might or it might not - you know you more than I do! Then you do 4, then 5, then 6...
Quite often I have forgot to do a particular meditation, and then I'd realise, with enough time before it would mean failing to do it, that I need to do it. It is a random realisation, like "Oh! I need to do my meditation/s." Checking the time and Astrological time, there is plenty of time for me to do it. This hasn't always been the case, though; I kept missing/forgetting days, but now I remember sort of by accident that I need to do it, before it's too late which would have rendered it missed. If need-be, use a reminder app or alarm or something. Like attracts like, so we have to make like be, first, before we can get more like. Remember Quantum Physics - 2 entangled particles work with each other; like attracts like. We need to put like here first before can get more like - and some of the likes within us already might counteract the likes which we are trying to have, so we have to just add more coins to the collection, and eventually we'll be able to do things ourselves. Also do a bit of meditation, then play a bit of a computer game or watch a bit of a programme or go for a walk through a park, etc. Focusing solely upon Spiritual things might be way too daunting, not to mention it could be imbalancing, so we need to ease it in alongside and with and among other things.
Trying to do too much too quickly might be - or again, might not be - too big a change all at once. Again - the more you do it, the more it becomes a part of you. What you focus on consumes you; thoughts create things. Put like in to get more like. Add bits of things more when it's OK to carefully and gently. Lay the groundwork. As I say - start lowly and slowly, then build yourself up from there.