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Dark Lawyer wrote:

HP. Zevios Metathronos wrote:

I say goodbye to the forum.

Unfortunately, my problems have not been solved - in fact, the situation is worse - and I have neither the energy nor the time to keep trying.

Thanks for the helpful and constructive comments from everyone - special mention to Henu the Great and Blitzkreig. I hope I have contributed something to the forum with a few posts. You all keep fighting and keep improving, it is great what you are doing.

And what else is there to do? It is not like your only options are a Zevist lifestyle or not at all? At some point, you may find yourself in a situation that magic could easily solve and wish you had developed those abilities.

I know you were working on your routine and learning things, but also trying to exercise. You said you had a small amount of time. I believe you should focus on the basic activities only. For example: 5 minutes of void, 2 minutes of visualizing, 5 minutes of aura cleaning with Surya, 10 minutes of chakra opening + spinning, 30 reps of Algiz for a protective aura, 40 reps of Fehu to attract wealth and opportunity for yourself. Total time is about 45 or 50 minutes.

If you want to do more, then look at the hatha yoga pdf. You can do this in about 15-20 minutes. Do not do regular exercise like cardio or weight lifting if you are not doing yoga. Yoga is the first priority.

The above routine covers all the basics and will give you success. It also includes a Fehu working to resolve your problems with wealth. If have other issues, please elaborate on them.

As a Zevist you will suffer on your path countless times, but the satisfaction of living a positive life is incomparable. Learn to take the bad days and you will find there is nothing so bad that can put you down. The last post from HP Zevios Metathronos, "How to be a man" should help you in this way

Don't just right away burn the bridges behind you.

Just take a moment with yourself, it is ok if you need time to think and deal with the things bothering you.

Read here before to renounce: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?t=75683External ↗

88HungarianSatanicWarrior666 wrote:

Neked mint honfitársamnak, külön is köszönöm a biztatást. Itt vagyok Zevism-ként, 2019-ben végeztem el a beavatásomat. Több mint 3 éve megszabadultam a piálástól - tény hogy ebben Sátán segített. Sokan el se akarják hinni, hogy csak úgy letettem az italt. Felszámoltam a keresztény életemet (ott dolgoztam 8 évig, keresztények voltak az ismerőseim, még pap is akartam lenni stb.) Elvégeztem a sulit munka mellett, önköltségen. 5 év helyett 11 év alatt izzadtam ki, de összejött a summa. :) Szóval láthatod, hogy nem vagyok az a feladós fajta. Két és fél éve nem tudnak megzsarolni semmivel, hogy beadassam az oltást. Nemrég még a kávéról is leszoktam. :)

Szóval tudom hogy segítő szándékkal ajánlják itt nekem a "Hogyan legyünk férfiak" topicot, de sok újat nem tudnak mondani. Eddig bírtam. Egy éve doktoráltam, először az oltások miatt nem találtam állást, most meg azért nem mert interjúra se hívnak be sehova. Ráment 11 év a fiatalságomból, hétvégéken vagy a suliban ültem vagy a munkahelyen, tanultam karácsonykor és mindig, erre ment el az összes munkahelyi szabadságom (meg fizetetlenek). A semmiért. Ha lesz még villany decemberben, akkor sem tudom hogy miből fogjuk fizetni, de itt biztatnak, hogy "Sátán biztosan nem fog éhezni hagyni". Még egyetlen ember nem tudott válaszolni HP Zevios Metathronos topicjában, hogy vajon hogyan állítják meg rúnákkal a negyedmilliárd éhező afrikait. Meg láthatóan fogalmuk sincs arról, hogy mi van itt Magyarországon.

Nekem ez az állás volt az utolsó lehetőség, hogy fel tudjak készülni a túlélésre. Minden jel arra mutatott hogy felvesznek, álom meló lett volna. Azt hittem, hogy Sátán segített hogy végre behívjanak valahova interjúra. És én éltem is a lehetőséggel, mert nem várok el ingyenes ajándékokat. Jól sikerült az interjú. És nem költök luxus dolgokra, tudtam volna hogy miket kell vásárolnom az új fizetésből ahhoz, hogy felkészüljünk a nehéz időkre. Nem csak a sült galambot vártam volna.

Nem jött össze, tudomásul vettem. Továbbra is csak azt tudom mondani, hogy ne térj le az Zevism útjáról. Ezt fura lehet tőlem olvasni ebben a topicban, de komolyan gondolom. Nekem viszont nincs több lendületem, ez az állás mozgósította az utolsó motivációimat és reményeimet, és ez volt az utolsó csepp a pohárban. Itt maradok a szarban, és várom az Éhezők Viadalát.

Henu the Great wrote:

His issue stems from mindset of failure and he has not turned it into mindset of success. Had he taken your money, who knows what might have happened as he had no foundation to use it from.

His situation is his fate playing out and his refusal to fight back and change it. Bending over, quitting and essentially giving the finger to the two of us does not excactly invalidate our effort, even though you would like to think so.

Henu, I am patient, but can you slowly let go of this thread? :) At the end of the interview, the interviewer was satisfied that "we had a good talk". At university, I was the only one who got an A in a particular teacher/subject. No one else got an A that semester. Surely the "failure mindset" is the reason why about four of our class graduated summa - including me. And the "failure mindset" makes recovering alcoholics disbelieve that I put the drink down on my own and have been sober in this shit ever since. And I finished university in 11 years instead of 5. Probably because I have a habit of giving up on my ambitions and believing in failure. :lol: I also gave up coffee recently because I'm always focused on failure. I think if you saw the picture on my CV, you would not mention the "failure mindset".

Please try to change your perspective, you are looking in the wrong place.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

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Thanks for taking time to describe the situation. I was actually sensing that it's somewhat like this, but since I did not know for sure I could not recommend freeing of the soul workings for your issues. Hampered love life, related hangups and such would be rather easily fixed by various cleanings and freeing of the soul workings. The same goes for your financial and work related issues. It is of no surprise you are facing such obstacles given the fact that you have accumulated all sorts of detrimental ties to people and karmic seeds from your own actions, extending even into your past lifes.

All in all the situation is dire and complex, yet, some methods would alleviate your woes in short to medium term and others long term to future life/lives (freeing of the soul workings, cleaning your chakras and aura, protection meditations and Spiritual Cleansing rituals). If anything, lessening future suffering would be a wise option instead of totally giving up.

Now, it seems you are at your wits end and just want to give up. But I urge you to think about your personal future and how things can be shaped. Like I said before, being completely at the whims of your fate is worse than partially thrown around like a ragdoll. The choice is yours.

I write these down because Henu says that physical action in itself is meh.

Not true. I have written in multiple occasions and even to you directly that a healthy balance is needed. Both spiritual and physical actitivies compliment each other and are needed. Despite mostly talking about spirtual practices I do not ignore this in my own life. Perhaps I should start mentioning this more often again here. I just take it for granted that we live our lives and do things, and boost them with spiritual means. To me this seems obvious.

Henu the Great wrote:

Answer #2

I know exactly what will happen if your writing makes me feel better and I decide to continue.

Tomorrow I get up at 04.40. Feed my cat etc. I will not have time to meditate. If I do, it will be rushed and low quality. I will go to work. I will listen to the daily ramblings of semi-illiterate idiots. And I know exactly that I'm wasting another day for nothing. Because I should have been working as a lawyer for over a year.

Before lunch my hair will be standing on end from boredom and bitterness. Then, after spending at least 11 hours there, I come home empty, enervated and tired. I will have no one to talk to in the evening except my cat, and the last thing I will feel like doing and have the energy to do is meditate.

And all the while I'm constantly dreading what will happen in the winter. Because I haven't been hired to work anywhere in 1 year, and the prime minister is exercising decree government, so he can reintroduce compulsory vaccination at any time without justification.

I can only repeat myself: time is running out. To date no one has answered my question on the HP Zevios Metathronos thread: how will Ritual's stop 250 million Africans? Or how will we feed our countries without petroleum, fertilizer and store-bought feed?

I am sorry, but I know that for me to continue would only be a moment of enthusiasm. I worry about the people I love, I worry about myself. And I know I'm completely helpless, and I could have done a lot in the last 12 months on a mid-level lawyer's salary. And Satan is no help, I have to admit that. Luckily I stopped taking Xanax after 2 days, I don't like drugs. But with such frustration, anger and sadness there is no way I can do quality meditation. And Blitzkreig says 45-50 minutes as an absolute minimum... Plus yoga, etc, etc, etc, etc.

I repeat: I have another side. Everything would be different if I had been hired for that job. I can mobilise enormous strength and enthusiasm. I talked to a friend of mine for six months and she is now Zevist, she has done his own initiation. I don't need luxury. Believe me, if I could get into normal circumstances, I would do Ritual like a steam engine. But with this constant anxiety I can't do spiritual work in the long run. I have planned ahead how I will use that money, month by month, to gradually put our life back in order before the country collapses.

And I repeat: for me, that was the last straw. I've never had a feeling of crying at work, never taken a single Xanax, etc. And I'm alone and I can't get up from this now. It must be Satan's mercy that I haven't started drinking alcohol again at this point.

I told Satan that I hoped one day I would really be the Zevist I had the potential to be in my soul. Maybe in my current life. But now I am helpless. I struggled a lot, and when I finally got the result (the degree), it only got worse. Enough, tired.

But thank you for your reply, of course, and I'm interested in a more detailed explanation. However, I understand if you don't write it, because it's a waste of your time if I'm not going to apply it.

Henu the Great wrote:

So, what is your point? I still stand behind both posts. The context for the first is that you can not achieve greater success without employing spiritual means. Just as our enemy has done... The context in personal development is the same, best results are achieved when spiritual means are included in the whole.

You have shown severe lack of understanding while having claimed having read through copious amounts of material. Something does not add up. Even using vibrations seems foreign to you. So are you for real or are you trying to pull some dirty tricks here by making claims that methods provided by ToZ do not work?

I have listed some serious results that I have personally achieved in my own life, with zero magic. That's all I said. No more, no less. And it logically follows that this statement of yours is not true: "Doing only physical activities = meh!" It's really just logic, I have no ulterior motive. A law degree or recovery from alcoholism is not "meh". Serious and big achievements that didn't take any magic.

But I have written repeatedly that Satan has clearly contributed to these results. For example, I dreamed up my exam theme. Of course, I don't know exactly what Satan did. I was just doing physical activity. That I do know.

I don't understand the rest of what you wrote. I just recently posted in the other topic that I managed to see trees with my third eye using Blitzkreig's method. I never said that ToZ methods don't work.

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=15534&p=372943#p372943

"Even using vibrations seems foreign to you." :?: How much do you think I should know about vibrations? If I vibrate the Satanas mantra, for example, I can roughly visualize vibrating the right letter into the right chakra with the right position and colour. Physically, it's harder for me to feel that the vibration is actually happening there, but sometimes I can.

You just got a ticket out of your parents house and a possibility to have some freedom and you cannot see the Gods behind it. The only thing you see is fear.

What will be if X happens??

You probbably can't get a new job even if you Ace the interviews, because all your energy is going into what will happen when SHTF.

All your life (now) is focused to prep(this is what i understood from your posts), and what better way to prep for when SHTF, then to live in poverty and despair.

How this Universe works,(where your focus is there goes your energy) is not ideal(because there are alot of people who can only focus on negativity since their life is shit), but hey atleast you got the knowledge to change your life( even if it is really fucking hard).

Try to focus on something positive, I know its hard but the moment you get out of your negative mindset, things will change for the better.

But I also see that you got motivated to do some workings and that is a great thing, trust me don't give up, it can only get better.

I wish you whatever you wish for yourself Brother!

Cheers!

Dark Lawyer wrote:

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Also, if my post before didn't settle with you, it is because I don't know your archetype. I just took what you said and condensed it into its essence and nothing more. It's a general overview. If you want a more "in depth" explanation about yourself, just find out your what your MBTI type is and say it. From there, I will be able to concisely communicate with you on a level you can understand and utilize without wishy-washy bullshit. You might be an INTJ and they are Very different to talk to and thus my explanations would be different. I just want to make sure you get the understanding you need from someone with just as much life experience as yourself.

Also, have this:

F_For_Flamingo wrote:

You just got a ticket out of your parents house and a possibility to have some freedom and you cannot see the Gods behind it. The only thing you see is fear.

What will be if X happens??

You probbably can't get a new job even if you Ace the interviews, because all your energy is going into what will happen when SHTF.

All your life (now) is focused to prep(this is what i understood from your posts), and what better way to prep for when SHTF, then to live in poverty and despair.

How this Universe works,(where your focus is there goes your energy) is not ideal(because there are alot of people who can only focus on negativity since their life is shit), but hey atleast you got the knowledge to change your life( even if it is really fucking hard).

Try to focus on something positive, I know its hard but the moment you get out of your negative mindset, things will change for the better.

But I also see that you got motivated to do some workings and that is a great thing, trust me don't give up, it can only get better.

I wish you whatever you wish for yourself Brother!

Cheers!

That felt good. Thank you very much.

And yes, I was just thinking that maybe this opportunity to move was given to me by Satan. So I don't want to make the same mistake again that I made when I applied for the job, which was not doing any spiritual work for the cause.

Many helpful comments have been made in this topic, thank you all.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

Warning: the basic physical conditions is not the same as a slice of cake, a spa hotel, and all the other things that some of you mock without knowing my life situation.

I did not mock you by saying that you complain about your piece of cake, in other words, of your piece in this world, at the moment. Simple statement, however as not pleasantly put, was simply stating your conduct.

Your total misinterpretations on multiple occasions has lead me to believe that figure of speeches should not be used in a reply for you.

What has been relayed on the post above is what I was referring to with my previous posts, albeit my style was crude back then due to frustration. Consider your state of mind: How and what you think as it has a huge impact not only on how you perceive things, but also how you impact those around you and they in turn around impact you.

Henu the Great wrote:

Thanks again. I feel like I'm getting back in the saddle.

Unfortunately, my "depressed" days have been more intense lately, and it seems to be taking me longer to get out of them. I really need some normal stability in my circumstances.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

F_For_Flamingo wrote:

You just got a ticket out of your parents house and a possibility to have some freedom and you cannot see the Gods behind it. The only thing you see is fear.

What will be if X happens??

You probbably can't get a new job even if you Ace the interviews, because all your energy is going into what will happen when SHTF.

All your life (now) is focused to prep(this is what i understood from your posts), and what better way to prep for when SHTF, then to live in poverty and despair.

How this Universe works,(where your focus is there goes your energy) is not ideal(because there are alot of people who can only focus on negativity since their life is shit), but hey atleast you got the knowledge to change your life( even if it is really fucking hard).

Try to focus on something positive, I know its hard but the moment you get out of your negative mindset, things will change for the better.

But I also see that you got motivated to do some workings and that is a great thing, trust me don't give up, it can only get better.

I wish you whatever you wish for yourself Brother!

Cheers!

That felt good. Thank you very much.

And yes, I was just thinking that maybe this opportunity to move was given to me by Satan. So I don't want to make the same mistake again that I made when I applied for the job, which was not doing any spiritual work for the cause.

Many helpful comments have been made in this topic, thank you all.

Im glad you are feeling better brother!

Never forget that this path is a marathon!

Keep walking!

Dark Lawyer wrote:

Henu the Great wrote:

Thanks again. I feel like I'm getting back in the saddle.

Unfortunately, my "depressed" days have been more intense lately, and it seems to be taking me longer to get out of them. I really need some normal stability in my circumstances.

1) work out
2) dress well, be clean, smell nicely, have a good haircut
3) improve your financial situation
4) Date chicks that are 28-38, lie about relationships.
5) Go in for the kill, and guide where the relationship goes. Even if you never did this, be more „aggressive“ in a sense that you take what you want from women.

NinRick wrote:

1) work out
2) dress well, be clean, smell nicely, have a good haircut
3) improve your financial situation
4) Date chicks that are 28-38, lie about relationships.
5) Go in for the kill, and guide where the relationship goes. Even if you never did this, be more „aggressive“ in a sense that you take what you want from women.

Thanks. Points 1-2 are fine. I am working on point 3 on an ongoing basis. :) It is possible that I will do energy work (Aum Klim Kamadevaya Namah). Gradual progress forward.

Dark Lawyer wrote:

NinRick wrote:

1) work out
2) dress well, be clean, smell nicely, have a good haircut
3) improve your financial situation
4) Date chicks that are 28-38, lie about relationships.
5) Go in for the kill, and guide where the relationship goes. Even if you never did this, be more „aggressive“ in a sense that you take what you want from women.

Thanks. Points 1-2 are fine. I am working on point 3 on an ongoing basis. :) It is possible that I will do energy work (Aum Klim Kamadevaya Namah). Gradual progress forward.

And just by following 1 and 2 you are a handsome mfer