Bipolar or personal choices

What triggers these episodes?

HP I can't pinpoint them, I was running about my place of origin wiith that wild head on thinking im 18 again.

35 bro got responsibilities family man i nearly wrecked it all there :evil: :evil: Im trying to soldier on now and get back on straight and narrow.

Always get inspiration reading insightful posts here etc but basicaly HP i have made a right mess of last 3months.

Few positives, never died in car crash, not in jail, still got my wife and kid.

I enjoy a routine gym work etc neglected the gym neglected everything.

Thanks for reply brother

It might be something in your chart you might want to check into this and workings for it. Also maintain an Aura of protection. Clean your aura daily as well and do the Final Ritual.

Also stay sober and away from alcohol and any drugs this takes away peoples ability to not give into impulsiveness. Ask your GD and the Gods for help with what you need to change in your life with all this.

I Will HP. Doesn't take long to do the AOP.

I need to step my game up bro.

Thanks again hope you all good mate

You are the example and role model for your child, mien bro please think of that when it comes to staying on the path of right living. Your child needs you in this world doing excellent. Your a good man and I know you will be fine.

Remember to practice void meditation everyday, even if it's only 5 minutes. The gains are massive in proportion to the amount of time and effort that it takes to get them, but you lose them just as quickly if you stop meditating.

Mindfulness(AKA void) meditation has been found to improve bloodflow and connectivity with the area of the brain known as the prefrontal cortex, which is responsible for willpower, self control and decision making. It also mellows out the part of the brain that's responsible for stress, fear and anxiety; the amygdala.

Thanks for that HP i, really appreciate the advice from yourself as a person i respect and look up to on here.

Yes bro I have been a complete tit/idiot.

Have a chance to make ammends with the wife and obviously step my game up as a Daddy as well.

I will give you a we update on Monday let you know if i have made it out the other side.

Top man HP

Thanks for input Curio, I said that to the wife.

Stop slacking do the AOP and voids every day especially with the amount of people out there that would love us to fuck up.

Protectect oneself and send all the negative/curses right back to the senders.

Application is what I need fed up starting, stopping laziness actually.

I miss my structured routine family life,doing my Zevism etc, as for jumping about like a young boy again, well thats just as it sounds...daft

Hi guys,

I have made it to Monday.

Still in family home (still need time for wife to forgive the me n the hooker part)

Got new car so can go gym take my daughter out etc

Started doing the things HP said, so all good and thanks to HP for his guidance.

X

Update:

Everything seemed okay all week, until a barrage of abuse directed at me plus an influx of tears at the same time.

Wife going mad, adultery... yes

How do you redeem yourself from this betrayal?

Struggling for this part, one mistake, one off.

Your going to have to gain her trust back that is how things go.

EnkiUK2 wrote:

Update:

Everything seemed okay all week, until a barrage of abuse directed at me plus an influx of tears at the same time.

Wife going mad, adultery... yes

How do you redeem yourself from this betrayal?

Struggling for this part, one mistake, one off.

You would also do well to acknowledge how she feels as being legitimate.. Do not try to make her feel as though you just did something small wrong and that she is expected to get over it easily..

Taking responsibility is part of being a man and if you fail to do so, then you will fail your marriage in the long run.

As well as what HP Mageson mentioned about trust, there's something else about cheating. The person who was cheated on (your wife in this case), often feel that you cheated because you are no longer attracted to her. It's often a blow to the self esteem, thinking that they are no longer desirable. Let her know how sexy and attractive she is (even if she isn't). Make it clear that you only cheated due to a stupid mistake, and not because you wanted someone else (even if this isn't the case, sometimes it's necessary to lie a bit to protect someone's feelings).

Forums Contributor wrote:

Your going to have to gain her trust back that is how things go.

True bro, im trying my best sometimes I think she is dragging it on and tell her to forget about it is prob not the best way.

Im staying in not even going out so surely that gain trust back HP thanks mate.

Centralforce666 wrote:

EnkiUK2 wrote:

Update:

Everything seemed okay all week, until a barrage of abuse directed at me plus an influx of tears at the same time.

Wife going mad, adultery... yes

How do you redeem yourself from this betrayal?

Struggling for this part, one mistake, one off.

You would also do well to acknowledge how she feels as being legitimate.. Do not try to make her feel as though you just did something small wrong and that she is expected to get over it easily..

Taking responsibility is part of being a man and if you fail to do so, then you will fail your marriage in the long run.

Much appreciated CentralForce, I have to acknowledge all that you say.

I do try make it seem oh its okay it wasn't an Ex girlfriend it only a hooker but thats not right sounding :| :|

She on my case 24/7 but im going try sort it after all you are correct, Marriage is important to me same as being a Father.

Lydia wrote:

As well as what HP Mageson mentioned about trust, there's something else about cheating. The person who was cheated on (your wife in this case), often feel that you cheated because you are no longer attracted to her. It's often a blow to the self esteem, thinking that they are no longer desirable. Let her know how sexy and attractive she is (even if she isn't). Make it clear that you only cheated due to a stupid mistake, and not because you wanted someone else (even if this isn't the case, sometimes it's necessary to lie a bit to protect someone's feelings).

Hiya Lydia hope you are well pal x

Yes she mentioned all that too me the attractiveness stuff and it did feel bad, why of course she is attractive wouldnt have married her otherwise :lol: :lol: its not just that Lydia she is very loyal, stood by me whilst I was in Prison and went on the run with me prior to that.

Her morals were/are loyalty
You are right also, Im not just raging that i got caught with the hooker im raging i breached the loyalty part.

Im gutted Lydia but I need to soldier on keep the family going financially etc

Heres hoping x

Update:

The hooker in question turned up at our door on Thurs, wife went mental and we managed to chase her in the car to drive her out. Like something animals do in the wild to protect their nest :lol: :lol:

Cant believe she turn up at my door that has been 2month with no contact :( :(

Wife going mad again (no wonder)

I relapsed after many weeks of freshness

Raging guys :evil: :evil:

EnkiUK2 wrote:

Update:

The hooker in question turned up at our door on Thurs, wife went mental and we managed to chase her in the car to drive her out. Like something animals do in the wild to protect their nest :lol: :lol:

Cant believe she turn up at my door that has been 2month with no contact :( :(

Wife going mad again (no wonder)

I relapsed after many weeks of freshness

Raging guys :evil: :evil:

What exactly did you relapse on?

Banned Drugs ,prescribed ones and just bad choices still doing it right now.

Help me my fellow troops