Beyond hurt

Dahaarkan wrote:

I'm not like, some super ancient veteran Zevist but I've been around for a while, and honestly I've never experienced anything such as being contacted by the gods first, and directly. Maybe it's just me and I'm really that uninteresting but I really doubt the gods randomly contact someone first, and even less if it's just to insult or mock someone.

I just don't see this happening, I've NEVER seen this happening.

It also depends on the person, as those who are more open will also receive more communications from the Gods. The issue is these people are also much more open to enemy attacks as well, so they usually go crazy or otherwise suffer greatly from lack of understanding, like Emily here.

It's of prime importance to learn controlling your thoughts and to accept the core essence of what the Gods wont do, such as harassing you or insulting you. This way it becomes easier for these individuals to stay sane.

As a disclaimer though, I'm not one of those people and only receive intuitive "nudges" for the most part, when I don't actively try to communicate with them.

No use guys... I tried to meditate last night after reading the replies and the new sermon on enemy brainwashing. But it’s no use. Satan won’t take me back so there’s nothing I can do. After meditating on his sigil he made it clear to me.

Thank you all. You’re a kind bunch.. but I don’t belong anymore.

Over the course of a couple of days, one entity tried harrasing me like you get now.
Every night before sleep and morning waking up, the entity would speak to me in a very low voice, similar of the Mortal Kombat voiceovers, calling me names. It was absolute the funniest thing ever I experienced.

Waking up and hearing a low voice telling you "you little shit" or "retard" is very random. After I laughed about it for a couple of days the entity stopped.

Also hearing curses can be stopped by upping the Rituals

I had the feeling that Satan has abandoned me and I suffered a lot of pain because of that. I have been harassed by these thoughts for over 1 year and I was just overwhelmed and screamed and cried a few days ago. I do love and care Satan very much and I was hurt by thinking that Satan may doesn't care my loyalty or love at all. I even suspected that I don't have any guardian demon because everyone dislike me, don't care anything about my love and devotion and abandoned me.

But now these thoughts and feelings cannot harass me anymore.

I was not convinced that Satan didn't leave me or there is anyone who does care about me. But it doesn't matter. If Satan do left me, I won't drown myself in sadness or desperation. Instead, I will stand up and fight the enemy even more actively. I will show my value that I'm absolutely a worthy Warrior who can surely be taken back. Only this can give me a second chance and help me get back what I want. I will never leave Satan for I love and care him deeply no matter whether he cares me or not, and I will never allow anyone depart me away from Satan even if Satan himself.

If someone call me worthless or useless, I will absolutely disagree and I will prove my value to him instead of being depressive and sad.

Why thinking that you can't I change it all? Even if Satan does dislike you, why don't you choose to become better to surprise him instead of being depressive and ruin yourself. If you are excellent and better than 99.99% people in this world, he will surely start to care about you and like you.

There are so many people who are cared and loved by Satan and I want to become one of them. For this I would rather do anything, including throwing my weakness and depressive mindset away from me. I think you will do the same choice if you still care about Satan.

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

8Emily8 wrote:

I apologize for the spelling errors in my op post. Well the worst came true tonight, I went to sleep and heard absolutely nothing from Satan or his demons about me being still being with them.i didnt do any warfare or meditations today. And I don’t feel a connection to Satan anymore in my heart. Which hurts but...it is what it is.

I’m just gonna hope i die guys... I’m just not worth anything to Satan. And he has made that clear to me. I’ll start affirming my death to make things go faster.

I’m also gonna mention I’ve been having problems dropping someone who is interested in me and is a Christian. It really sickens me that they want to be physical with me and I feel gross and dirty. But at the same time, idk how to pushed them away nicely since they’re really not a mean person. But their energy is so gross.

Hey emily, since no one mentioned about dropping this person.. Ill say the following to you. Your own life is the most important. To lose someone you love is going to hurt anyways, but must you yourself burden yourself with someone like that?
If you dont like it you could do it brief and clearly ' I am not interested in a relatonship with you' or something along those lines.
And if he keeps bugging you just quit talking to him or even block him from your accounts.
Do a binding spell if hes the kibd thatd stalk.

Anyway I g2g now. Maybe ill say more later.

Do you even understand what kind of BS you just said?

My intuition tells me this is a troll account created to give the impression that the old gods are aggressive, unforgiving and cruel, and to plant insecurities in new members. The creation of the account just to start a thread on this specific topic makes it beyond obvious to me.

The gods do not waste their time harassing random people, this does not happen. Nothing about this person's story makes any sense and never in all my years as a Zevist have I experienced or heard of someone who experienced such things. It's just blatant made up bullshit in the form of a sob story to try to gain sympathy and approval. To get this poison across and try to scare new people off this path.

Satan does not abandon Zevists this also does not happen, and has never happened outside of cases of treason. People may become distant or disorganized, but the dedication is forever, and it goes both ways. People fail and fall repeatedly on the path of self betterment and nobody is punished or abandoned for making mistakes.

You punish yourself if you do not learn from them, and don't continue to move forward. The gods do not punish or abandon Zevists over such petty nonsense. In my personal experience, Satan especially is very patient and welcoming.

8Emily8 wrote:

No use guys... I tried to meditate last night after reading the replies and the new sermon on enemy brainwashing. But it’s no use. Satan won’t take me back so there’s nothing I can do. After meditating on his sigil he made it clear to me.

Persever,persevere and persevere with Zevism.
That's all I will say.

Take care.

Dahaarkan wrote:

My intuition tells me this is a troll account created to give the impression that the old gods are aggressive, unforgiving and cruel, and to plant insecurities in new members. The creation of the account just to start a thread on this specific topic makes it beyond obvious to me.

The gods do not waste their time harassing random people, this does not happen. Nothing about this person's story makes any sense and never in all my years as a Zevist have I experienced or heard of someone who experienced such things. It's just blatant made up bullshit in the form of a sob story to try to gain sympathy and approval. To get this poison across and try to scare new people off this path.

Satan does not abandon Zevists this also does not happen, and has never happened outside of cases of treason. People may become distant or disorganized, but the dedication is forever, and it goes both ways. People fail and fall repeatedly on the path of self betterment and nobody is punished or abandoned for making mistakes.

You punish yourself if you do not learn from them, and don't continue to move forward. The gods do not punish or abandon Zevists over such petty nonsense. In my personal experience, Satan especially is very patient and welcoming.

What can I say? Your instincts are wrong. I made this account cause I wanted some kind of help or relief from my situation. I’ve been with Satan for a good while. Ask him your self. I’ve been here since the old forums but I never made an account cause I had nothing new to add to what the more experienced members were already adding.

I get there’s been a lot of infiltrators recently, but it’s not my fault you’re paranoid. Why even bother commenting on this thread if you though I was some infiltrator? I’m just having a really rough time, no need to be an a** dude.

The HPs are perfectly free to delete this thread if THEY feel I’m purposely trying to lead others astray. Which I’m not.

NinRick wrote:

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

8Emily8 wrote:

I apologize for the spelling errors in my op post. Well the worst came true tonight, I went to sleep and heard absolutely nothing from Satan or his demons about me being still being with them.i didnt do any warfare or meditations today. And I don’t feel a connection to Satan anymore in my heart. Which hurts but...it is what it is.

I’m just gonna hope i die guys... I’m just not worth anything to Satan. And he has made that clear to me. I’ll start affirming my death to make things go faster.

I’m also gonna mention I’ve been having problems dropping someone who is interested in me and is a Christian. It really sickens me that they want to be physical with me and I feel gross and dirty. But at the same time, idk how to pushed them away nicely since they’re really not a mean person. But their energy is so gross.

Hey emily, since no one mentioned about dropping this person.. Ill say the following to you. Your own life is the most important. To lose someone you love is going to hurt anyways, but must you yourself burden yourself with someone like that?
If you dont like it you could do it brief and clearly ' I am not interested in a relatonship with you' or something along those lines.
And if he keeps bugging you just quit talking to him or even block him from your accounts.
Do a binding spell if hes the kibd thatd stalk.

Anyway I g2g now. Maybe ill say more later.

Do you even understand what kind of BS you just said?

I think you are talking to me Ninrick.
So why is this BS? Enlighten me.

Kudra wrote:

I had the feeling that Satan has abandoned me and I suffered a lot of pain because of that. I have been harassed by these thoughts for over 1 year and I was just overwhelmed and screamed and cried a few days ago. I do love and care Satan very much and I was hurt by thinking that Satan may doesn't care my loyalty or love at all. I even suspected that I don't have any guardian demon because everyone dislike me, don't care anything about my love and devotion and abandoned me.

But now these thoughts and feelings cannot harass me anymore.

I was not convinced that Satan didn't leave me or there is anyone who does care about me. But it doesn't matter. If Satan do left me, I won't drown myself in sadness or desperation. Instead, I will stand up and fight the enemy even more actively. I will show my value that I'm absolutely a worthy Warrior who can surely be taken back. Only this can give me a second chance and help me get back what I want. I will never leave Satan for I love and care him deeply no matter whether he cares me or not, and I will never allow anyone depart me away from Satan even if Satan himself.

If someone call me worthless or useless, I will absolutely disagree and I will prove my value to him instead of being depressive and sad.

Why thinking that you can't I change it all? Even if Satan does dislike you, why don't you choose to become better to surprise him instead of being depressive and ruin yourself. If you are excellent and better than 99.99% people in this world, he will surely start to care about you and like you.

There are so many people who are cared and loved by Satan and I want to become one of them. For this I would rather do anything, including throwing my weakness and depressive mindset away from me. I think you will do the same choice if you still care about Satan.

Yes, to keep fighting is exactly what i intend to do. If I’m unwelcome, I’ll die knowing I honestly did try.. and I’ll go out with knowing I did the right thing even when hated. If I’m accepted and it’s all just some enemy attack like the HPs sermon described, then I’ll be happy. I guess it’s somewhat of a win-win situation.

Don’t get me wrong though, I’m feeling better and less erratic than the last time I posted, But I’m still really really depressed. To think I could be fighting And meditating in vain is still a disheartening thought for me.

Username wrote:

8Emily8 wrote:

No use guys... I tried to meditate last night after reading the replies and the new sermon on enemy brainwashing. But it’s no use. Satan won’t take me back so there’s nothing I can do. After meditating on his sigil he made it clear to me.

Persever,persevere and persevere with Zevism.
That's all I will say.

Take care.

Yeah... I meditated again this morning and a few hours ago, along with 4 Rituals. And I feel feel less hysterical and more level-headed. AKA not crying my eyes out

My problem comes before bed, I guess that when I’m more open psychically. So im worried.. That’s when the insults begin. But it seems like people who have experienced this say it’s the enemy. Only time will tell. I hope things go better tonight. Thank you for sharing your experience and your words.

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

NinRick wrote:

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

Hey emily, since no one mentioned about dropping this person.. Ill say the following to you. Your own life is the most important. To lose someone you love is going to hurt anyways, but must you yourself burden yourself with someone like that?
If you dont like it you could do it brief and clearly ' I am not interested in a relatonship with you' or something along those lines.
And if he keeps bugging you just quit talking to him or even block him from your accounts.
Do a binding spell if hes the kibd thatd stalk.

Anyway I g2g now. Maybe ill say more later.

Do you even understand what kind of BS you just said?

I think you are talking to me Ninrick.
So why is this BS? Enlighten me.

I have to apologise Lunar, I thought that you talked about Satan, I was very tired when I read this, but you talked about this christian guy. Sorry .

Hey Emily,

You know what this reminds me of? The rune Nauthiz.
https://templeofzeus.org/Odin.php

Here's the description:

#10. Nauthiz is a rune of endurance and will. The mental strength to last. It represents the dark night of the soul. It is connected to the Hagl rune. When used in white magick, this rune gives defiance and the strength to carry on when all hope seems lost. It is a rune of survival and fearlessness in the face of death. When directed at another, this rune can give the spiritual strength to carry on and endure in the face of disaster. Used in black magick, it brings suffering and hardship. Naudh is a rune of friction and resistance. A rune of banishings and cleansing by fire. Naudh can be used in counter-spells. Develops the will and self-sufficiency. The rune of trial and testing. Obsidian is the gem used with this rune. Obsidian is also the gem of the planet Saturn which bestows hardship and endurance.

Depression is not very easy to get out of, and I think you're doing great, keeping up with meditations and all :) . But now it is important to work on strengthening yourself, and your mind.
So that you can keep saying with confidence that you are a good person, and doing great, and that whomever else thinks shit of you doesn't know what he or she is talking about.

I am not sure and maybe it was not understood in my last message on this topic, but it is important to learn to build ourselves up, to know ourselves fully, so that we can separate truth from lies. And to mature our views (I mean here, the time it takes to gain wisdom).
Also to understand that what it takes to lead your own life instead of being lead by others.

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

Hey Emily,

You know what this reminds me of? The rune Nauthiz.
https://templeofzeus.org/Odin.php

Here's the description:

#10. Nauthiz is a rune of endurance and will. The mental strength to last. It represents the dark night of the soul. It is connected to the Hagl rune. When used in white magick, this rune gives defiance and the strength to carry on when all hope seems lost. It is a rune of survival and fearlessness in the face of death. When directed at another, this rune can give the spiritual strength to carry on and endure in the face of disaster. Used in black magick, it brings suffering and hardship. Naudh is a rune of friction and resistance. A rune of banishings and cleansing by fire. Naudh can be used in counter-spells. Develops the will and self-sufficiency. The rune of trial and testing. Obsidian is the gem used with this rune. Obsidian is also the gem of the planet Saturn which bestows hardship and endurance.

Depression is not very easy to get out of, and I think you're doing great, keeping up with meditations and all :) . But now it is important to work on strengthening yourself, and your mind.
So that you can keep saying with confidence that you are a good person, and doing great, and that whomever else thinks shit of you doesn't know what he or she is talking about.

I am not sure and maybe it was not understood in my last message on this topic, but it is important to learn to build ourselves up, to know ourselves fully, so that we can separate truth from lies. And to mature our views (I mean here, the time it takes to gain wisdom).
Also to understand that what it takes to lead your own life instead of being lead by others.

That’s a good idea, I’ll add wunjo to it later when I get the chance after work. I read your previous reply, thank you. I’ll take that into account.

NinRick wrote:

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

NinRick wrote:

Do you even understand what kind of BS you just said?

I think you are talking to me Ninrick.
So why is this BS? Enlighten me.

I have to apologise Lunar, I thought that you talked about Satan, I was very tired when I read this, but you talked about this christian guy. Sorry .

About that guy, I’m gonna do something about it on Saturday, either program my aura to repel him or something. I still gotta figure out what kind of working to do.

NinRick wrote:

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

NinRick wrote:

Do you even understand what kind of BS you just said?

I think you are talking to me Ninrick.
So why is this BS? Enlighten me.

I have to apologise Lunar, I thought that you talked about Satan, I was very tired when I read this, but you talked about this christian guy. Sorry .

Yes I was talking about the christian guy. Also Im not mad at you, if people disagree I want to know why - thats all :)

Hope you have a good day! And HAIL ZEUS!

8Emily8 wrote:

NinRick wrote:

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

I think you are talking to me Ninrick.
So why is this BS? Enlighten me.

I have to apologise Lunar, I thought that you talked about Satan, I was very tired when I read this, but you talked about this christian guy. Sorry .

About that guy, I’m gonna do something about it on Saturday, either program my aura to repel him or something. I still gotta figure out what kind of working to do.

Does banishing or repelling someone count as black magic? Mars is in retrograde still so I wanna be sure to plant something effective out

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

NinRick wrote:

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

I think you are talking to me Ninrick.
So why is this BS? Enlighten me.

I have to apologise Lunar, I thought that you talked about Satan, I was very tired when I read this, but you talked about this christian guy. Sorry .

Yes I was talking about the christian guy. Also Im not mad at you, if people disagree I want to know why - thats all :)

Hope you have a good day! And HAIL ZEUS!

Well idk why but lately I have the feeling that I misunderstand everything and everybody and behave like jerk here.

I should really take a step back, not act like I know everything better than anyone else and foremost stop being rude towards other people, especially fellow Zevists.

I am again very sorry, my apologies!

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

NinRick wrote:

Lunar Dance 666 wrote:

I think you are talking to me Ninrick.
So why is this BS? Enlighten me.

I have to apologise Lunar, I thought that you talked about Satan, I was very tired when I read this, but you talked about this christian guy. Sorry .

Yes I was talking about the christian guy. Also Im not mad at you, if people disagree I want to know why - thats all :)

Hope you have a good day! And HAIL ZEUS!

Well idk why but lately I have the feeling that I misunderstand everything and everybody and behave like jerk here.

I should really take a step back, not act like I know everything better than anyone else and foremost stop being rude towards other people, especially fellow Zevists.

I am again very sorry, my apologies!