This is embarrassing - sort of.
BDSM fits me. It's adventurous - so am i . I have met outstanding people. It's not just kink, it's connections. i have learned about myself too.
I am quite submissive. Largely life experiences made my submissive character but it seems, it may have been there and awakened - perhaps.
Enough back story
MORE TO THE POINT
I had a dominant. She also dedicated herself to Satan. We have that in common. (among other things, ) She doesn't think it is good for a follower of this religion to be overly submissive.
I see her point. She wants the best for me. How do i break from submission. it's been so long.
I hope this IS seen as an appropriate question. I think it is because I'm growing. I think that makes Father Zeus proud. Growth /shadow work sure can be difficult. it's worth it though !
As long as participants are able to, and actually do, consent, then enjoy yourself. Being genuinely-elite, i.e. being a Zevist, doesn't mean not enjoying your own idiosyncrasies. It may just be in your particular case that things have come out in ways so that you enjoy being submissive due to current-life and past-life events, to make you balanced... or... it might not be at all. There tends to be sexual documentary programmes on TV where a presenter observes and inquires, and one bloke visited an online dom-type bloke to be submissive to him, because in his work life he is boss and he needed balance. From what I gathered, it wasn't really a sexual interaction, more a submissive personal fawning and giving money submissively to this dom. I don't know if it was that the professional boss-cum-personal sub bloke was gay or that it was that he just needed a strong dom type over him for a little while every week to help him within himself.
It's not for everyone, but if it's consensual then there's nothing wrong with these things. If it is consensual, then enjoy.