I request the deletion of my account

Dark Lawyer wrote:

Oh, there's a misunderstanding: I don't want to opt out, I'm not leaving the forum. I just thought it would be better to I write about these off topics in this topic.

I missed most things 20 years ago, but thanks for the encouragement.

I did not mean leaving the forums, but I got the impression that you are done with spiritual practices which is what I referred as "missing out" if you do so.

Henu the Great wrote:

I did not mean leaving the forums, but I got the impression that you are done with spiritual practices which is what I referred as "missing out" if you do so.

Yes, I'm done with spiritual experiments.

I've arrived in the nothing. And I feel that I've always belonged here.

I have no intention of denying my Zevism initiation, as I do not know what the truth is. But it seems that I will not go down that road, and I will not fulfil the commitments I made in the initiation text. If what you on this forum believe is true, should I expect to be punished for leaving the path of Zevism?

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Reminder of the text of the initiation:

"Before the almighty and ineffable God Satan/Lucifer and in the presence of all Daemons of Elysium, who are the True and the Original gods, I, (state your full name) renounce any and all past allegiances. I renounce the false Judeo/Christian god Jehova, I renounce his vile and worthless son Jesus Christ, I renounce his foul, odious, and rotten holy spirit.

I proclaim Satan Lucifer as my one and only God. I promise to recognize and honor him in all things, without reservation, desiring in return, his manifold assistance in the successful completion of my endeavors."

Dark Lawyer wrote:

Henu the Great wrote:

I did not mean leaving the forums, but I got the impression that you are done with spiritual practices which is what I referred as "missing out" if you do so.

Yes, I'm done with spiritual experiments.

I've arrived in the nothing. And I feel that I've always belonged here.

I have no intention of denying my Zevism initiation, as I do not know what the truth is. But it seems that I will not go down that road, and I will not fulfil the commitments I made in the initiation text. If what you on this forum believe is true, should I expect to be punished for leaving the path of Zevism?

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Reminder of the text of the initiation:

"Before the almighty and ineffable God Satan/Lucifer and in the presence of all Daemons of Elysium, who are the True and the Original gods, I, (state your full name) renounce any and all past allegiances. I renounce the false Judeo/Christian god Jehova, I renounce his vile and worthless son Jesus Christ, I renounce his foul, odious, and rotten holy spirit.

I proclaim Satan Lucifer as my one and only God. I promise to recognize and honor him in all things, without reservation, desiring in return, his manifold assistance in the successful completion of my endeavors."

There is no one punishing you.

But in reality you are punishing yourself by not rising above your fate, which admittedly is hard work, but doable.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

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Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked on your chakra's for, through daily meditation with the AUM's into them and doing chakra spinning daily?

Dark Lawyer wrote:

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Why would the gods punish you? That is ridiculous. Gods would never harm anybody except for some horrible criminal who deserves it.

You are only punishing yourself. By choosing not to be healing and improving yourself both in your body and your life. You will only regret this in the future when you see how much better your life would have been if you just put a small amount of effort.

Aquarius wrote:

Blitzkreig [JG wrote:

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In regards to your family, if they have not yet had serious issues from the vaccine, then that is a positive sign. This means they endured the initial damage, and the effects of the vaccine will be much less now.

I don't believe this to be true. There's people who take the vaccine who are all fine and well only to die of heart attack at age 30, six months later.

Will everyone who took that vaccine die?
Im asking because I did it before I knew it was dangerous.I was actually under 18 and listened to my parents

Dark Lawyer wrote:

Henu the Great wrote:

I did not mean leaving the forums, but I got the impression that you are done with spiritual practices which is what I referred as "missing out" if you do so.

Yes, I'm done with spiritual experiments.

I've arrived in the nothing. And I feel that I've always belonged here.

I have no intention of denying my Zevism initiation, as I do not know what the truth is. But it seems that I will not go down that road, and I will not fulfil the commitments I made in the initiation text. If what you on this forum believe is true, should I expect to be punished for leaving the path of Zevism?

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Reminder of the text of the initiation:

"Before the almighty and ineffable God Satan/Lucifer and in the presence of all Daemons of Elysium, who are the True and the Original gods, I, (state your full name) renounce any and all past allegiances. I renounce the false Judeo/Christian god Jehova, I renounce his vile and worthless son Jesus Christ, I renounce his foul, odious, and rotten holy spirit.

I proclaim Satan Lucifer as my one and only God. I promise to recognize and honor him in all things, without reservation, desiring in return, his manifold assistance in the successful completion of my endeavors."

I actually know someone else who's older and makes less money than you do while working more hours than you do. They meditated everyday for 30 years and still never got out of that cycle. You have to work with what you have and have the courage to take opportunities when they come, if they ever do. Worst case scenario, the things you endure now might serve as a lesson in another life- committing suicide or not committing to that lesson would be a waste. Not sure what to tell you otherwise, life isn't fair. The good thing in your situation is that you have little to lose, personally I'd allow some recklessness and chaos into my life which has worked for me. You shouldn't strive for order when your life is structured poorly.

Missrainbow1 wrote:

Aquarius wrote:

Blitzkreig [JG wrote:

" post_id=378350 time=1659304217 user_id=21286]
In regards to your family, if they have not yet had serious issues from the vaccine, then that is a positive sign. This means they endured the initial damage, and the effects of the vaccine will be much less now.

I don't believe this to be true. There's people who take the vaccine who are all fine and well only to die of heart attack at age 30, six months later.

Will everyone who took that vaccine die?
Im asking because I did it before I knew it was dangerous.I was actually under 18 and listened to my parents

Being a Zevist, you probably won't suffer anything, as the Gods protected you.

Aquarius wrote:

Missrainbow1 wrote:

Aquarius wrote:

I don't believe this to be true. There's people who take the vaccine who are all fine and well only to die of heart attack at age 30, six months later.

Will everyone who took that vaccine die?
Im asking because I did it before I knew it was dangerous.I was actually under 18 and listened to my parents

Being an Zevism, you probably won't suffer anything, as the Gods protected you.

Thank you)

Missrainbow1 wrote:

Aquarius wrote:

Missrainbow1 wrote:

Will everyone who took that vaccine die?
Im asking because I did it before I knew it was dangerous.I was actually under 18 and listened to my parents

Being an Zevism, you probably won't suffer anything, as the Gods protected you.

Thank you)

Не за что)

CaspianTheDreamer wrote:

Missrainbow1 wrote:

Aquarius wrote:

I don't believe this to be true. There's people who take the vaccine who are all fine and well only to die of heart attack at age 30, six months later.

Will everyone who took that vaccine die?
Im asking because I did it before I knew it was dangerous.I was actually under 18 and listened to my parents

Do not worry. I also was forced against my will to take that shit.
The gods will protect you, and you can always start a physical body cleaning working, with the runes Sowilo, Wunjo or maybe even Thurisaz (be carefully focused if you wanna use this last one). I preferably use two runes for stuff, but you can use one or more. You may also use Surya x111 times in your working instead.
If you are too busy and too worried, hold a ritual to Father and request for healing, although I'm saying this in case you are so worried you can't get it out of your head, which is not good. Mentally or spiritually.
Be very willful in magick. Have this inner knowing that you are powerful and you are actually doing what you want, and bringing what you want to reality.

Thank you so much)

Ol argedco luciftias wrote:

You will only regret this in the future when you see how much better your life would have been if you just put a small amount of effort.

Thank you all for your replies.

Ol argedco luciftias, I did not make a small effort, I made a bigger one.

And you have made a logical fallacy of reasoning: there is no way to "see" in the future what my life might have been like if I had done this or that or not done that.

VoiceofEnki wrote:

Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked on your chakra's for, through daily meditation with the AUM's into them and doing chakra spinning daily?

Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked? And during that time, what concrete, tangible, physical results have you achieved with magic? In the physical world we live in.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked? And during that time, what concrete, tangible, physical results have you achieved with magic? In the physical world we live in.

I know you are upset, but VoE is asking you are factors which directly influence one's magical output.

As far as what sorts of results are possible, I have had plenty of material, physical, and emotional changes, including ones that happen without any work besides the application of spiritual energy itself.

I also have a friend who did the "Free time" workings that I wrote about, and this totally changed his career for the better. This took him about 2 months of doing the long version.

I think this is a situation where you must pick yourself up and try again. Do not doubt your magic, ever, because it is will-based. I remember you said how you felt the energy of Fehu. It did not simply disappear, but you applied it and it worked. However, it seems more effort is still needed.

The upcoming Moon in Taurus and Sun in Sag. Squares are also strong for wealth. Don't give up just yet.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

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You will see years from now when you see how far other people have grown, healed, and advanced without you because you have chosen to leave yourself behind. And when you are still having the same kinds of repetitive problems showing up in your life that many of us have healed and removed.

The time you would certainly know what a waste of time you have chosen is after you die when you are between lives and your soul is with the gods waiting to reincarnate again. The gods will show you what work you still need to do, and how much further along you would have been if you consistently did at least a small amount every day.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

VoiceofEnki wrote:

Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked on your chakra's for, through daily meditation with the AUM's into them and doing chakra spinning daily?

Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked? And during that time, what concrete, tangible, physical results have you achieved with magic? In the physical world we live in.

The reason I asked you is because I am 100% certain this is where your problem lies.

To succeed in magical workings, you need to have power. To produce power, you must advance and empower your soul.

To do that, you must work on your chakra's. Not just for a few weeks, or months, but years with dedicated effort.

Pythia had said in the past, after continuous work of at least 10.000 vibrations into your chakra's (which if you do say 30 vibrations daily into each chakra, will take you about a year), you will begin to step into realms of power.

However, to really build major power takes more time and work than that.

If you do some work for a few weeks, and then quit it because you don't feel anything, and are never consistent, you won't build any power at all.

Without power, you can spend literally years doing workings and see no results.

Instead of doing runic workings and such, you need to build up your soul. Build your vrill, step into realms of power.

You are putting the cart before the horse and then complaining the horse never gets anywhere.

HAIL ZEUS!

Dark Lawyer wrote:

VoiceofEnki wrote:

Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked on your chakra's for, through daily meditation with the AUM's into them and doing chakra spinning daily?

Let me ask a simple clarifying question.

How long have you worked? And during that time, what concrete, tangible, physical results have you achieved with magic? In the physical world we live in.

Just to clarify, I am not upset at all what you have been saying here.

The last few days I have been reading your topic here and thinking about a solution, since this is a serious problem you are having.

I asked what is causing these things for you, which I concluded it is caused by your lack of spiritual foundation.

That is why I asked you that question, to see if indeed this is where your issue lies.

Consistency is the most important.

Even if say in the past you had consistently worked on your soul daily for a long period of time, if you have not done any chakra work consistently for years, all your past effort has mostly gone to waste unfortunately..

It is like going to the gym and then quitting after 2 years of serious training, loosing all your gains over the course of years of inactivity, meaning if you start training again you will be almost at square 0.

The workings you are doing require a certain level of power to succeed. It is like doing a serious weight lifting achievement.

You can only succeed at it after building yourself up and having the required strength.

Since the working did nothing for you, it all comes down to your spiritual power failing you, which is alleviated by doing the work on your soul.

Basically, you need to hit the proverbial gym and empower your chakra's to be able to see the results you expect and need.

Thank you all for your comments. We do not know each other, and yet you are genuinely helpful. And you take the time to write me advice.

I am 39 years old, and in that time it has become clear that I am not capable of surrendering myself permanently to any religious belief without direct evidence.

So, unfortunately, it is in vain that you write to me with good intentions to do this or that spiritual practice. I have already been doing my best by doing the various exercises/programmes you suggest every day without experiencing anything or my problems starting to move towards a solution.

It was the most I could do without faith. Since I am incapable of faith, and I am not experiencing the results of the exercises, I cannot continue on this path. I have no reason to continue. There are two cases in which I could continue: if I were capable of religious faith without experience on a sustained basis; or if I had experienced at least minimal results in all this time, which would have given me the ammunition to start faith.

Frankly, at 40, doomed to a life of loneliness, having made bad choices and fucked up my life, stuck in a doomed Balkan country, I don't even care if I get a new job or how much money I have to live on.

If reincarnation exists, then in my previous life or lives I may have committed suicide, and in my current life I have followed the same previous pattern, led myself into the same hopeless situation, and just as irreversibly fucked up my life.

Although I can't believe that either, because of course all the signs point to the fact that we live once and there is nothing after death. At least I think that no one on this forum can prove otherwise.

Whatever the truth, my current life is irreversibly the way it is. And I feel that my way is Cioran's nihilism. Whatever ideals or spiritual ideas I try to commit myself to permanently, I always come back here and feel at home. In nothingness.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

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Due to your circumstances I advised you to begin a working, but there was always the risk that you could get upset at a perceived failure.

There have been plenty of times when I was unhappy, overly cynical, thought I had already fixed something, or whatever. However, none of that means the energy doesn't work.

In reality, you would have proved this to yourself if you worked more on beginner exercises, but you tried more of an intermediate task (pulling off a wealth working). Most likely, your power was not enough for a strong result and/or it ran into karma. Due to this, you perceived it as a total failure and it soured your mood.

If you tried workings which are easier to manifest, which also includes our short-term meditations, then this would have built up your natural confidence.

Also, do not forget that many problems could with society's inability to correctly make use of you. You have a lot of learned knowledge, plus I can see that you are intelligent. You are also able to work for long hours and so on. All of these are valuable skills, but because they are not applied correctly, then this is causing you stress. Yet, this is not your fault as a person.

It is probably better if you just relaxed and tried to do some basic meditations, such as a 30-60 minute basic routine. You will feel the energy here and this will build up your confidence by providing you the sort of evidence which you are looking for.

Blitzkreig [JG wrote:

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It is probably better if you just relaxed and tried to do some basic meditations, such as a 30-60 minute basic routine. You will feel the energy here and this will build up your confidence by providing you the sort of evidence which you are looking for.

I have a fetish, which is a great erotic experience for me. It is not harmful to others or to me. It doesn't involve genital contact or intimate contact, so there is no need for the two people involved to be in a loving relationship or to know each other. And the other party may not even know that they are giving me erotic pleasure through such physical contact. This fetish is not common, so there is certainly not much competition for energy. And it can take a variety of forms.

But there may be complicating factors:

1. Fewer women are open/able to it.

2. And I'm a loner and I live a stimulus-poor life, so there's little chance of experiencing such fetishes.

3. And the woman should take the initiative for the first time, because it's not a average situation, and I have no experience and my confidence is in tatters in this area.

Do you think a specifically designed rune work will provide easy results and thus evidence? For example 40 days? I did the Fehu project for 87 days, now I don't want to experiment for more than 40 days.

There is a topic on this:

Magic for Getting sexual fetishes in reality

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=54228

And Jack has repeatedly suggested the Aum Klim Kamadevaya Namah mantra to others as the most effective way, so I thought of this mantra.

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=33267&p=136758&hilit=AUM+KLIM+KAMADEVAYA+NAMAH#p136758

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=30954&p=135456&hilit=AUM+KLIM+KAMADEVAYA+NAMAH#p135456

What do you think? Is there any point in waiting for results after 40 days? And if so, what should I do? I've never done this kind of magic work before, but I could get enthusiastic about it and would do it if you could help me with the technical information.

If you need any other information to help me answer, I'd be happy to post it here in the topic or by email.