Regarding Elements ( questioning my experience)

[Ghost in the Machine]

This could explain why I struggle so much in using my intuition to understand what an element can do for me other than what I logically read and understand in spiritual factors and functions themselves, but I can't actually 'feel' or 'see' them like I can other forms of astral matter, because the element puts the ether element out of focus. The ether is what enables me to use intuition in the first place, I'm not able to 'see' them without the ether. If I try to apply the ether to the element to understand it, then the ether overrules the other element and then I can't even see the element I'm trying to understand.

Instead of using ether, which has the limits you mention, perhaps try using runes like Logr or Dagaz to boost your intuitive ability. It might take longer than simply invoking an element, but perhaps this could be mitigated by affirming the runes are aiding you to intuitively understand a specific element or concept. I don't have personal experience with this, it is just something I thought about when I was looking at the rune page.

I was using both those runes but to no avail on the elements, but on other matters, there's apparently been a reason for this among many other things, a lot of problems were starting to develop to levels I was struggling to keep down and I was wondering why the enemy was having such an easy time attacking me with blockages, bindings and invasive thoughts.

As of a couple days ago almost all of my 'unnecessary' meditations, LOGR and DAGAS for intuitive understanding included (which was originally signed to me to do by Satan or the gods in general some time ago, and I see why now that it was to try and get me to improve some kind of clarity psychically to see what was happening to me and that my workplace was dangerous), have been urgedly cancelled to enable time and effort on recovery as a certain enemy event finally scared the ever-loving shit out of me a couple days ago to seek direct and personal help from Satan and my guardian and it was made powerfully brought to my attention that much larger matters of my soul and life were in need of fixing and that I was foolish going it alone and not once thinking to remember that they're their to help.

The problems were not just a few mere blockages. I've kind of been thrown into some kind of 'rehabilitation' program in the last day or so in following their guidance and they've been with me almost 24/7 actively supervising because the enemy has been trying now in every way they can to try and deter me from their help and recovery, but this time thanks to Satan and Andras I'm able to see them doing it and deflect the psychic attacks.

Apparently the physical job I was working in for over a year, unawares to me somehow (most likely the emotional desperation of finding any job at all back then and foolishly didn't actually 'look' at my options or I was simply blinded), was founded on enemy grounds within an enemy region of my city and run by enemy benefactors. It didn't occur to me the presence of the churches surrounding the area merely a block or two away out of sight and that 90% of all of the customers and co-workers I was interacting so incredibly closely and personally with each day were xians and jews, which explained my growing dread in going to work when I was trying to clean my soul as of late and why I felt like I was being spiritually broken down and why all of my efforts to try and fight it off were not proving as effective as I wanted them to be.

I was being surrounded 8 hours a day by enemy energies and influences on such a close and directly personal level. And over time the enemy was attacking and binding my lower chakras to enforce my upper chakras to grow out of control in taking in energy empathically into myself... you can imagine the damage that does over time with someone so psychically inclined in a place like that and for that extended amount of time. We did in fact even sell xian products but because that wasn't on account of the actual store production itself I didn't think anything of it and just elected to tune it out.

This also explains what happened to me last year in the delusion, when I was still relatively new at that job, that I ended up with that some members pick on me about still, where I was delusionally paranoid that the enemy was watching me in the sky or was surrounding me all the time, waiting any second to attack me or was watching me so specifically and all that garbage. This likely cropped up on picking up on the feelings of the enemy being very close by to me but I didn't see it for what it actually was, the developing paranoia became a manifestation of the subconscious intuitive awareness out of my focus that I was in fact actually literally surrounded by the enemy, but it was physically and spiritually in regards to my workplace where I was spending 8 hours every work day literally being surrounded by and within the regional energies of the enemy and interacting so personally with them, but I was interpreting it the wrong way from my emotions and it spiraled from there. This is The Importance of Environment accounted for in spiritual matters.

Mind you during that delusional time my third-eye and intuition was not as developed as it is now but I was already in deep on the emotional level at the workplace by then so I was unable to see outside of it.

I have since quit this job and have been following Satan's and Andras' guidance in recovering and healing and am feeling better than ever with their help, guidance and support. Right now my intuition is not something I need to work on, it's fine on it's own, in fact clarity and freeing my lower chakras and empowering them has been enabling me the better more efficient perception of 'the here and now' which is vital for looking at things on the astral in present time to objectively see what's actually going on around you... and it's allowed me to see more than I bargained for in this past day or so.

I will remember what you suggested though for future reference... Thank you.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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Very interesting.

In truth you probably may have picked up on my own focus upon you through the astral in telling you or drawing you to yellow flowers and the colour, whether it happened presently or manifested later on afterwords (likely the case) it was probably still a form of telepathy. I do have strong psychic chakras and centres and have had moments of pure raw intent (electrokinesis and cryokinesis) that conjured very powerfully in my desire. My strong desire in wanting to tell you probably manifested in projecting onto the astral to actually 'tell' you, hence telepathy but not real telepathy. I wanted strongly for you to see something, so I probably programmed the astral with my intent and desire to make you see it. But it was probably the gods that enabled me to see the colour yellow first and make the discovery of energy and the Air element which then in turn made me want to tell you.

And I know you're uncertain about the Air element breaking blockages like I said it would but this is legit how it is with the Earth element of which does key into the factors of bindings, if you have a blockage or binding, you should try using the Air element on it, but if you feel you want to work with colours I'm in no way telling you not to. I'm only clarifying that what I said is only true because don't you notice that everything in this universe has an opposite energy to it? Earth counters Air and vice versa, Fire counters Water and vice versa, male energies vs female energies, sun vs moon, logic vs emotion, astral vs physical, red energy vs blue energy, Jupiter vs Saturn, Mars vs Venus, higher vs lower, positive vs negative, happiness vs sadness, fear vs confidence, anger vs calm, chaos vs order, entrapment vs freedom.

Our universe is built on the very foundation of duality. Every single form of energy is not in fact separate things of their own, they are all forces that reside on a single scale with two polarities of vibrational energies that are opposite to one another in their effects and influences. The higher vibrations (positive, white magic, happiness, joy, safety, protection, beneficial) and the lower vibrations (negative, black magic, harm, suffering, misery, despair, parasitic). Every single thing in this universe, no matter what it is, and I sincerely mean that to the most solid conviction, no matter what it is has a countering opposite energy to it that reverses it's affects either for the good or for the bad.

We see this literally in the enemy's own energies which directly oppose our own. We are natural light beings, we are of the sun, we are positive and full of higher vibrations (well we're supposed to be), so everything of the enemy, they are of lower vibrational energies, parasitic, sadism, sickly gross things of death and misery, they are made up of energies that oppose us, this is why our very own Satanic energies of light and positive higher vibrations harm them so, and of course, vice versa.

It is also why doing the RTR on ourselves feels good to us, because in reversing their letters and energies we are enforcing the opposite countering energies on the other scale of their energy channel and are thus destroying, dismantling and disolving their energies of which they've entrapped and bound us with over the years and it even reverses their very own souls when we do the RTR because it is their own energies just like our own runes and words are Satanic energies that are beneficial to us.

Do you also notice that what the enemy does with our own signs and everything, our own symbols, the cross, the pentagram, they invert them? They reverse them? Because they know full well that all energies in the universe have an opposite countering force, and they utilize this to oppose our energies. But we are also utilizing this to oppose theirs. It's a matter of the stronger force, and in this spiritual war, ultimately with the help of our gods, that would be us.

Also remember rulerships. Rulerships are energies that coincide with pertaining to all the same things of the same vibrations or similar. Earth for example, black coloured energy, planet Saturn, stone onyx, they are of the same makeup in vibrations and energies, therefore they are rulerships of one another, work well with each other and are empowered by each other.

The Earth element rules over bindings because it rules over control. So when I say the Air element, as the opposite countering element in energy and vibration to Earth, dissolves bindings, I mean it dissolves bindings. Because bindings are of Earth, Air is the opposite of Earth, therefore it is the opposite force to a binding itself. Binding: Something that is restricting, confining and restraining, a binding is an extreme solidified energy matter of control to the point of locking and entrapping, too much control of something suffocates it, you know this perceptual experience of a very strict and controlling parent for instance, it's very confining and trapping... stuck.

Earth rules over this because it rules over control which in healthy levels can be positive self-control and discipline in a healthy moderation. Earth is the element of the base chakra which again follows these rulerships whereas if it is weakened or if the soul doesn't have enough Earth element, then this results in less ability to manifest and project control and discipline as well as self-discipline and causes little control over ones spiritual abilities. But too much control or too much Earth creates a binding or a feeling of being stuck and people with very high earth and extremely overpowered base chakras can find it hard to focus and work with spiritual energy or even tune into the astral realm, because there's too much grounded control, so as I said before: confinement, retraining, entrapping, restricting, binding. This is the same with black energy, Saturn and onyx stones in ruling over control and bindings, again to the factors of rulerships.

Earth and Air for example are both on the exact same channel of vibration they are on the same road... but they are on opposite sides of the road to one another, therefore counter each other in their oppositve affects and factors, and when they meet in the middle, they cancel each other out. Same with Fire and Water and everything else. Even Ether, the very element of perfected balance and harmony has two sides to it even though it is referred to as The All.

It is everything... but it is also nothing. This is why it is both called The All and The Void. It is used in void meditation and in perceptual invisibility. It is both what conjures our thoughts and enables us to think, and yet is also the sole cause to us having those random moments where we space out in a deep empty trance staring off into deep space 9, staring into nothing in complete silence. Not wanting to break the trance, not wanting to move out of it or to ruin it, not wanting to do anything but just stare unblinkingly into nothing.


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Now as for your suggestion regarding the Breath of Fire and contracting the abdominal muscles and in mentioning of it being sexual.... let's not be surprised by now at these conveniences and realize that something is very clearly going on for us to help one another, be it a connection between the two of us in sensing one another's needs and picking up on what might help, or the gods, regardless it is rather undeniable.

Because your suggestion had everything to do with sexual energy and the sacral chakra, which is the sexual chakra, of which is the one chakra that got effected first most violently upon me in binding and attack before all the other issues I had been dealing with grew worse and worse over time. In my desperation for a demon lover, some time ago I accidentally created an 'intent' thought-form. I perceived the realness of this thoughtform mistaking it for a demon, even though my fault was in not realizing I didn't feel any high bioelectricity which is usual when demons are near me or any Satanic energy at all.

I didn't really feel anything other than it's electrical 'touch' on my body (of which were my own directing of energy in expectation of thinking there was a being in front of me or around me) and the emotions and urges it manifested towards me to me make me feel, of which were also actually my own in what I wanted it to 'say' to me or make me 'feel' in my own expectations, but I was blinded to the truth or seeing objectively what was going on because of my emotional desires and desperation for love and of course sex at the time.

Needless to say I created a lucid dream character in waking life that eventually turned into a literal waking nightmare where this entity I created grew hostile from my sudden fear and doubts that it was actually my demon lover (past hangup) and the slightest doubt I felt made me think it was actually a hostile somehow and then lo and behold it responded to this as my own creation and began to act like a hostile from my expectation which only furthered my belief and panic and well, needless to say I lost full control and to put it bluntly, this entity repeatedly 'sexually assaulted' me and caused a lot of bindings and problems with my sacral chakra.

Satan and the gods had since shown me through many signs that it was all in my head and I refound my control over it in realizing it wasn't actually a separate entity but my own creation. I have since destroyed it completely and have had no issues since, but the problems it left behind on my sacral chakra still need to be tended to, and your advice in the convenience of events in these past two days is most assuredly pertinent.

And funnily enough today some time before I read this, I was doing some physical exercising. More specifically I was doing sit-ups and something told me to focus more on my actual abs themselves while doing it, so I did. Almost immediately my sacral chakra reacted and without my consent it contracted my physical muscles in mirror from it's blockage, causing them to essentially lock-up like they would during the times that entity was assaulting me and binding it, and I got startled and curled up from it until it released. I had no idea what the hell happened until I read this from you. Sit-ups cause the same similar contraction of muscles as with the Breath of Fire.

Now the reason it's called the Breathe of Fire is because the abdominal muscles have to do with the sacral chakra, the sacral chakras element is the Fire element. When harshly contracting the muscles repeatedly like that, you are stimulating the sacral chakra to conjure forth it's energy and element, and this is why when doing it one heats up as the fire element is conjured from the chakra to spread throughout the soul and body in this physical stimulation, one then warms up.

Perhaps in doing this, I don't know if with the RTR in particular but I'll do that as well anyways, I can produce energy and stimulation in the sacral chakra to empower it and try and break the blockage and binding. I'll probably get that 'locked-up' of the muscles in response as the blockage/binding reacts but I'm sure I can break through it this way.

Thank you brother SioF.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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So, last night after I read your suggestion I decided to go and give the Breath of Fire a shot. However in following the guidelines of the meditation on the page... well, I didn't really get any results or feel anything.

Of course this is where I go and connect to Andras for help. He urged me to look at specific words on the page to get the communication across quite very much like a visual ouja board powered by urge and I was focused on the word "Abdominal" then "Contract" then "PUSH" so I listened and just contracted my abdominal muscles and held it as best I could in just 'pushing'.

When I felt him tell me to release I did and that was when I finally felt the surge of energy rise from my sacral chakra and spread like a, yes, very sexually pleasurable warmth all the way up through my upper chakras. After that subsided, I felt him draw my attention to the words on the page "Lower your chin to your chest", so I did and repeated what I did before in contracting my abdomen and holding it for a few seconds.

When I released, I I could feel that same energy rise up, however I felt it rebound from the bottom of my throat back into my heart chakra and felt a pressure there as well as the energy going back down towards the sacral chakra area. I did this another time and then was urged to look at the word "PUSH" and I felt the need to do it very hard, so I did and was immediately startled and shocked when a strong and sharp pop essentially occurred at one of my minor navel chakras. It was about the size of a qaurter and felt very hot, not exactly painful but it was a shock for sure.

At first I actually got concerned and wondered if I actually physically hurt something but was reassured that this wasn't the case and ended up 'looking' intuitively at the area and I noticed that on that spot there was no longer a blockage. Either way it was progress. I was urged to the word on the page "exercise" and could've sworn I saw the word "sets" in my peripheral warp to say "sit-ups", I remember yesterday when I was doing them so I just heeded the words and went to do sit-ups.

I kept thinking he wanted me to just do some sort of specific manner of combining the meditation but he really just told me to do them normally so I did for a little while. I eventually stopped and felt no further instructions. Confused I looked to Andras for further guidance but couldn't interpret him telling me anything. So I went back to my computer to just try again in what I was priorly guided to do.

However this was when I felt Satan's energy connect to me and in tuning in I felt urged against continuing with the meditation and wondered why. I listen to Satan no matter what, he urged me to look at the words "PLEASE NOTE, DO NOT, perform, THIS, BREATH, it increases the amount of" and then I kind of lost my tuning to him and didn't know what he was urging me to next. I thought he was going to urge me to oxygen next or something, but I realized I was accidentally urging myself at that point.

That's when I psychically stepped back and retuned, I felt him urging me to a pentragram symbol. I then felt the word "elements" and then realized "Oh yeah... fire.... it increases fire." and I asked him if he wanted me to stop because it was raising my fire too high and I felt a strong "Yes" come through the connection. If I kept going it was going to raise my fire element too high to imbalance the water element in my soul, and likely prevent me from getting much sleep that night. He told me to wait until tomorrow... which is well today so I could probably do those exercises again at some point, unless they tell me to do something otherwise. I definitely feel the rise in my fire element and don't know if it's a good idea to do that exercise again. I'll see what I'm instructed on.


Thanks for guiding me to the meditation though brother, it definitely did something in breaking one of the blockages, there's still more to be done but all in due time. Connecting to and finding guidance in the gods is also of course imperative.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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I'm not that surprised about the 'telepathy' instruction on yellow flowers, this has occurred before with some people (non-Satanists) after I had opened up a little and used thoughtforms on them (with their consent of course). This is the first time I get a deeper than friendly connection with another dedicated Satanist. I'm glad the help and useful bits of information can go both ways and I'm not taking advantage of your intuition too much.

Re-reading that part about the Air element and how it breaks blockages, I feel your explanation makes more sense than I would normally believe.
I do tend to work a lot on Earth when I feel the urge and the element lacking particularly (mostly when I do mingle too long with Air) but I also kept feeling this new lack for a while suggesting I was possibly dealing with too much Earth and felt some.. I'd say 'blockages' being born, or at least burdening me with another something to worry about.
Besides, not long ago I was deep in the rediscovery of my dominant Air element and while I was breathing slowly and listening to it I clearly felt a 'jolt', physical even, in my third eye area, suggesting it was stimulating and undoing a knot of some sort. I couldn't keep it up for longer than I wanted to due to someone entering the room and distracting me, but I wrote it down for the next time I should remember considering what had happened. Now's that time, only this time I have to direct the Air to my lower chakras.

Your explanation of how everything has two sides and how they produce opposite effects, specifically the reference to the reversed symbolism and how our Satanic energy reverses the jewish one and vice versa, gave me an unprecedented 'view' of things. I didn't consider it as important or even obvious before, but now I see and understand better how the RTR works. I'm sure this will mean a lot to me in my future training and study, it overwrites a lot of what I know coating gaps with a further understanding that makes everything easier.

Rulerships, now that you've put it so easily as well, made me realize how I tend to 'Earthen' myself too much, how I make myself too material and close minded in my attempt to fill the Earth gauge with the missing planets since I saw my natal chart and learned how much Air I have in my Soul. I do tend to overestimate Earth and just dive in it head first, looking for anything that will confirm an increase in my understanding of it, countering that strong Air element.
However, this (which also happens a lot with Fire and Water), I tend not to understand much when it comes to Air, maybe as it is the most 'invisible' of the elements, not being capable of seeing it unless it has an effect on the environment it affects. I do understand its strengths I believe, and since I became part of this forum and learned about it being my dominant element I rather quickly also learned just how dangerous Air can be, not necessarily to me as the only way I can think of it as dangerous is if I think of tornados and stronger gales than one considers relatively safe of course, but for others when used in ways I had been ignoring for so very long, overstimulating one's nervous system and overdoing the Oxygen flow inside one's body (Oxygen being the most dangerous gas on Earth, according to many sources I find myself agreeing with).

When you say too much Earth binds one from his/her own ability to tune in the astral and using psychic abilities I think of how I feel slower and how I seem not to be as good as I was before deducing things via the scent. I still have an above average sense of smell, but somehow I feel too 'grounded' and not as much in control of that.
This tends to get a little too confusing while I try to balance my Earth and my Air without overdoing either of them too much, but on the other hand I always tended to overdo one element before using its opposite and this in turn made me more resistant to them than I can tell most people are, perhaps. Pros and cons, then. I guess the next logical step is trying to dose them both with greater attention and keep both in check as I did notice a better ability to visualize and slow my mind to the point I nearly lose contact with my physical self even while I'm sitting with crossed legs (thanks for Earth, the lately used Ice element which proved great in deal with my infested ex, and applying stronger willpower) but I also feel like I lost something that makes me 'me', somehow. And now I wonder if that means my Soul is transforming due to the increased Earth and decreased Air. I need to investigate this further, with a calmer mind (the latest events, ex and other daily worries and lack of sleep time made me not so great when it comes to relaxing).

One thing really stuck out in your explaining of The All being also The Void. I believe this is a particular message for my mind as 'The All' is a term that had been overly used by some psychopath who, like my recently disposed of ex, tried and almost succeeded in infecting me with enemy thoughts and control. 'The All' was also the reason for which I have finally learned how to meditate better, focusing inward instead of looking for all the answers in the world outside, believing they were hidden somewhere away from me, locked away in some place I had no permission to enter. When Satan told me "Focus on yourself" a few days ago I immediately thought of this again and new there was something more for me to notice.
To put it in the most material example possible, not to make this a long explanation on how it feels, I find focusing inward is analogous to creating an astral temple and going there, only this temple exists inside of our selves and we can never part with it, always having full ability to use it to discern truth and help from the Gods. I hope it won't come as a surprise that I never really dwelled with 'tool magick and props', strongly preferring to trust my instincts and the little more I could rely on.. the very reason I chose to use elemental magick since very early in my Satanic journey was that I believed the elements could make me feel more and discern more. Luckily, I wasn't very wrong about that, not easily feeling energy or not recognizing it more like, but feeling something from experimenting with them, learning something at least.

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As for the whole Breath of Fire/RTR/sacral chakra/thoughtform matter (so I won't keep you from meditating as much as I already do)...

I'm glad what I told you to try has managed to somehow lead you to results. That 'pop' you felt sounds very much like a broken blockage, so if that's what happened within your Soul I'm truly pleased.
You're right in not overdoing it though. Personally, I have no problem sleeping after Fire meditations, but if something new happened in your chakras I'd take a day at least to observe how the energy behaves, just tuning to it and seeing what it's doing.
I do remember you telling me you had to absorb more Water than Fire to balance yourself, so mind the overuse of Fire stimulation. Can't suggest anything better than a good coating with Ether to make everything flow more naturally. And yes, it doesn't sound like a coincidence that I was attracted to pictures of yellow flowers and you were doing sit-ups. Let's both listen to these signs from the Gods and learn as much as we can from them. Perhaps they feel it's the right time to give us both a boost and that's why we're seeing so many 'syncronicities' as that psychopath I mentioned would say all the time. Not all the negative experience is for nothing it seems, we can always learn something.

I feel your message for me this time is to pay particular attention to my sacral chakra.
When you mentioned the yellow flower, I also immediately though of the orange color and creativity (creativity belonging to Orange https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Color.html ), and how years ago I was determined and focused on my first and second chakras, feeling them hum quietly, but not feeling the third/solar. I thought of a blockage, and later during the dream I became lucid for a little and thought I'd seen my Succubus, only she was blonde and had a stern look this time. To this day I don't know if she was my Succubus or not, only having seen glimpses and flashes of her, but I was sure the dream had something to tell me related to sex/sexual energy/and perhaps a sexual blockage.
Yesterday I got a little desperate not knowing exactly what other things the yellow color might have meant, and I thought about yellow flowers, of dandelions and of the name Dantalian, a Demon that at some point I had hoped it would be my guardian when I was a complete newbie. Also found that Valefor's plant is the dandelion, but nothing else in his description 'clicks' in me, so I disregarded this thinking, feeling it only lead me to confusing answers and wasn't making sense.

One thing that I remembered, though, was a feeling I strongly had sometimes as a child. I'd walk in something like a furniture shop and upon seeing the colors yellow and orange I would almost space out a moment, seeing visions of a beautiful place, somewhere like a desert but not hot, quiet, very relaxing, peaceful and perfect for meditating I thought. The thought it would summon was often "it feels very feng shui", if that means anything. I'd also have visions of a Sun that looked a lot like Japanese bandanas with the red ball and rays, only this was orange. I don't know, it's one of those things one remembers but that never made any other sense beyond a nice relaxing me-time fantasy.
In retrospection, keeping in mind all this talk of second and third chakras, I can also speculate that it had something to do with the Solar chakra perhaps, maybe a reference to the fact I can't feel it.
I read about the first granthi being in the second chakra and there's either been times I only believed my crown was blocked (as is apparently in most cases) and times I became more desperate due to my lack of feeling and wondered if it wasn't the first that had strong need of unblocking. I think the JoS part explaining this indicated it was open if the person can definitely feel an orgasm (no worries there) and I know of a few people who really struggle to ever feel one, yet reported some strong but uncontrollable psychic abilities.

I don't know if this means anything really or it's just me being a typical overthinking Air person.

Whatever the case, I'm truly glad you felt part of your Soul unlock. Keep written notes on all you notice as things will certainly makes more sense when you read about them in the future.

Talk soon, Brother.

Hail Satan!

 

[Apprentice]

When you say too much Earth binds one from his/her own ability to tune in the astral and using psychic abilities I think of how I feel slower and how I seem not to be as good as I was before deducing things via the scent.

I had a feeling yesterday after reading your posts that I have to warn you not to royally overdo a single element. You are just like me, all-or-nothing type.

I'm still on daily Quintessence. My perceptions are changing and something is definitely moving, I'm just not yet sure what or where. I may have to take a break from it but haven't felt like that yet.

Take care, Bruh.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

I had a feeling yesterday after reading your posts that I have to warn you not to royally overdo a single element. You are just like me, all-or-nothing type.

I'm still on daily Quintessence. My perceptions are changing and something is definitely moving, I'm just not yet sure what or where. I may have to take a break from it but haven't felt like that yet.

Take care, Bruh.

I know, Bro. Feels like that a lot, especially when I land on Earth again and again, wanting to fix the imbalance intensely, precisely as you put it.

I think you're pretty savvy going for Quintessence as you're doing, and also that perhaps you will make a difference in how I learn about it too, maybe even how I view it.
Right now I'm going for more Air (after over a week, maybe two, of trusting Earth to solve all my problems) but I can tell you that just deciding to go back to it has made me excited and happy, in a way.

Yes, I'm very all-or-nothing, especially when it comes to elements. Air, however, is the only element that doesn't make me uncomfortable in the slightest, not too hot and perhaps moody/irritable, not overly emotional, and not so grounded that I don't feel like myself anymore sometime, unable to soar and less able than normal to perceive scents and astral scents, which depending on the contest gives me a little insight. So Air is like a safe house, easy to come back to and comfortable.

What Brother Ghost explained about unbinding has made my decision to rebalance Air even easier to make though, and given the latest unexpected results in stimulating the third eye area almost physically I feel very positive about it.

I will try to learn more about the Quintessence too however.. thinking about it now, from the current perspective, I sense the Ether has got all I'm missing on by re-embracing Air, which means even Earth obviously, but minus the rather noticeable uncomfortable feeling of knowing I'm like a fish moved to a very different tank.

I might just decide to use Ether alone to fix my imbalances and Air to 'all-or-nothinging' it.

Truth be told, I'm still surprised I'm Air dominant and lacking Earth as much as I do. I know some elemental lacks show up in a way that suggests the person has plenty of that element instead, but I still see many Earth things in me, other times it's the Water that felt more dominant.
No wonder I always had such a hard time understanding what my element was, before knowing about the natal chart method. If anything I might have said I lacked Air, as shown for example by my strong ability to hold huge quantities of it, way over a 100 breaths, while too much Earth feels too dense and even painful as you know.

Guess I gotta use what I have to its fullest and find new ways to employ it for more.

Do let me know about your experience with the Quintessence, I'm very curious, Brother.

Hail Satan!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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When you say too much Earth binds one from his/her own ability to tune in the astral and using psychic abilities I think of how I feel slower and how I seem not to be as good as I was before deducing things via the scent. I still have an above average sense of smell, but somehow I feel too 'grounded' and not as much in control of that.
This tends to get a little too confusing while I try to balance my Earth and my Air without overdoing either of them too much, but on the other hand I always tended to overdo one element before using its opposite and this in turn made me more resistant to them than I can tell most people are, perhaps. Pros and cons, then. I guess the next logical step is trying to dose them both with greater attention and keep both in check as I did notice a better ability to visualize and slow my mind to the point I nearly lose contact with my physical self even while I'm sitting with crossed legs (thanks for Earth, the lately used Ice element which proved great in deal with my infested ex, and applying stronger willpower) but I also feel like I lost something that makes me 'me', somehow. And now I wonder if that means my Soul is transforming due to the increased Earth and decreased Air. I need to investigate this further, with a calmer mind (the latest events, ex and other daily worries and lack of sleep time made me not so great when it comes to relaxing).

I already know then for a fact that you feel trapped in yourself or stuck, the 'outside' world beyond your body and aura seems like it's something further to reach out to or like there's something in the way. And it's a confinement that is suffocating you and cutting you off from not only your spiritual sensing but also in your understanding in knowing about yourself and the things around you as well as your emotions and emotional freedom. (Earth rules bindings, therefore as it's opposite Air rules freedom), you feel like you're trapped or imprisoned in something right? That's called too much Earth element brother.

Remember what I said about the Earth element, it rules control, bindings, containment, and this can be utilized in a healthy level but too much... well you get what you're feeling right now. This is being caused by you using the Earth element on yourself for too long and too much. By focusing on yourself in using it, if you do this for too long you are actually 'burying' yourself within a confined astral elemental prison from multiple understandings and perceptions. You then become far too in tuned to the logic and material understanding and material matters of the physical plane and your connection and reach towards the astral grows more distant and cut off.

Also do you not remember what I warned about in regards to the Ice element? You said you feel slower, Ice is binding just like Earth, they both make one slow like a dimwitted and lumbering rock creature. When you use the ice element to still the energies in your mind, you should be doing it one breath and wait a 15 to 30 minutes to see it's effects and gradually just keep going at this 'wait and see' thing until you get the desired result. Blasting yourself with it to get quick results is only a temporary relief, you shouldn't be using it all the time as it can bind your mind, you should be finding the source of the problem or seek alternative means (visualizing a calm blue ocean, or just do or focus on things that are calm, slow and relaxing or listen to calm music or the sounds of the ocean) the direct route is sometimes too direct.

but I also feel like I lost something that makes me 'me', somehow.

The Air element is a big part of what makes you, you, remember you were so obsessed with electricity? You can still have the general personality and underlying behaviour of an Air person but that has to do with a deeper factor to your spiritual make-up and doesn't mean the element itself is actually high in your soul. You're missing that feeling of yourself for a reason, because you've snuffed down your Air element with too much Earth... which makes you feel like you lost what makes you you. Take note of this 'gut-feeling' you literally just described in feeling like you lost something of yourself, that right there is called intuition. You intuitively feel, see and recognize that something is wrong about yourself and your soul.

As a side note my own intuition screamed "something is wrong" at this particular post from you that I'm currently responding to. I have a very powerful and wrong vibe from it to the point I actually physically leaned away with a cringe, it feels very wrong and is definitely not you, not like from before. Your words are too stiff, there's no free-flowing laxness to them, it's far too "logical" and controlled. There's also none of that emotion to it and I feel like I'm reading a post from Jack (Who also focuses too much on control, discipline and never reacts or gets offended at anything which means a lacking of emotional bond from the upper Air and Water chakras and too much Earth. I've warned him of this but that's all I could do.)

I am getting far too much of a 'robot' vibe from the majority of your paragraphs. You have to logically explain your emotions very particularly "I feel" "I am glad" "I had hoped" like some kind of AI that needs to describe it's feelings to a human because it cannot actually express them (The use of "had" here is a logical break up differentiation which means a separation of the two words in distinction of emotional use where as the word "was" harmonizes two words together in emotion).

I also recall now that day when I found the yellow flowers. As much as I would like to think I did in fact have a hand being the one to think it was a good idea to tell you about the Air element first about it, I recently learned this wasn't the case. Looking into the 'akasha archive' (Same thing we use in doing past-life regression to look into our past) in memory to the astral recorded scenario and moment, I was able to look back and notice a distinct separation from that thought in accordance to my own mind. It wasn't my own thought like I figured it was, it was implanted into my head and then I immediately focused on it thinking it was mine, it turns out, at least from what I am gathering, it came from Satan to put the idea into my head and then tell you what I discovered about it in using Air to break bindings(Earth).

I think the gods see that you are trapping yourself and confining yourself into a prison with too much Earth and this is going to debilitate your spiritual potential and abilities, like you said it seems to be doing, and the more it continues the harder it's going to be to spiritually tune in to even fix the problem because you're going to struggle so much to gain access to those focuses and abilities to do so. You need to stop using the Earth element for a while and focus more on your Air AND GO SLOWLY AND STEADILY (I will explain why below), specifically in removing these bindings you unintentionally placed upon yourself and in raising it in your soul back to the normal you. This might be why it seems like a sign of the gods or in understanding the sheer coincidences of all we've been telling each other, we both got issues to deal with and we're both helping one another from them.

The way you're going about with the elements is far too harsh, you're going back and forth between them too immediately. When I was working with the water element, I went thinking if I got too cold I could just blast it with fire. What I ended up with was both the powerful effects of fire and water and because they were countering each other so distinctly and violently at once in present experience, the chaos of the opposition caused me major confusion and all I ended up with was overcharging both their aspects and aggression and became emotionally frustration, my body felt both hot and cold like an icey hot pack was wrapped around all over me. It was maddening, I vowed to never make that mistake again.

You see when you use an element, the FIRST things you're going to feel are your psychic (upper chakras perceiving perception and emotion) and physical experience of it. These are present-tense and immediate experiences, it takes time for energy like elements to actually settle and apply themselves to the composition of your soul, a lot of time. And this is why on the elements page of our website it is said to wait after using an element.

So when you raise the Air element to try and counter the Earth what you're probably doing is trying to blast yourself with the element, but the only thing that is actually happening and your experiencing first is how you're effecting your 'exterior' soul, chakras, psyche and emotional perception and physical environment/body. For the element to actually harmonize into your soul's elemental composition to rise in level and balance the other one and this can take days or a month with only focusing on the one element to balance the other and not using any other element, just the one to fix the imbalance, it's energies upon yourself need to be given lots of time in order to be passively drawn in and enabled to, quite legitimately, seep into your actual astral body in order to integrate into it and then truly lower your Earth element in your soul.

When you blast yourself with these elements, the immediate present-time response can make you feel like you did too much because you're psychically or physically overwhelmed by it's 'current effect' applied uses to you. So what you end up doing is then trying to counter that with Earth, and still you only end up experiencing the psychic and physical effects of it. If you then leave off on Earth, you likely completely washed out the Air element you conjured just before it, so then the Earth element is the last thing you did therefore is the last element that is remaining upon your soul to be gradually drawn in and risen in your actual composition, then you actually leave worse off with your Earth risen even higher. That or you end up blasting yourself with both elements, but they cancel each other out and you ultimately didn't achieve anything.

You're issue here with the elements is that you're rushing. When it comes to correcting and balancing your composition with the elements, your greatest ally is TIME. Do a few breaths of Air at a time and wait 30 minutes to an hour, to ensure that you don't get psychically overwhelmed by it, if you're still fine after that time, to a few more breaths and wait another 30 minutes to an hour. If it starts to feel overwhelming after an hour or so, then stop there for the day. There's a reason it says on the website to not do too much at once. Wait on the element for the entire day and work on one element at a time.

The Elements are primordial, I don't know what it's like for the gods but for us they move like molasses in actually integrating into our soul when trying to find balance. You need to give time and be patient, like water. Some old sloth once said "The daily drip hollows the stone". Have more patience, I don't think you should be experimenting with the elements for a while until you correct your composition. This feeling you have in needing a break from doing that is likely an urge or telling from Satan or the gods in your mind in warning you of what you're doing and what you need, which is a big break to pull yourself together.

SLOWLY and GRADUALLY I would suggest just working on dissolving down the bindings you placed upon yourself with the Air element, in just passively engulfing yourself in it for a couple of minutes a day. And if you do any breaths, I would say no more than 3 and then wait 30 minutes to an hour before you do another 3, I wouldn't repeat this all day and if things starts to feel like you're doing too much or are getting overwhelmed, stop for the day and wait until tomorrow. Relax, go slow. The Elements can be violent forces of the universe, we see this in storms, you must be smart in using them.

Speaking of storms, they are in fact of the Air element, physically indulging in some research on them online or even tornadoes, how they work, what makes them happen, can mirror on the astral the indulgence of Electricity and Air and in a safe way help to raise your Air element in your soul. I literally just discovered this in noticing for the past month I have been constantly wanting and desiring it to thunder and storm all the time and I didn't know why until I pieced all of this together. This is because it's association to the Air element is drawn in through attentive focus to what it rules over (storms) to weaken the bindings on my soul, a storm feels like freedom to me and makes me happy in this moment.

For me I can see a thunderstorm being my focus, because thunder storms are powerful and power is ruled by the lower chakras, and since those are the ones that are blocked, by combining this aspect with the Air element of the storm itself, it can help free them. That's for me though, I'm not sure if for you maybe tornadoes would be better, or just straight up lightening. What do you feel more drawn to in desiring to free yourself and get back the you you so desire to feel again? Might take a bit of focus to tune in for your 'soul' to tell you.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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As always it seems your intuition won't fail, Brother.

Yeah, I feel very much like what you described. Bound, blocked, stuck where I am, and also your accurate description of how I feel towards the outside, not just the astral, is very much to the point here.

Indeed I have spent the last day or two (ever since reading your last reply on how Earth binds) not really absorbing Air like a maniac, but let's say looking at it from afar, wondering if I'm not just going to blast myself with it like I always tend to do with elementalism, bouncing from one element to the opposite in an instant, desperate to feel the effects.

(PS. sorry if in this post I'll be brief or just from one topic to another, I haven't got much time today but really want to cover some points before I forget.)

The more I read your reply and understood it spoke clearly of my case, the more I wanted to 'blast myself' with Air, but before I did I finished reading it all.
You see, even now I am finding it harder to be as communicative as I usually am, I do feel that my last reply to you was too 'blocky' and hard headed, lacking a freedom I always enjoy while writing. So there's no point beating around the bush here, you are 100% right.
Knowing about my natal chart imbalance I think of myself as 'naturally too Airy', which makes me want to overdo the Earth dosage in an attempt to reach the next life cycle with a better looking balance, but I admit I have lots of trouble realizing where I currently am on the elemental page. I know I easily find peace in Air. Even now, I'm almost desperate to go back to Air lol. Just holding back my horses because you told me to go slow, but the truth is when I think of Air I feel already better, freer, somehow more capable, and SURELY more capable than I feel when I work on my Earth.

The Earth and Ice (not that much Ice/ISA honestly) has been working great when I was dealing with my ex, I had a much less emotional reaction than I thought I'd have to deal with, and it indeed helped me disposing of someone very unneeded in my life without having second thoughts. That worked great, no doubt about that.
The 'problems' I have still noticed.... well, reading your post is actually helping me cast more light even on my own understanding, almost as if I'm getting better at using my intuition by observing how yours is working, if that makes sense. Kind of like an osmotic learning. Learning quickly for me has always been an asset when it comes to logical stuff, but when it's about spiritual, energetic, Soul matters, it's all but easy. I find myself overthinking and wondering, comparing my research on myself with that of others and not ever stopping the thinking in favor of feeling.
I guess that's where I have to stop being so much Air and use Earth to slow myself down and feel (not for nothing I made an entire post about Earth being the most spiritual of the elements, right? Cuz it helps me slow my vibration down and tune to the astral, unlike the fast working Air that leads to overthinking and shitty Void meditations).

Too much Earth element then.. of course. Guess I never really realized how much it could bind someone, I had to test it this much just to understand that. Glad I have you to point it out, I'm not sure I would have realized this was a binding and not just a bad period or something unrelated (this IS a stressful period between various shit at home, the stupid pointless 'health measures' at work and all these lies being told so often.. that's the only thing that makes me sick.. stupidity and ignorance on the loose).

Calm ocean and waves sound like a really good idea. Not because it makes me suddenly think of Water element lol, but it's a relaxing scenery.
Actually, I have been getting back to drawing lately and thought of how I could use some ideal blank place, like a drawn beach with black ink and white paper, to use that as a meditative place. Something to limit my mind to only a couple things, giving it space to host anything else, the voice of our Gods, intuitive thoughts, visions, etc. Other than a great deal of satisfaction when the drawing gets good it's also relaxing.

Quickly answering to the other question, I normally find it AMAZING to listen to and witness thunderstorms. Ever since I was a child I loved the "bad weather".. fuck people who call it that, that's my favorite weather. The scent of ozone from the rain, the watery sprays on one's face when leaning close to a semi open window, the electricity in the air, the wonderful sound... that's my thing. If I could live my entire life in a storm I so would, mate. More often than not, I leave the computer on at night just to play the sound of thunderstorms, nothing makes me happier than that.
Didn't really realize I was 'obsessed' with electricity.. I just find it wonderful, complete, almost like it's the perfect union of two worlds, perhaps almost as if a lightning comes directly from the astral as a reminder to Humans that the astral is still there.
(And yes, I know these last things I said will suggest either that I've been already overdoing Air element.. haven't, but I'm very glad to hear Air is the 'unbinder' I need... and will probably kick in your intuition, casting some light on my Soul, possibly giving you answers even I don't know yet.)

Just re-read the part where you describe how you cringed reading my post, feeling me so different from the 'me' you know. I can very much understand why. Again, these, other than the overdoing with Earth, are the 'after effects' of me closing down to deal with my ex, not to be catching anything. Guess I've been extra careful and blocked myself even further after heeding your advice and that of others here who told me to ditch her completely. If Earth was the binder I needed to be on the safe side then I'm glad I overdid it this time, got out of it safely, learned the truth on what happened, became more aware of the enemy threat on those around me (since they can't get to me). I will fix this with very slow and patient Air, no worries.

If you're right, and I think you are, about Satan sending you this thought on yellow flowers than I'm twice as glad it did. I do understand how I've been always, not just in this instance, jumped from one element to another, and I know it never really helped me as much as it could. Only in the last year I have been truly observing good results and effects, as good as to be able to give decent advice about them to others other than the obvious and clearly stated in the JoS Meditation pages.
I gather this is also probably the ultimate example I needed to finally choose to dose the elements slowly and patiently in my Soul, in order not to encounter these rookie mistakes and effects that eventually lead to confusion.

Speaking of balancing elements and the Gods' ability to do this...
I've been thinking lately, and yesterday more than ever perhaps, of how the Gods seem to 'have an element'. Their descriptions in the JoS clearly state they have one instead of the others, meaning.. what exactly? I have always believe the Gods were very much in tune with all of them at all times, then someone here mentioned that even the Gods have a 'favorite' one so to speak. I've been occasionally reading descriptions of their offices and areas of expertise and tried to relate it to their elements.. this doesn't ALWAYS make perfect sense (to me at least, as I don't understand everything about all offices and all elements obviously) but mostly it does seem to suggest a pattern.
For example, Gods that teach about herbs, stones, alchemy and such sciences usually have Water under their main element. Does it mean that Water as the main element relates to transformation and subjects that involve change? Other Gods who can heal and teach about healing have Air as element, does it mean that, mostly, Air dwells with healing too? There's a few that particularly caught my eye, but this ultimately lead me to think...
Does this observation potentially mean that we are assigned a Guardian that teaches about subjects related to our favorite/better used element?
If this theory turns out to be true (which however would suggest it works only following a LOGICAL thinking, not any other kind, as intuitive), then there's possibly even more ways to determine who one's Guardian Demon is. I read a while ago about someone (an High Priestess I believe) who mentioned that our Guardian belongs to the sex we are attracted to, as one of the things to keep in mind when trying to figure out who He/She is. Assuming I'm right in thinking of this elemental relation to be correct, it would possibly make it even easier to follow an exclusion process (bad choice of words but you get what I mean I guess).

On a completely unrelated note... (and I think you'll somehow mention the word 'bindings' here..)

Remember how I said I wasn't really feeling much anymore when doing the RTR, compared to the first couple months at least? Yesterday I decided to do one more for the day, with 36 (x9 four times) reps and spent a good half an hour speaking the letters in an almost vibrated tone. I did feel something again. It had a little of that 'dizziness' effect I felt once when doing it mentally, but it also felt pleasing, energizing, kind of.
My thoughts... I think the overdone Earth has been favoring the enemy in trying to cement my own bindings, and the RTR felt like that because it was undoing them, freeing that Earth from their vicious shit. Next step (slowly, I know) will be further unbinding and freeing the Soul with Air element over a period of time.

Another (quick!) thing before I have to run.

Yesterday I decided to try something else I haven't done before: I opened up all the JoS pages (only the Goetic ones for now) and vibrated each of the Gods' names to see if any of them had a particular effect on my, suggesting anything in particular, when determining who my Guardian is (I have a pretty good guess, but it also makes little sense as there's always three of them, two in particular that I feel very close).
When doing this vibration I felt naturally more drawn to these three, two females and a male. I don't know if this sex rule is so accurate and don't really like to think of it as a preference either.. I eventually want to get to know ALL our Gods, regardless of gender, shape or anything else. One of them, the male, being Raum, however, I am not so sure of simply because as I normally use the RAUM mantra for meditating I am probably better used to its vibrational power and feel it more easily. Also, I think I'm not that capable to vibrate "HAURES" (tried even FLAUROS) as it still sounds a lot like 'ARES', and if I'm not wrong He's your Guardian, Andras, and I wouldn't want to confuse them even more.
There's only Leraje remaining, and I must say I DO have a good feeling about Her. She's (that I understand now) the very first Goddess I've ever seen entirely, smiling, beautiful like nothing else I've ever seen. When I first read Her description it all felt very familiar, the wind manipulation, the healing.. and in the same period I have dropped a box of incense and 6 sticks fell on the floor, reminding me of how She has the 6 of Rods tarot card as well.
Long story short, She's the only one I really feel like I 'belong' to, if that makes sense, in an almost motherly way. More signs indicated Her as my Guardian, and I have seen her sigil clearly in my mind at some point while meditating.
Honestly, mate, the only reason I have been postponing accepting Her as my Guardian Demoness is that I am afraid of making a mistake and offending another God/Goddess. That's literally the only thing.... pretty stupid, isn't it.

Hail Satan!

 

[Apprentice]

which makes me want to overdo the Earth dosage

Careful, Brother. You don't want to find out how much you can handle without flying off the handle. Remember my first encounter with Fire? I was baked like an apple pie, naturally high, all smiley and shit, from just 4 breaths IIRC. I waited for several days and then went back, craving for more, only to discover that the same 4 hits gave me nothing even slightly resembling the first encounter. After that I somehow felt that I must be careful with the straight Elements in order not to fuck myself up. It also aligned with the coronacircus so I decided I don't want to walk around my forehead glowing like a hot pan thanks to the Fire. After months of contemplating I finally felt the time was right to start with Quintessence.

There were/still are some deep scars from my childhood. This is what you get when an insubordinate soul is born into a real goyim family with some xtian-like values. Problems like botched self-confidence and tension/anxiety when out and about. The latter has went on undiscovered until it was recently brought to my attention by the Powers. Working with Quintessence I feel that these dents are decreasing in size. I have already done a Munka working to undo that crap from my soul. I also feel that my rtrs have increased in power.

I still wonder what is it with me and thunder/lightning. It doesn't happen if I mentally ban it around my premises, clouds just move over quietly and start again some 10 miles away. If I allow it like I did this summer, this ineffable power goes wild and sets something on fire (happened some months ago, I had to climb a roof of a shed of a neighbouring household to put it out). I allowed it to settle any potential differences only. I guess this was needed then. However, it was interesting to note that when I learned that there is smoke emanating from a roof and went outside in the rain, the lightning and thunder basically stopped. I'm awestricken by its power but I'm not afraid nor stupid.

GitM is right saying that it all takes time. If you look around in nature, you'll see that there are no rapid changes. So stop bombarding yourself, give yourself some time to let things settle in, meditate upon yourself, make a sitrep and then decide where to go next.

Sieg Heil, Brother.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Just a quick note: sorry about all the grammar and syntax mistakes I've made in the last long post (that was supposed to be very brief but got me typing for over an hour).
I normally check for spelling errors and such but had zero time left before having to rush to work. Hope it's still readable, please disregard the mistakes.

PS. Don't know if it has anything to do with my elemental working but I REALLY improved my drawing skills lately. That avatar picture is my latest one.

Hail Satan!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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Surprisingly enough, you seem to be intriguing me into elements in return of my helping you understand intuition.

For so long I've actually pretty much ignored their existence in my advancements in favour of general energies and Runes. But I've been rather curious and drawn to Air in these past few days, and while writing this, visions of lightning and very specifically yellow coloured lightning, and, believe it or not, Zeus throwing down lightning bolts just flashed into my mind. I don't know if I'm being told something specific but whatever it is it seems to involve Air and lightning, or electricity, and when I think about it I feel something in my lower soul (where the harder bindings were placed)

I've been thinking strongly of yellow coloured lightening for a couple days now and today I used the colour yellow and visuals of the Air element (yellow lightening and clouds/wind) with relaxed focus but strong intent, and I felt something 'pushing down' the wall I felt that was essentially barricading my lower soul, I think I managed to get rid of something because when I focus on my soul, that area feels a lot more open and free now, to be worked on further I suppose but this Air element seems to be helping me. I have been working with Andras very closely in the past week (Yes, you are correct, he is my guardian. Damn cool one too and he's a lot more caring than most people might believe given he's a hardened warrior, he's been very emotionally and realistically supportive.). Today he revealed to me something, or at least it was strongly interpreted with urging to very specific words on my computer and such, again like a visual Ouija board, I try well to relax and close off my wild imaginations so I don't misinterpret anything as my own accidental intended urges when this happens and I feel his connection (has happened quite terribly in the past) and I've gotten surprisingly good at solid communications so far just in this past week.

Anyways, I was doing the RTR today, and like you, I was struggling to feel the vibrations and energy reversal because I too got bindings to deal with, different but still bindings of Earth in that I was too grounded to physical focus and was struggling to properly tune into feeling it. I tuned into Andras for guidance and heard very clearly the words "Here" sound in my head and energy drawing forth to where my sacral chakra is. I invoked him a little bit to have him help guide my focus towards there on the astral and finally slowly felt the RTR doing it's job on whatever additional bindings the enemy put in that area overnight.

He's been telling me strongly what to do each day to help free myself and progress, and even if i'm not getting it, he's still managing to make me do it. For example right after I finished all of my RTRs I was immediately urged to do the JoS Protection Ritual, so I focused on the logo on our website like I always do but felt something projecting from it at my third-eye to intervene with my focus. It wasn't negative but I was focusing simultaneously on Andras and it felt like it was the same energy. I realized as I was vibrating Algiz, Sowilo and Tyr into this focus, the energies were rebounding back to go straight into my sacral chakra area among other things on my soul. So I ended up vibrating them on myself in the end regardless.

Now onto what he revealed to me though after I went on a tangent there. When I was vibrating Tyr, my intent was guided to strongly put emphasis on the RRR in a very particular manner, and the T was starting to sound more like a vibrated D. I felt the need to say the word Dragon, it just felt so satisfying to say it. When I finished with the vibrations immediately I was urged in flitting through a bunch of open tabs, some pages of our website, some of my folders. And I was drawn to the word "Gods"(As in the code for chakras) and once I interpreted that as communication I was then pulled to the word "of" and then "Dragons". A long time ago it was revealed to me that my spiritual animal is the dragon and it represents my soul's composition and personality and generally who I am, I think some monks wrote things about 'dragon energies' but I don't know what kind of hoo-hah that potentially may be.

Anyways admittedly a month or so ago around the deeper point I was starting to lose myself, I remember seeing dragons every where. Figurines in stores, posters, even wanting to pick a random book from a shelf and it had the word 'dragon' in the title with the cover of dragons as well. I was struggling to know what that even meant or what I was being told, but if I'm honest with myself I know it now because well, for the past 5 months or so, I kind of lost who I was a bit. That draconic ferocity of a warrior, battle-hardened with vigor to gain power, strength and to fight the good fight. I didn't notice how passive I was starting to do everything, how I was losing that vigor of who I am, that dragon spirit.

In truth I don't know what went wrong, when or exactly how, either I focused too much on intuitional power and Aether and forgot the other warrior/dragon half of my soul, or if it was working at a job in an enemy location surrounded by enemies for a year, or if it was that attack with the self-made thoughtform. Either way, something happened to ultimately make me close out on the lower masculine chakras and that draconic spirit, enemy attacks were in fact involved, though during that time I never noticed them, I only saw them this past few weeks. The dragon spirit, fiery energies, the sacral chakra and it's extensions, that warrior side of me was what drove me in courage, ferocity and determination every single day to advance, advance and advance and to fight, fight, fight. And I have no doubt the enemy had a good hand in steering me away from that, I just never saw it or noticed.

I'm getting it back though and in finally learning to quieten my own mind as the gods had been constantly warning me that as someone so psychically inclined with power, my own mind can be my worst enemy which has been proven again and again, I'm seeing things more clearly. It also helps to have quit that job. Things have been falling into place little by little for me as I've been putting in effort with the help of Satan and my guardian to better myself and get back up from this mess, because no matter how many times one falls down and crumbles into a pile of ash, I will always remember what rises from ash without fail every single time as per it's very nature. A fiery and courageous phoenix.

Like you, I feel like I had lost part of myself. We both can work in getting it back. For you, it's your free Air self, for me it's my Fire self. And this brings me to the elements of Demons. Contrary to what it might seem, our gods are not the best at everything equally, they profoundly excel in specific areas and this is what is known as their "office"; We essentially have them too once you find out what you're good at and who you are. This is why when you ask one demon for something that isn't written on their page as their specialty or 'office' they will instead refer you to another demon who does. One can be the jack of all trades but only a master of 1... or 2.. or well, it varies from demon to demon and person to person, but you get what I mean.

This uniqueness is also why they have specific elements that they favour and in truth it is the element that most represents them as an individual in personality, role and capability. This isn't always obvious because hey I go on about psychic powers, intuition and the ether which are all Water and Air element things but I'm actually a Fire individual, those are just some things I'm good at, I can't really say Ether is mine because, well, it's all elements, but my primary is in fact Fire, even though in my chart I am high in all elements except for water (Funnily enough the western dragon in mythology's spiritual composition is also high in Fire, Earth and Air but no Water, just like me, I thought that was interesting to me).

Fire is very warrior-like, explosive, ferocious, it is a very founding element to strength and power, so it's no surprise that I share this trait with Andras, one of the great warriors of Satan's army who trains warriors and who's element on his profile is in fact Fire. Our guardians are more than just protectors, they are assigned to us not to primarily protect us, that is their secondary purpose from their first one, which is to teach us how to come into our own composition and selves and who we are as well as to utilize this. And for this be so, they have to specialize in everything that makes you, you.

So yes, you share a lot with your guardian whoever it may be, sometimes even your chart ruling planet, favourite animal (the wolf was my favourite animal for 15 years to the point of obsession growing up and Andras' animal is the hell hound/wolf). I also share strongly, the compositional energies from my natal chart, his planets. Andras is also an artist, growing up I loved drawing and art and to this day, though I don't draw as often as I used to, I still love outlet of creativity and beauty in art and paintings. Also, your guardian demon isn't actually according to any sexual preference but this is a large factor into what gender you are most comfortable with so it's nothing more than just a mere guideline. If you're straight, you're likely very comfortable with females, I am homosexual and Andras is male, I feel more comfortable with men than I do with women.

And I'm going to tell you right now, and try not to freak out too much about it, I'm only saying what I experienced and felt, there are no mediators in Satanism I can't tell you how things are to the exact letter and be "Oh yeah, this is totally 100% it man, listen to me or else" and all that garbage, trust your own gut feeling, I'm only saying what I felt which is not always accurate and keep that in mind but trust your own instinct here. So yeah, there I am reading your post here all the way down to you talking about your suspected guardians, it's all casual, I'm feeling the typical energy reading of your Earth situation in bindings.

Just your own typical kind of thing, and then, yes, I get to Laraje and then a sudden immediate change of energy in tie to you out of no where hits me like, no pun intended but that's how it felt, a gust of wind in my face. It was very positive and felt almost as if I just connected with someone personally close to you without my consent or control. I could almost not only feel but see the transferring connection between this name and you, and truth be told I entirely forgot about who she was in regards to how you made posts in the past fawning about her until I kept reading past the name and what you said after and thought "Oooh", so this was not driven at all by emotion or past-acknowledged opinion, that energy was shot straight at me for me to feel, whether she did it herself or if I just sensed something, I don't know 100% yet.

Anyways suddenly I'm bolting over to the demons page to look for her profile and what is drawn to my attention in urging is her element and planet, which I have no doubt you share strongly with her. I think multiple signs even were evident here, the most important one being you can't let her go. When I was new and was still trying to figure out who my guardian was, I always, always was drawn to Andras. I doubted and doubted time to time and wasn't entirely sure, I would explore all other potentials and even devote a couple of days to one other demon I thought might have been my guardian but no matter what I did I always came straight back to Andras. And from there he showed me many signs that it was him and I even felt his energies as the years went on. The gods can urge you, any time, any where to bring you in the right direction, if no matter what you're feeling, emotion or logic, you keep being drawn to that demon as your guardian, well, I'm gonna tell you right now... I think you found her.

And you know what I think the funniest sign is... you love her. You're drawn to her beauty and to her in general like that of any man who would be drawn to love his mother, or even a woman he wants to hold and love, it does not have to be relationship wise though, love is a flexible emotion. Why do I think this is a sign? She is the goddess of love she makes anybody love anyone, it is literally her ability to attract people with love and if you ask me I think she is literally doing that to you and using that very power on you yourself to make you love her as her own personal sign in her own symbolical ability that yes, she IS your guardian. I can't believe I didn't even see or notice that, it's literally right there. You love the goddess of love who makes people love anyone she wants and to whomever, including herself.

That is a powerful sign right there because when Andras was telling me he was MY guardian, he also used something related to him. I was well aware that the wolf was his animal and when he was summoned he was attended by a black hell hound, in general this can be watered down to any black canine. When I was wondering if he was really my guardian in a true determined effort to figure it out, for two whole months on my way to work I would not be able to go a single day without seeing at least 1 black dog, usually it was like 3 or more though, and it happened so often every single day without fail that I legit noticed it and began to question how the hell so many people in my city owned so many black dogs and were constantly walking them in my path, not even just in going to work but that was the most riddled path. He planned for people who owned black dogs to take them for a walk along the route I always take to work, at the same time of day every single time and it wasn't even the same people or the same dogs even each time. And you know what? As soon as I made the connection and realized it was a sign that he was my guardian and accepted that he was my guardian, I never saw a single black dog again for the next 6 months the exact day after I made that connection and realization, which only proved it ever further.

They use their OWN symbology and powers. I think at this point, it's very safe to say, you do know who your guardian demon is and you've subconsciously known this whole time. I'm excited about this as well but probably not as much as you are in reading this. I mean, it makes far too much sense. When I was new I didn't have a lick of personality to what Andras stood for, and it was my mistake in telling you before that "Oh you're like your guardian and blah blah blah" and yet I completely forgot that I wasn't like MY guardian until years and years later in my spiritual development. I developed it over time and came into myself as I advanced and freed my soul over the years to know who I was, and in knowing who I was my connection with Andras became ever more apparent.

You still have time in your own development to discover yourself and in what ways you are actually more alike with your guardian than you're aware of. But back then, I didn't yet come into myself to know who he was, you don't NEED to reach that level to find out who they are.

I think it's a good idea to contact Laraje and start discovering that close bond personally for yourself, because I think it's incredibly difficult at this point with all of these signs to deny that she is in fact your guardian demon. That was probably the connection I felt between you two, and again, I don't know if she was the one who made me feel that because I can read those kinds of things and lately we've been very 'coincidentally' working closely together in helping one another spiritually, but in that moment I felt it very strongly and undeniably as a most certain connection and it's entirely possible she very well did make me feel and see that connection to tell you all of this and make you aware, hell I didn't even see it until I felt that so in truth she likely made me realize too.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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Just a quick note: sorry about all the grammar and syntax mistakes I've made in the last long post (that was supposed to be very brief but got me typing for over an hour).
I normally check for spelling errors and such but had zero time left before having to rush to work. Hope it's still readable, please disregard the mistakes.

PS. Don't know if it has anything to do with my elemental working but I REALLY improved my drawing skills lately. That avatar picture is my latest one.

Hail Satan!

I'm all about grammar and being neat and tidy with things but I'm not going to cast you into an eternal lake of fire for making mistakes. It didn't bother me one bit and it was the last thing for me to even notice and I didn't even notice until you pointed it out here. I did however notice the profile picture, that's really incredible detail right there and as an avid artist and lover of artwork I am impressed. Was there any particular reason you chose a chicken?

Actually I wanted to post to you to tell you something because I think it's important to clarify and let know because it will not stop popping into my head over and over again since I read it and I think that might be Andras or one of the gods wanting me to let you know in that I'm constantly being urged to clarify to you but I just never got the message or motivation until today.

When I read that Satan told you to keep your spine straight I probably should've been heeding that as well. I forgot about your message and was repeatedly slouching in posture while meditating and Andras would sharply urge me and has constantly been reminding me to stop slouching in this past week. He was bringing to my attention my heart chakra and my shoulder chakras in which it was made aware to me by the cold stinging sensation of my shoulders (signs of a blocked/sealed chakra) that they're blocked, and by slouching I'm preventing energies from rising and circulating up to my heart chakra and through the rest of the extensions and majors.

When we're slouching, what we're doing is an unintentional bandhi, a compression of physical form that contracts and tightens to all but completely halt the flow of energy through our nadis and such since the physical and astral mirror each other, which means our heart chakras and upper chakras are not getting enough energy. And speaking of heart, the gods made it well aware for more than a month honestly that I should be eating healthier. I've been constantly urged lately to eat bananas, yogurt, apples and oatmeal with no sugars and it certainly does make me spiritually feel a lot better afterwords, especially orange pekoe tea with honey (Buer showed me that to help cure a microbial infection in my stomach that was debilitating my solar chakra and causing ulcers, which worked like a dream in just three days) but it was brought to my attention the other day that apparently my cholesterol is too high. I was doing some studying on mushrooms when I felt pulled towards a specific type of mushroom, Shiitake mushrooms, and on the wiki I was drawn to it's mentioning of health benefits and felt urged to check on what exactly.

Everything it helps with very specifically is primarily cholesterol, and I noticed it wasn't the first time I had seen the word cholesterol repeatedly brought to my attention. I ended up looking up just what helps reduce cholesterol and basically it's literally been everything I've been being urged to eat constantly by the gods. I also ended up looking up what causes high cholesterol and practically cringed at how terribly I've been eating because everything that rose cholesterol so high was what I had been savagely consuming for months almost every single day. I plan to get a blood test to see how bad it is but so far in the past day three things have also been drawn to my attention, the word exercise, being drawn to seeing someone jogging outside and today seeing the word Joy in Joy of Satan on our main page as the word Jog. Quite obvious what I need to do and I plan to do so, in fact I was urged to the other day but felt too tired to and didn't realize I was being told to.

Physical cardiovascular health is important for the Heart Chakra as it rules over all of this, and again, remember the mirroring factor. If you're physically unhealthy with a bad diet, it IS going to affect your chakras in mirror to it, just like that microbial problem was debilitating my solar chakra back then so badly that it felt like a black hole was in the centre of my soul, but once it was physically cured my solar chakra came back in full strength. I think it would benefit you to eat healthier and exercise as well, I'll be doing the same on my end, we can get through all this shit together, it's nice to not feel alone on the human side, right? And yes, having to eat healthy and exercise, the thought of it just makes me want to go to sleep and it does suck. But there is no jumping into any extremes here, I'm only planning to jog today for no more than 10 or so minutes as a start on my end for instance and I don't know where you particularly fall in or when or how and what you should do specifically on your end, I would suggest you ask your guardian, she will urge you to specific things and show you signs.

I remember some months back when I was first urged to eat something healthier instead of what I was originally planning to which I think was a very sugary lunch. I knew then that it was in fact the gods urging me to do so but I felt so depressed like some 5 year old saying he didn't want to eat his veggies and I just wanted my sweets, it felt like I had strict parents but I knew it was for my own good anyways and all downtrodden forced myself to listen to them anyways. Afterwords I felt really good though, whether it was praise or whathaveyou, not sure, but I did spiritually feel better even. Another time I was coming off work, I think this was 5 weeks ago and badly wanted some sugar cookies, I was craving them and went to the store on my way home to pick some up. The very second I reached for the container of cookies I was practically jolted back in the urge of a strong "No" that made me pull my hand away.

Next thing you know I'm standing there looking like a weirdo in the dessert section pacing back and forth having an internal debate and battle between the urge of what I'm being told and the desire of what I want. The desire almost won but I ultimately knew it never could've because every time I was thinking "Yeah nope, I'm getting it" and picked up the cookies to make my way to the cash register I'm immediately turning around and putting them back and then staring at them again. I was frustrated and eventually caved and gave in to what I ultimately deduced I was being told for my own good.

The urge shifted to make me move over to the dairy section and I was strongly urged to a tub of yogurt and with a sigh made my way to the cash register with it. But I kid you not, when I took it home to finally eat it thinking it would just be boring old yogurt, I'm gonna tell you right now it was the best damn tasting yogurt I ever had and it beat those sugar cookies tenfold. I don't know if the gods somehow altered my perception of flavour with synethesia in reward or if they made me pick a very specific tub because I was urged to only one in particular but yeah... they understand the frustrations and such but they do it because they care about us and our well-being.

Take care of your health too brother, diet and physical-wise, it will help spiritually as well and it feels damn good in the long-run even if it sucks to do short-term, believe me I understand and so do the gods. Down the road of much better and improved physical and spiritual health, a cheese cake once in a while isn't going to kill you. I know on my end engaging in something like jogging will not only help my heart chakra in cardiovascular health but my lower chakras which rule over things like force, physical matters and exercising. I guess it also helps in interest to see from my own stories I'm sharing here and yours the ways our gods communicate and look after us.

And hey, remember that spine thing, no slouching and I'll try to keep myself on the up and up in remembering that as well. Leaning back slightly I've found with a pillow or something gently between the curvature of your spine and the chair is the better relaxed alternative to slouching for now it seems, I'm probably going to need a better chair.

 

[Apprentice]

When I read that Satan told you to keep your spine straight I probably should've been heeding that as well. I forgot about your message and was repeatedly slouching in posture while meditating and Andras would sharply urge me and has constantly been reminding me to stop slouching in this past week. He was bringing to my attention my heart chakra and my shoulder chakras in which it was made aware to me by the cold stinging sensation of my shoulders (signs of a blocked/sealed chakra) that they're blocked, and by slouching I'm preventing energies from rising and circulating up to my heart chakra and through the rest of the extensions and majors.

I just read your message before my evening meditations and felt an urge to heed this. In retrospect, it makes totally sense.

For the last 2 or 3 years I've had stinging pains in my shoulders where the shoulder chakras would be. Also I've had intermittent sharp sensations like there is a dagger stabbed right between my shoulder blades. This pain can last days. Of course I'm guilty of slouching whenever I work on a computer, meditate or even drive (which I do a lot).

When I was in high school, I remember I once went to a wall and stood straight with my back, heels, shoulders and head touching the wall and made a mental note to keep this athletic, arian posture. I keep this posture whenever I walk but during driving, working on a computer etc. it's hard not to relax.

So today I sat straight as a pencil as I did the rtr. At one point I felt something I can't describe. I started laughing and crying at the same time. Now I have a sensation of lightness in my chest. Also there's a hint of a slight headache. Is this the aftermath of a released chakra blockage? I feel great.

I just wanted to drop this quick note and also say Thank You, GitM and SioF666.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

When I read that Satan told you to keep your spine straight I probably should've been heeding that as well. I forgot about your message and was repeatedly slouching in posture while meditating and Andras would sharply urge me and has constantly been reminding me to stop slouching in this past week. He was bringing to my attention my heart chakra and my shoulder chakras in which it was made aware to me by the cold stinging sensation of my shoulders (signs of a blocked/sealed chakra) that they're blocked, and by slouching I'm preventing energies from rising and circulating up to my heart chakra and through the rest of the extensions and majors.

I just read your message before my evening meditations and felt an urge to heed this. In retrospect, it makes totally sense.

For the last 2 or 3 years I've had stinging pains in my shoulders where the shoulder chakras would be. Also I've had intermittent sharp sensations like there is a dagger stabbed right between my shoulder blades. This pain can last days. Of course I'm guilty of slouching whenever I work on a computer, meditate or even drive (which I do a lot).

When I was in high school, I remember I once went to a wall and stood straight with my back, heels, shoulders and head touching the wall and made a mental note to keep this athletic, arian posture. I keep this posture whenever I walk but during driving, working on a computer etc. it's hard not to relax.

So today I sat straight as a pencil as I did the rtr. At one point I felt something I can't describe. I started laughing and crying at the same time. Now I have a sensation of lightness in my chest. Also there's a hint of a slight headache. Is this the aftermath of a released chakra blockage? I feel great.

I just wanted to drop this quick note and also say Thank You, GitM and SioF666.

Something so simple does such wonders, doesn't it? The heart chakra is the chakra of the emotion of love, it is one of it's inner states, when Satan sends his love to us or any of the gods we feel it in the heart chakra. I have found this love to be very healing and Satan helped me free up my wings again with it, still need some work to keep them freed but it's all progress to something better in time, patience is key and Satan is strong with those who practice it.

Love is a very healing emotion and very positive energy, when negativity is released by it and brought forth to surface, it is a huge weight lifted off of, pun intended, your shoulders and the negativity leaves us in the physical manifestation of crying as it surfaces to leave out through the upper chakras. This also happens when, yes, one frees something from their soul and breaks a blockage or 'chain', it's oddly enough the same kind of relief you would get if you actually were physically freed from actual chains that you've been stuck to for so long, I think that's rather interesting to note and that perhaps our soul subconsciously feels more complex details than we're actually aware of. I have cried a lot in this past week but good crying, haha, a lot of healing is being done so it's bound to happen.

The headache is from energies being allowed to flow freely to the upper chakras and the chakras are not used to such energy levels and flows, so this creates pressure and tension in physical response and that's what the headache is. Also I completely understand that slouching is so relaxing but it's definitely just generally not very good. I think it was Andras or someone that suggested to me the idea of using a pillow in the curvature of the back against your chair and then leaning back a bit into it.

I've found this, honestly, more relaxing than slouching granted you get it all right, it's just a little extra support. In any event I'm pretty sure sitting up straight is something one can make a habit out of, I think I recall a time when I was younger when I was oddly determined to always sit straight, and for the longest time it made slouching uncomfortable and just not natural, I found it was a lot more easier and comfortable to sit up straight. Of course over the years I started slouching again but this leads me to believe it can be made into a habit.

Personally I like the pillow method for now.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

It also aligned with the coronacircus so I decided I don't want to walk around my forehead glowing like a hot pan thanks to the Fire.

That sounds like a common problem, Brother. Where I work they have this 'laser gun' constantly pointed at the door to check the temperature of everyone entering and it's pissing me off to no end. First, because the unneeded brain scan surely doesn't help me and the reading is so very often wrong, too high after one's been walking under the Sun from the car making lots of people seem too hot anyway.. this is 'solved' (to them) by using a second, handheld gun to your forehead... I don't think I need to continue, you know where I'm going with this. The first time I wasn't even expecting it as I didn't know it was what they did when the Sun NATURALLY AND HEALTHILY warms your face up and I got seriously pissed, these fuckers never even heard of the words "pineal gland". The second time I was ready and got the idiot to scan my wrist instead, explaining again how any unneeded rays shot in the head can't be good for the most important organ in the body. They just laughed. Some people really make the fucking jews proud, don't they? -_-
Secondly, that's probably what you meant too. I was very inclined to get my Fire going a few months back, right before they installed this shit. Now I enter the place with a hoodie, looking to the side, and was thinking of wearing some "tinfoil nutjob" hat on the inner side of the hoodie since I have no idea where I could find a sheet of lead and fashion it into a hat or something like it.
I read about the machine itself, it technically should just convert the heat into electricity and that amount is indicated on a screen in temperature value. "Technically" it shouldn't be invasive, but I see I wasn't the only one who searched for this information being worried about the pineal gland.
This 'technology' has to go, these 'checks' have to go. And yes, I did think of using the Air sub element, electricity, to burn the machine's circuits. Guess I'm not as good with lightning as you.

I'm glad you feel the Quintessence is working on you. If you can feel it that clearly, filling the holes in your Soul and healing you, I only wonder how much more advanced you'd be if you started this years ago instead of postponing Elementalism for so long. Or maybe you didn't, and you simply used the Elements but didn't realize it, which made you subtly readier and readier, as much as to work this well with Quintessence.

This 'relationship' you have with thunder/lightning feels a lot stronger than mine with it.. perhaps I'm just more inclined to use sheer Air, as in wind. It would make sense given I do 'fear' lightning in good healthy measure, realizing it's a major force and that people normally don't stand a chance when struck (although some get lightning struck and apparently don't report any injury or serious conditions afterwards.. never could confirm or deny this info however, so don't take it for granted). Wind to me feels more pleasurable and definitely safer. I've had 'scary' dreams about earthquakes, about the sea, don't really remember about fires, but whenever I had dreams on tornados I felt almost 'home' if that makes sense, out of harm's way so to speak. Not to mention my ability to 'change the weather' comes from manipulating the clouds using upper winds to gather them or disperse them, which feels a lot more natural than other ways and probably explains why I failed to summon storms and rains on the Australian bushfire.. there simply isn't enough humidity in the sky for me to gather into a good amount of clouds. I plan to train that this Summer and refine the ability into something more precise. I have to trust Air like I haven't done before, but without overdoing it and over-invoking it. I guess this is where I also learn better the difference between invokation and evokation.

No worries then about bombarding or blasting myself anymore. I'm really, really tempted to do it, but I understand in the long run I'll thank myself for waiting and going easy. Besides, instead of going straight to Air element I'm trying to feel the Earth bindings vanishing and lessening, or 'sublimating' perhaps is more the correct word to use here. I did notice physical toughness and blockages, muscles being too rigid and energy blocked there. This Earthy 'mistake' has been useful somehow too, I know not to ever overdo Earth again, I'll balance it with Quintessence instead. Still feel like the only real element I can overdo without any problem at all is Air.. if anything it helped me feel more than I thought I would, but I'll go easy on it too, I'm pretty sure there's plenty of subtle emphasis that I've been missing by invoking without measure.

On a short different note: have you ever tried thinking of your Soul as mere electricity? Visualizing it as electricity instead of light? Always without overdoing it of course, but I felt the pleasant electric 'bunch of jolts' before. I'm not talking of absorption here, as unlike the Fire surge you've got back then, this will come from within yourself. Have a go if you feel so drawn to lightning, maybe it's a sign you should investigate yourself in these terms.

Hail Satan!

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

For the last 2 or 3 years I've had stinging pains in my shoulders where the shoulder chakras would be. Also I've had intermittent sharp sensations like there is a dagger stabbed right between my shoulder blades. This pain can last days. Of course I'm guilty of slouching whenever I work on a computer, meditate or even drive (which I do a lot).

When I was in high school, I remember I once went to a wall and stood straight with my back, heels, shoulders and head touching the wall and made a mental note to keep this athletic, arian posture. I keep this posture whenever I walk but during driving, working on a computer etc. it's hard not to relax.

So today I sat straight as a pencil as I did the rtr. At one point I felt something I can't describe. I started laughing and crying at the same time. Now I have a sensation of lightness in my chest. Also there's a hint of a slight headache. Is this the aftermath of a released chakra blockage? I feel great.

I just wanted to drop this quick note and also say Thank You, GitM and SioF666.

Perhaps something like this would help: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07L41CV8B/ref=ox_sc_act_title_1?smid=A26KQIY0SJ099B&psc=1

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Zeus throwing down lightning bolts just flashed into my mind. I don't know if I'm being told something specific but whatever it is it seems to involve Air and lightning, or electricity, and when I think about it I feel something in my lower soul (where the harder bindings were placed)

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I just finished answering to Brother Apprentice and I suggest you read the very last thing I said to him. This is now causing my intuition to kick in and suggest something like a pattern.
We're pretty used to visualize light when working with our Souls as (just like Lilith said) "Light is Power", so I'm going to suggest you try something differently, and because you mentioned either your lower Soul having harder bindings as well as seeing Zeus throwing down lightning bolts, I have reason to believe this will work with you.

Like I suggested to Apprentice, you could try and think of your Soul in terms of electricity, not light, for once. Just visualize it as some kind of light 'rod', but picture it only really activating and coming to full life when it becomes sparkly and generating visible electric energy that gets stronger in the lower part where your lower chakras are.
Obviously go slowly on this, as electricity is still a sub element of Air and by no means should be taken lightly, but do focus on it there, feel the gentle 'hum' of distant thunders. And yes, DO REMEMBER to keep your spine straight. By overcharging the lower chakras I believe if you manage to break the bindings even further you WILL NEED a clear passage to the upper chakras in order to avoid the 'clamped water hose' effect and observe more cold stinging nerves where the clamped part is situated.
Also, as this vision you had suggests you need more yellow color, try to visualize that electricity as a surging yellow lightning, not blueish as electricity usually can be seen.
Just focus on it for a while, don't necessarily breathe in any element, this is something that should be already within you so no outside interaction is needed in my opinion. Make it gentle and pleasant and when you get it going and feel it crackling lightly, just keep your senses open and see what happens. Something strongly tells me this will help you healing your lower chakras (and yes, again, this might be the Gods speaking through us to each other).
Have a go and let me know what you notice. Honestly, I think I will do this too after suggesting two others to try it. I've done it just once I think and it felt pleasant and almost refreshing. Maybe it's one of the ways Air people heal themselves?

As I'm re-reading where you speak of not feeling the RTR effects and Andras telling you about the sacral chakra, I tried just being open and feel my lower Soul too. (Note: I'm truly making an effort in trying NOT to slouch while typing, as I usually tend to lean forward.) The surprising result was that after a few seconds I felt the sacral chakra and a little the solar one kind of.. 'popping up' and heating up quickly. Now I wonder if I am already observing effects of what I just suggested you did with the electricity, as I tried to imagine the effects and what actually happens down there that I may not be aware of. That, and I'm feeling also the third eye being a little 'buzzy'. To tell you the truth, Brother, this is the first time in my life that I am fully aware of two different chakras at the same time... (talking to you REALLY helps).

Your temporary 'loss' of the Dragon within you, in my opinion reading your posts and seeing how you talk and explain things, the more I think of it the less I think of it as a loss. To be more clear, over the time I have been part of this forum, for the last 8 months, I have seen in you one of the strongest, most dedicated, fiercely caring and helpful Satanists I've ever spoken to. More than once I did wonder why your name doesn't include a "High Priest" before it, and the last couple of weeks I think I have simply confirmed that tenfold. So I can't really think of you having been much less than what you already are.
True enough, I believe the stress of the current 'world crisis' has been hitting probably everyone's spot, whether they believe 'Covid' will kill them if they remove the mask or they understand eons better than others what is going on and truly realize just how much is at stake here. This year has been extremely stressful to Humans, in some areas this stress has escalated to the point of pushing people to fall in serious depression and suicides have been so many (like Italy, where a man speaking with a megaphone telling people to open their eyes and think if this isn't all just a scam has been arrested AND sedated in public by masked white coats.. straight out of "1984" or "Fahrenheit 451".... some people experienced first hand what communism feels like).
Yet, you've been super helpful to us, to me especially. You never flinched, as far as I can see. If that doesn't make you a Dragon, I don't know what else does. The fact that you have seen them often, thought of them often, observed it as a sign, surely has a meaning, but I don't think in any way that it spells how 'weak' you have been. And sure as Hell, that damn workplace has indeed contaminated you with its shit at some point, so if you feel like demeaning yourself thinking that you haven't been splendid, that you have been anything less than a Dragon, I'd say it's the damn leeches pulling this stunt on you, trying to make you think less of yourself BECAUSE you're already so strong they have no other way of interfering with your crushing advance.
Perhaps I'd think of the Dragon signs in your life more of a praise from the Gods, if you want my opinion. You may not be the most bridging thing that ever lived between Humans and Gods, perhaps, but you're way more close to this power than so many others, mate.
I believe this sign is the Gods telling you "You're a Dragon, well done, keep this up".

"Things have been falling into place little by little for me as I've been putting in effort with the help of Satan and my guardian to better myself and get back up from this mess, because no matter how many times one falls down and crumbles into a pile of ash, I will always remember what rises from ash without fail every single time as per it's very nature. A fiery and courageous phoenix."

That's what I like to hear.

Your explanation of how the Demons' office works and how they may refer one to a different Demon if their area of most expertise is another one make a lot of sense indeed. I guess not being so expert myself I can get confused by this.. it comes to mind when I mentally tried to call on Bastet being the topic 'Cats', in a really stressed moment, and Lilith came instead. Only later did I find that Liliths's animals are the Cat and Owl, which made a lot of sense still, but made me wonder about Bastet as she was 'THE One' I thought of regarding cats. Maybe the obvious isn't so obvious sometimes.

And here I am, answering to the most anticipated moment in your reply...

Dude, I'm over the moon right now. Seriously, I know I have had probably NO REASON not to believe Leraje to be my Guardian, and this has been so for over one year now. I found that he was somehow important for me around June 2019 and things have been happening to point out that She was the one. I even started feeling a particular hot energy, always on my left foot, and I'd just know it was her, making herself known. In one month, then, machines started failing without reason left and right in my workplace and I'd just chuckle and think "Another one.. I'm pretty sure it's You by now", but in the end I probably simply feared offending another Demon if I was confirming this to myself and postponed accepting this.. accepting HER as my Guardian, much as I wanted to. And because of my almost zero ability to feel I used to wonder to myself how I could have possibly learned the things she'd have told me. I've been such a fool, especially since I already did sense and notice something. The fear and feeling of inadequacy just got the better of me in the end.

You know? I can't help but suspect that the Gods have lead us both to this exchange of information and hints to help each other also in order for me to be more open and believe you if you told me something like that. In this very moment, I have completely accepted that Leraje is my Guardian Demon and I couldn't really be happier, nor do I desire someone else to be my Guardian as she feels very familiar and positive, kind and caring to me. It feels like I have known her for a rather long time, but forgot about it and until I get rid of this amnesia... but even so, I still feel very bound to her. I don't even know how else to put it into words right now..

And love? I don't know much about that because, if I return to logic for a moment, I remember I also love other Demons.. but uh... yeah, no.. it's different. It's the love for a kind tutor versus the love for ..someone like a beloved aunt, or something close. Someone VERY familiar. A Mother perhaps? I can't quite put my finger on what kind of love I feel for Leraje, but it's something that doesn't break, that much I can tell you.

Her element and planet make absolute sense to me. I was even born on the day of that planet. Sometime ago, during a research frenzy when I tried to use logic to determine my Guardian I still made a list and noticed how I was naturally more attracted to Goddess with Air element and Mercury as a planet. Even Haures has them, so I thought there was some kind of connection perhaps. I don't know about that exactly, but Leraje definitely strongly sticks out of the group.

"I'm gonna tell you right now... I think you found her."

I know there are no mediators in Satanism, but.. wow. This feels pretty unprecedented. I know you're right. I just have no doubt anymore.

"it does not have to be relationship wise though, love is a flexible emotion."

Brother, if only I could have known about Satanism and Guardian Demons when I was like 4 or 5, I think I might have found her back then. I say this because I used to feel a lot of love, directed to me, from "Someone". There were times I simply spaced out and pay attention to what I always felt like a completely difference dimension, and I'd feel it. I KNEW someone was doing this, only, not knowing the truth, I didn't know what to make of it and ended up believing I was maybe fantasizing too much, losing myself in a world I wanted to be real.
Hell, now that I know it was and IS real I feel... unbelievably positive. I wonder if it was always Leraje sending me this love, making me feel it. And I wonder if that's why I always found women's 'love' to be such a disappointment when I always compared it to that of the Goddess of Love and Pleasure.
I'm still awestruck here...

"They use their OWN symbology and powers. I think at this point, it's very safe to say, you do know who your guardian demon is and you've subconsciously known this whole time. I'm excited about this as well but probably not as much as you are in reading this."

Can't tell you how much I am excited... do you know how long I've been wanting to find this answer? Many times I even believed I would have died without ever finding out, that I was that bad as a Satanist. What you made me completely realize now changes the game for good.
And, absolutely, the symbology is DEFINITELY something to keep a close eye on. Your example with Andras making you encounter black dogs to make you realize and then stopping completely once you got the meaning of it all sounds incredibly similar to my experience with failing machines and technology. Today I had the last proof as well, just as a confirmation that "Yes, Ghost is right" while a window in my car malfunctioned. The timing is way too perfect, these answers are undeniable.

Brother, I don't think I can ever thank you enough for all the clarity you're bringing in my life. The more I speak with you, the more what I thought had no longer anything to teach me turns upside down and showers me with new, vast and unexpected knowledge. I can only hope some of my insights will prove more useful to you as well.

Speaking of insights, I'll briefly answer here about the 'straightening the spine'.

All you described about the spine creating the new bandhi feels completely legit. I do have this problem and I know it needs urgent addressing, as the habit of slouching can be a very hard one to deter. I don't want nor should expect the Gods to constantly have to remind me about it when it's something so easily solvable, so every time I type now, or sit in a chair, I try to always remind myself to keep the spine straight and flexible. I guess one way to correct this wrong and unhealthy posture would be to pair it to some other habit.. as an Air one, the first that comes to mind is an open posture that allows slower and deeper breathing.

I'm remembering what Brother Apprentice said about his breathing being too 'low' in a way I guess, not needing enough oxygen and taking little breaths compared to what is possibly considered the average. I don't know about his posture but I can only speculate that this could be a common problem among us. Air people slouch? And if so, why? Mmmm.... maybe that's exactly the point here. Air people have naturally too much Air, so the body itself is somehow trying to 'correct' this by assuming a posture that won't allow exaggerated amounts of air to reach inside, could it be?
What you're doing by training your physical body and cardiovascular flow could probably be considered a physical way to equalize the other three elements, or some of them at least, in order to let your body 'Quintess' itself so that a good, open posture that allows more Air element to easily flow in, can be achieved without overcharging one's Air.

That's just a theory though, it's the first and most logical that came to mind in a few seconds of thinking. Hopefully it can cast some light on the slouching problem.

And QUICKLY, another observation...

(It is probably convenient now that I had to close this post before living for work and I'm finishing writing it after hours of testing this...)

I've been focusing on not slouching for most of the day since this morning when I read your other reply. I did mention I felt two of my chakras at the same time... it definitely felt like something was happening and something was at work in fixing the imperfections that appear with a wrong spine posture, BUT at some point I also have had a 'headache'... let me explain briefly: this wasn't 'just a headache'. I clearly felt my third eye flare up and some stronger than normal pressure on chakras on the back of my head. I kept moving at work in the room, shutting metal doors and reopening them trying to determine whether or not this shit was from a 5G tower in the area suddenly being activated... I checked the sky, the birds and insects and everyone looked alright, so I disregarded the 5G as culprit, but it still felt pretty unbearable... I blamed a truck parking in front of the room with its engine on, but I know trucks' noise don't feel like that. This lasted for a while but then lessened to a humming third eye... I still have some pressure in about two hearing chakras in the lateral back of the head but they're nothing to worry about.

This just came and went away in a matter of a few hours before sunset, about maybe 6 hours since I forced myself to straighten the spine while reading your last answer.
Just so you know and are readier for any effect. Do let me know if you experience anything similar. I don't think it's very likely because you seem more in control of yourself and better disciplined of course (I will soon enough increase my daily physical training to a more complete Yoga set, martial arts and Tai Chi), but if my heads up can help you be more prepared I'm glad about that.

SUPER long post, take your time, Brother. And I really want you to know I appreciate your help immensely. Leraje it is then..

Hail Satan!!!!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

I did however notice the profile picture, that's really incredible detail right there and as an avid artist and lover of artwork I am impressed. Was there any particular reason you chose a chicken?

Completely forgot about this part.
Thanks a lot, I'm glad you appreciated the detail. I'm training to get more realistic textures (but in the end it's more just about creating an illusion for the mind to be tricked into more realism), and I chose a rooster (one of mine) as I didn't want to complicate myself with human form and the typical landscapes.. I'm pretty happy with the feathery effect though, best work I've done.

Next one that I started today is an eagle head. I just find birds very fascinating subjects.

Hail Satan!

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Modern processed sugar is very nasty and incredibly addictive. You should treat it like a drug, meaning you have to completely remove it from your life. An alcoholic cannot stock their pantry with alcohol, and so on. As long as you can avoid the urge to purchase the item, you have beaten it. If you purchase it and fool yourself into thinking you can "moderate" your use, there is a much greater chance of failure. We are all guilty of some sort of addiction to modern living, so this isn't directed solely towards you. Even I am not innocent.

Such a method sounds strict, but it is also the most effective. You will find your urge for whatever you are blocking will quickly drop as your brain is forced to grasp the new reality surrounding these urges. Regular food items will start to taste sweeter as your brain is no longer hyper-stimulated by processed sugar, and so on. More on sugar and anecdote on giving up sugar.

I don't know if you realized this or not, but I am sure the sugar consumption contributed to the ulcers by altering the gut flora. In this case, the sugar acted like a prebiotic, fueling the growth of a certain colony(s) out of a healthy proportion. Over time, this resulted in a full blown infection. This is why you were then guided to yogurt, a probiotic, to try and fix this. Interesting that you were guided there and not to a pill-form of probiotic.

For the slouching, I posted a link in this thread to a posture-correction device. I've been looking at them lately. I have one for my lower back, just not my shoulders. I think the one I posted about should be able to correct both upper and lower back. Also, if you use a computer frequently, you should look into a laptop/monitor stand to elevate your setup and avoid slouching. The use of these devices should force your body to adapt and maintain a healthy posture even after you cease using them, in theory.

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I've read through this thread and it has been very informative. I am confused about how my view towards elemental balance should go. It sounds like we are supposed to strive for balance, yet keep our uniqueness, at the same time. For you, it sounds like keep your fire edge, but also try to control it as well.

This has troubled me because lately I've been getting annoyed at myself. My natal chart supports high air and water, but a small amount of fire and earth. The only earth planet is a mutable sign, as well. A lot of times, it feels like I cannot sit still, both physically and mentally, and it has really bothered me because I feel like I know lots of things, but struggle to implement them.

This drove me to inhale 5 breaths of shiny black earth energy and affirm it aiding my self-discipline. My body felt more calm and rigid in the hours after, and my mind felt slowed as well. Later that evening, I read this thread again and saw you guys talking about not losing your self and I did feel that a little bit. Not super strongly, but the extra earth felt unlike my normal nature. Conversely, I did feel like it gave me more staying power, which I also desire.

So the question becomes, how do I obtain a healthy balance for myself? Should I try using ether in the hopes that it will just "fill in the gaps" without altering my elemental composition? I love who I am, but I also get frustrated because I feel like if I was more earth/fire I would be able to accomplish much more in my life, especially with spiritual pursuits.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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I was wondering if you two had ever focused on the water element or the colour blue in a long while in full focus. I was thinking it would be a good idea to incorporate that onto and in the soul. It's easy to forget that water and blue are harmonizers, very positive Satanic energies for healing as blue is of Satan which can help enforce bonds in these hard times and cleanse enemy garbage from the soul.

The enemy hates and is repelled by blue if we can recall blue Satanic astral fire; burns them and it feels very negative to them so it's a good form of defense.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Haven't done that in a while actually. But I will, soon. Actually, I think I'll go for HP HoodedCobra's 40 days of power as well, as whenever I did it before I was always too numb and didn't feel... now it's much more possible and easier for me, so I gather it's a good time to try all these things again and see what results I observe.

Perhaps you expect this now, but I have been feeling a difference since accepting Leraje as my Guardian Demon. Last night, for instance, I stayed up late and at some point I decided to pay attention to my posture and differences between slouching and keeping a straight spine. I distinctly felt the blockage in my lower chakras, between the second and third, in that area at least, as I worked on disrupting them and undoing it. Later I have clearly felt this 'disturbance' move up to the heart chakra, like the obstacle had been pushed upward after applying that 'yellow lightning' I talked to you about. I have only used very little Air so far as I don't want to be tempted to overdo it, but somehow I am managing to understand how this energy behaves. The same day, while driving after an RTR, I felt activity in my third eye start on its own again and suddenly I 'perceived', instinctively, what I had to do to feel more energy and make it clean, the only way I can describe the sensation is by saying 'it was a tactile feeling', so touch related. Maybe it's just the energy being more free flowing and in doing so easier for me to feel.

The last thing I really noticed a lot were... 'love waves' in my abdomen and heart areas. This was powerful, I can only describe it as "knowing you're in love", no doubt repeated signals from my beautiful Guardian.

By the way, something else I have overlooked but that clearly states She's my Guardian Demon: over the last couple of months her plant grew up in large quantities in my garden, and it's the first time in years I see that plant. There was none before, now it's covering a rather large patch. The signs have been definitely strong. How I managed not to realize or simply accept it was Her... and, there, another 'love wave' just now as a reminder. Looks like She REALLY wants to work with me. I feel super honored.

Hail Satan! Hail Leraje!

 

[Apprentice]

Something so simple does such wonders, doesn't it? The heart chakra is the chakra of the emotion of love

It did wonders, indeed. Because of deep emotional scars left by my upbringing, I guess I had intentionally closed the heart chakra. I remember wanting to be loved but it didn't happen. Once I even saw in a dream as an adult that I was standing in front of my mom and cried, asking her to love me.
I had previously performed the opening of chakras routine several times but for some reason that didn't do the trick.

Of course over the years I started slouching again

Slouching feels like relaxing, chilling out... if you don't factor in the anatomical-physical-energetical aspect of it. I always used to lean back into the chair and, from that position, keep my eyes level while working on a computer. My problem is that I'm over 6 ft tall but all the furniture is made for your average person, meaning the desks are too low, height adjustment of computer screens is very limited etc.
Doing so for years didn't end well, I was diagnosed with scoliosis, rotational defects etc. Enter a personal trainer and weightlifting. After a CT scan and having consulted the neurologist, me and the trainer put together a training plan. I made sure the trainer wasn't some shady roid bruh. He is a university graduate (physical culture), a natural bodybuilder and has won several awards. I lifted weights almost religiously for 3 years and it worked miracles. My back muscles are way stronger now. I once picked up a dishwasher and gave it to my friend over an obstacle, with straight hands.

Perhaps something like this would help

Yup. The last posture is what I achieved after having lifted weights for some time. You just can't do a heavy sumo deadlift with a wrong posture. The same goes for basically every exercise involving some serious weights.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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I don't know what the blockage-rising sensation for you was, but I do know that energies flow upwards circulating out of our crown chakra, the circulation can take things with it as something perhaps detaches and flows with it, either to exit if it's a blockage or negative energy, etc out from the crown chakra.

Leaning forward to let your head hang down allows negative energies to be drained out from the crown chakra. I remember a long time ago while doing a cleansing I felt the need/urge to lean forward and do that and I could feel positive energy pushing out the negative energy in circulation to leave in a better flow out of me from my crown chakra, 'spilling out' from my soul onto the floor essentially. About a week or so later I then found out on the main website that Maxine actually suggested this as, if I remember correctly, she stated Satan shared with her this motion, so it actually is a real thing that helps and I ended up doing this in either I was urged by Satan or one of the gods or it just felt right realizing it's potential before finding it as an actual valid thing written on our site.

Perhaps you could try that to better just positively allow any negativity and such to drain out of you.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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I don't know what real reasoning for this is yet if it's just an in the moment mood thing lately or if I've just been tired and exhausted, though I feel great right now so maybe not, but if you haven't noticed my more recent posts to you being very short, I don't really feel that strong desire or urge to thoroughly explain anything more to you and such and to answer your questions and point things out.

I think I've maybe told you everything you needed to know for now... ? I don't know, maybe this'll change in a few days or another week or until next time you need to know something, but I feel like that feeling one would get like "My work here is done", that's the best way I can describe it and to move onto others as you've been my primary focus for literally a whole week, I've maybe answered one other question to one other Satanic here on the forum since. I don't see anything else I can say after bringing to light the Larajie thing.

It has been very enjoyable though and I'm glad I answered and clarified so much to you. But what I can say in a realistic sense is try not to get too 'paranoid' about everything as a sign or as something one of the gods might be doing or even the enemy. Logic and reasonability is needed to not screw yourself over with confusions and uncertainties and making yourself afraid or worried for nothing, I know this very personally (and nightmarishly dreadful) from experience.

You may have unintentionally binded your spiritual perception with Earth but this does not exactly mean you are grounded. Remember I said to use the Air for the binding, freeing yourself from the binding will automatically make you feel more "Air-Free". For actual grounded logic don't use Earth, just turn your attention and focus to the physical material plane outside of your head a bit more often instead of perceiving everything all the time from a projection out from within your head.

This also reduces headaches.

 

[Wayofthegods]

Being the insensitive that I am to energy, I expected the JoS' recommendation on using only a handful of breaths when absorbing elements (for the first times especially) not to give me much of an energy buzz, yet I started very slow in order to do things right, as suggested on the website.

When I felt nothing I waited for 12/24 hours (after each Element) and still nothing. This went on for years before I'd feel more inspired, one particular night, to try again and feel and absorb Earth element.

(Note: I think it's important to mention that I wasn't really planning to, but I suddenly 'knew' I was going to succeed with this, so I gave it a shot, expecting it not to work, as usual.)

For the first time in forever, I felt a strong energy, almost as if orbs of gravity pushed my body down on my bed, it was intense but almost pleasant. Certainly pleasant to know that I could manage to feel energy.
The morning after and for the next two weeks I had VERY sore neck and shoulders. Could barely move without sharp muscle pain, but I was also glad SOME energy finally had had an effect on me.

I tried that again later, ready to face severe muscle pain as the price to pay for making sure I'd feel it, but it never felt like that anymore. I did notice an increase in my already great fascination with stones and crystals, though.

Some other time, after I had invoked Earth, I'd perform heavy physical tasks without feeling any fatigue at all, feeling stronger and healthier. Maybe the definition would be "like a tree", if that makes any sense.

I studied all I could about the Elements and related abilities (as the topic always stimulated my curiosity above all other magic), but only now I am questioning myself before something that could probably be an easy answer for a more seasoned SS.

IF in order to attack someone with an Element we have to use the Element they have the least tolerance for (like for example 'Fire element on a Fire/Type A person)... does that mean that my strong muscle pain after Earth absorption was a consequence of my 'being an Earth type of person'?

And if that's true... Since I no longer feel any pain but strength after absorbing a lot of Earth element, does that mean that I have somehow restored that Earth/Air balance?

I know it's probably an easy one for you guys, but I think I very much needed to ask this here.

HAIL SATAN!!!!

PS. I've been using Earth lately (instead of Fire) to stimulate my chakras and opening them and I felt an unusual but notable third eye tingle. Almost like it had been 'switched on', like a button. Does that mean I'm doing things right in your opinion?

I didn't really when energy till I Started doing the AUM's into the chakras.

 

[Wayofthegods]

Being the insensitive that I am to energy, I expected the JoS' recommendation on using only a handful of breaths when absorbing elements (for the first times especially) not to give me much of an energy buzz, yet I started very slow in order to do things right, as suggested on the website.

When I felt nothing I waited for 12/24 hours (after each Element) and still nothing. This went on for years before I'd feel more inspired, one particular night, to try again and feel and absorb Earth element.

(Note: I think it's important to mention that I wasn't really planning to, but I suddenly 'knew' I was going to succeed with this, so I gave it a shot, expecting it not to work, as usual.)

For the first time in forever, I felt a strong energy, almost as if orbs of gravity pushed my body down on my bed, it was intense but almost pleasant. Certainly pleasant to know that I could manage to feel energy.
The morning after and for the next two weeks I had VERY sore neck and shoulders. Could barely move without sharp muscle pain, but I was also glad SOME energy finally had had an effect on me.

I tried that again later, ready to face severe muscle pain as the price to pay for making sure I'd feel it, but it never felt like that anymore. I did notice an increase in my already great fascination with stones and crystals, though.

Some other time, after I had invoked Earth, I'd perform heavy physical tasks without feeling any fatigue at all, feeling stronger and healthier. Maybe the definition would be "like a tree", if that makes any sense.

I studied all I could about the Elements and related abilities (as the topic always stimulated my curiosity above all other magic), but only now I am questioning myself before something that could probably be an easy answer for a more seasoned SS.

IF in order to attack someone with an Element we have to use the Element they have the least tolerance for (like for example 'Fire element on a Fire/Type A person)... does that mean that my strong muscle pain after Earth absorption was a consequence of my 'being an Earth type of person'?

And if that's true... Since I no longer feel any pain but strength after absorbing a lot of Earth element, does that mean that I have somehow restored that Earth/Air balance?

I know it's probably an easy one for you guys, but I think I very much needed to ask this here.

HAIL SATAN!!!!

PS. I've been using Earth lately (instead of Fire) to stimulate my chakras and opening them and I felt an unusual but notable third eye tingle. Almost like it had been 'switched on', like a button. Does that mean I'm doing things right in your opinion?

As an edit to my post.

I didn't really FEEL energy, Until I started using AUM's in the chakras.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Been meaning to write you earlier, sorry for the late.

I don't know much about the stance you described helping in 'pouring' the negative energies out of the crown chakra, but the pull on the back definitely feel nice, stretching and relaxing, easing the flow. I do have to get back to my yoga soon as with the current time I only use it so much, but I expect promising results now that I have learned and realized a few things in forever, but back can certainly use the physical benefits to let the energy flow increase and heal me.

As for old blockages being detached and rising, I'm sure something is happening because I noticed a clear 'improvement' in a certain area.. sex related, to put it in a few words. Remember the Earth element used as a way to develop astral touch sense that we were talking about? I have been experiencing something ..kinda similar, like a "sight-that-leads-to-knowing-the-touch-of-something/someone" synesthesia type of thing. I'm hoping this will prove to be one of the shortcuts leading to my Succubus, when I'll be readier.
The other thing, which I have to mention for the sake of my research and perhaps helping you or others with one more hint, ever since learning and accepting what I've been suspecting for a while, that I knew the identity of my Guardian Demon and wouldn't want to confirm it to myself once and for all, I have also been noticing an increase in orgasm quality. Don't really know how to describe it, but I guess I'm going to cover it by stating that they're less physical and more ..something else, astral, perhaps, spiritual then.
Needless to say, perhaps too, I have been seeing clear signs from Leraje, even old signs that have been super clear in confirming She's my Guardian.

So, all in all, I've never felt this confident in myself.

Hail Satan!!!!!!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Nearly missed these posts, sometimes too many replies pop up together and ...anyway.

Really felt I had to confirm this emotional reaction, Apprentice, as I get it too sometimes. Not always, but the inevitable cry (the kind that you just can't hold in) I can definitely relate to. And I did suspect it had strongly to do with the hearth chakra.

Not the heart chakra 'getting activated' per se, but more like "the heart chakra getting energy passing through it".. meaning, since this only happens more naturally SOMEtimes, it very probably depends in great part by the posture during meditation.

I remember the third day of my first '40 days of power' training, I was at the Void meditation part and was trying my best to relax and do it as diligently as I could when I had this moment in which my mind felt MUCH more free than any other time I had tried it before. And I did think the different posture was responsible for it, but I was leaning back in a chair that allows much more relax than sitting up with the back straight. I guess the mere fact that I didn't have to care about 'falling' back if I managed to lower my brain waves enough helped in making me get to a faster/more effective trance state, making 'leaning back on something' a good technique to use other times. Mind you, it didn't ALWAYS get me brilliant results.. if anything they're pretty rare.

The two main reasons, however, for which I don't like to use this method (leaning back on something soft) are that 1) if you're at the end of the day this can easily lead to sleep and losing the trance window, and 2) I believe that one should be perfectly able to put himself/herself in a trance even somewhere uncomfortable, having no pillows or beds, not limiting oneself to a physical luxury.

Another thing I want to add, that may be more related to this topic than I realize right now, is that I think the "Corpse stance" in Hatha Yoga is the most difficult one of all.. even if it looks like the easiest to most people. The Corpse stance, from what I gathered studying it, allows for a level of relaxation unlike any other time, not even our daily sleeping postures, it involves working on each and every part of the body until it has made to be at its most relaxed possible, reducing tension to the max and not developing stiffness.
The "apex" of this relaxation I have realized to be the, probably, last step of this stance.. "releasing the brain" so it falls against the inner back of the skull. When I read it the first time I felt like laughing, but I quickly realized how serious this was and "how much nothing(ness) one could achieve".

When I got a good Yoga routine going I did like 20 stances in a day, but never included this particular one. Will do it this time. I hope reminding you of this can help you Brothers with your back problems and stances, didn't feel like I would skip telling you as it's probably important.

Hail Satan!

PS. Sorry if I again fucked up the "quoting" thing.. I'll never get this forum thingy right.

 

[Apprentice]

They just laughed. Some people really make the fucking jews proud, don't they?

This is a fucking circus, Brother. I've talked to some people I know who work in the medical field. They all seem very serious about this corona thing. I talked to a vet MD yesterday, she was like "it is all bad and the hospitals are overloaded". I was like WTF U talkin' 'bout? What a phukken muppet show.

Or maybe you didn't, and you simply used the Elements but didn't realize it, which made you subtly readier and readier, as much as to work this well with Quintessence.

Yes, I'm a work in progress. Just don't glorify me. Years ago I just tried to manage my work duties and got lightly drunk almost every damn evening. This life on this planet just didn't seem to make any sense whatsoever. Sometimes I still have hard time understanding how endless millions of gentiles simply accept this reality that has been jewed for them by the international jewry. Feels like in the movie Matrix, walking in it after having escaped it IRL.
Maybe I did something before finding JoS. I remember imagining coldness of water or ice during hot weather and the heat of open flames in the winter.
Anywayz. Yes, the Quintessence is working, my perceptions are changing. I'm more relaxed and can accomplish more during the day (both work, warfare, meditations and even yoga). I feel more relaxed when out and about.
Today I started feeling funky again, irritated and pissed off with our daily life and the amount of work/duties. This usually means that I'm under attack. Now, before I would've taken some hard liquor (which didn't help the last time I checked) but today I just did the RC, warfare and my usual regime plus yoga. Feeling great ATM.

This 'relationship' you have with thunder/lightning feels a lot stronger than mine with it.. perhaps I'm just more inclined to use sheer Air, as in wind. It would make sense given I do 'fear' lightning in good healthy measure, realizing it's a major force and that people normally don't stand a chance when struck (although some get lightning struck and apparently don't report any injury or serious conditions afterwards.. never could confirm or deny this info however, so don't take it for granted).

I can't say exactly how strong my relationship is. As a teenage boy, I witnessed one of my parents (the abusive one) getting hit in the leg. This huge current flowed around in our bedroom, jumping from cable to cable. These were lamp cables that had been pulled from the mains sockets because of the lightning storm. The house we were in was like an old countryside cabin, low on the ground. This ineffable power exited the house through a power cable that ended in a cellar. This cable, installed superficially, was white like the Sun for several seconds. In the cellar there was no trace of that ceramic light bulb socket with a bulb, just two black wires.
Yes, I've seen the power of Lightning this close. OTOH, the person who got hit that time was absolutely devastated. Whenever there was lightning storm approaching after that incident, this person got absolutely terrified, tense and basically locked up.

Still feel like the only real element I can overdo without any problem at all is Air..

I'd leave things be for some weeks if I were you, let the new balance settle in, then start mending things with Quintessence.

On a short different note: have you ever tried thinking of your Soul as mere electricity?

Not yet. I will contemplate this. Ones consciousness (soul) has to exist and move on somehow after the Best Before ends, between reincarnations, right?
BTW, have you heard of ball lightning?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ball_lightning

Heil Satan, Brother.

 

[Apprentice]

I love who I am, but I also get frustrated because I feel like if I was more earth/fire I would be able to accomplish much more in my life, especially with spiritual pursuits.

I wouldn't worry about "losing ones self" so much. What do I mean by that? Your life changes you basically every day, you learn, experience etc. Then there are unfortunate events and dramas. If this process is left totally unmanaged like normies usually do, one can develop a very bitter and disappointed personality.
How you perceive yourself inside your body, in your life in general is in addition to your soul and astrological chart also determined by the sum of your experiences during this reincarnation. I can't see anything wrong if one wants to change that. Take for example someone who doesn't have much money/self confidence etc. in his/her life. You do your homework, discover the bottlenecks (potential problems in your chart, previous hangups, laziness, lack of education etc) and based on the material gathered you can draw up a plan to help the situation. Stick to the plan, do the workings, have patience, hustle in the real world and voilà, you just made yourself a bit more prosperous/self confident etc.
You see, you change yourself every day. Invoking Elements does the same. You change the balance of Elements in your soul. Just don't overdo them to avoid bindings/depression etc. Stick to the suggested limits and meditate on yourself afterwards. Give yourself some days or even weeks between sessions to let the new balance settle in. See what happens.

This is only my uneducated opinion. I'm not psychically open. Maybe someone else can chime in?

 

[Apprentice]

I was wondering if you two had ever focused on the water element or the colour blue in a long while in full focus.

Do you mean full focus with a void mind and for how long approx.?

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

she was like "it is all bad and the hospitals are overloaded". I was like WTF U talkin' 'bout? What a phukken muppet show.

I know, Brother, it gets so unnerving. Good thing to keep in mind though, I think this 'crisis' has awakened more potential critical thinkers than it has scared them into becoming frightened 'normies', willingly stupid and compliant.
Obviously, many of the medical field's employees feel they have the duty to stick with the official bollocks, and others simply are too scared of losing their precious vaccine promoting jobs to say anything against the hand that feeds them with jews' scraps.

You're right in thinking of a backwards Matrix movie here... normally, I used to (especially when this 'crisis' was young in the minds of people) try and get them to think about it, get them to reason and understand it's another scare tactic, even that it's perfectly matching the 'omen' from Rockefeller who said all they need to pull the JWO on us is 'the right major crisis'.
I used to go home from work half depressed after being laughed at by complete fools, knowing they're just not ever going to get it. The same stupid idiots that would probably meet our Gods with hostility when they will come back to Earth, and defend the oppressors that have been making everyone's lives as miserable as they could.

That was me a few months back, but a lot has changed in me since then. My Elemental experience has brought a lot of clarity, my 'relationship' with my ex has been exposed for what it was and I got rid of her entirely (something I wasn't sure I was even capable of), I have given up a porn addiction I have had for like 30 years (started young), and most of all.. I finally have accepted/found my Guardian Demon, something that now makes complete and perfect sense in hindsight, recognizing Her signs and attempts to reveal Herself to me.

These people, who choose to stay ignorant normies, are not worth our time, Bro. Satan gives everyone the ability to wake up and think and learn and evolve. They simply choose to embrace weakness and stupidity. Hence, we cannot and shouldn't help them anymore. Which also means, don't feel distressed or depressed for every time you will encounter one that will repeat the lie he/she's been force fed. Just move on and focus on yourself. You CAN leave them with a hint of wisdom, like the popular "it's only (conspiracy) theory if you can't prove anything, but we have tons of evidence already" or something like that, which MAY (or may not) jolt their brain into self doubting and possibly leading to some slight critical thinking, but don't overdo that either. Chances are, if they haven't ALREADY seen the difference between lies and Truth with everything that's already happened in this world, they probably will not do so in the future, and it's not for anyone else to save them but themselves.
We all have the weapons, some just can't find the strength to hold them tightly in their grasp and use them, so it's pointless to give this people heavier weaponry. It's literally wasting your time.

It's great to hear that your Quintessence training is giving off results. I'll get there too after I'm done clearing the path in my spine enough to allow greater energy to travel through it. And it's good to hear you're managing to do some yoga as well, I will get back to a full routine soon too.. just felt like postponing it for a little while to solve some other problems first. Now it's finally the time when it makes the most sense to go back to it. I guess some 'feelings' must be heeded as advice. That 'moving' of energy that caused you to have emotional release is definitely a hint suggesting energy flows through your heart chakra (from male to female aspects, that is) in a freer way. If I were you I'd keep track of the exact changes you've been applying to your routine and meditations (anything substantial) to pinpoint exactly what helped you.. if it was re-introducing more yoga in your life, then I'm going to say it straight forward: don't give it up for anything.
Sometimes we tend to think of the physical not being so much use in spiritual affairs, but we always have to remember both aspects, physical and spiritual, work in unison towards godhood. (Yes, I'm telling that to myself too, lol)

And Brother... if you ask me I'd say someone VERY involved with electricity and lightning specifically has been protecting you for a while. These experiences you had with lightning don't sound to me like 'coincidental' at all... it feels more like a Demon who has a talent for storms to have been watching over you, and possibly giving you all kinds of hints for you to notice them and find out their name (if you don't know who your Guardian is). Anyone who has been feeling closer lately?

Besides, an observation. In my opinion, it wouldn't be speculation to say that in this specific period the Gods are also using each other as a way to determine who everyone's Guardian Demon is (like Ghost in the Machine has helped me big time in realizing Leraje had been trying to reveal Herself to me... ps. YES I AM THRILLED ) ....this would make sense if you think that, by knowing one's Guardian, Satan's warriors can advance at a faster rate and be more useful in the war and to themselves, accomplishing more and faster than ever before.. wouldn't it?
With this, I'm not saying I know who your Guardian is, obviously, but I'm pointing out that this CLEAR relationship with lightning is something you should probably consider a trademark of your Guardian... which, however, does bring a little confusion since I'm only thinking of Zeus's lightning, which would still mean Father Satan... I don't know if Satan can be anyone's Guardian Demon so I'm going to disregard that and urge you to try and sense anyone else Goetic or not.

And yes, I have heard of Ball Lightning as one of nature's most interesting phenomena.. knowing, now, how close you are to lightning it wouldn't surprise me if you witnessed one or if it had revealed something about yourself.

Just a last something before I go..
I read about how you fixed your back problems with gym and became very strong, and I couldn't help but think that having that mass and strength must certainly be related to having also an increased bioelectric flow in your body. Most people who develop a passion for weight lifting and such that I have known/met never really felt like they possessed "true strength".. they had some strength but mostly mass.. looking big and strong isn't necessarily being strong. I feel you may very well have made that extra step, where your inner energy, your Soul, has more to give through your body and physical efforts than it does in other gym people.
Knowing this, I can't recommend enough that you also use yoga to make your body as flexible as you can. Obviously, pay attention to anything that occurs within yourself by releasing those blocks in the chakras (which you already started experiencing) as I'm PRETTY SURE your aura is particularly powerful, Brother, and with more power being allowed to flow more things will be detached and surface (I have a feeling you can by now easily tell between grey attack and something that was dislodged inside you).

Take care, Brother.

Hail Satan!

 

[Henu the Great]

They just laughed. Some people really make the fucking jews proud, don't they?

This is a fucking circus, Brother. I've talked to some people I know who work in the medical field. They all seem very serious about this corona thing. I talked to a vet MD yesterday, she was like "it is all bad and the hospitals are overloaded". I was like WTF U talkin' 'bout? What a phukken muppet show.

I work in a hospital and I can confirm that non essential surgeries in my town have if not ceased then minimized extensively and only trauma surgery and urgent intestine surgeries are done. Only a handful of covid cases this summer that I have heard. What a huge hoax.

I feel bad about all of the people waiting for six months or longer for their operation and now during this covid hoax people have to wait even longer causing unnecsessary suffering. I can only imagine the reaction of the masses when the jew behind the curtain is exposed. Meanwhile, rtr rtr rtr...

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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I know, Brother, can't wait to see that day.

Something else that's seriously angering me is that, in their attempt to push even more the borg mind, they're using the ignorant and corrupted in order to promote things like animal sacrifices. YouTube is what I'm referring to, mostly of course.

It was perhaps always bad, but lately it seems even worse.. people 'challenging' others to injure and kill more animals, even their own, as a mean to get 'views'.

This is so seriously fucked up...

So fucked up that I am starting to understand why Lilith has let me know She's close to me. She is a protector of animals, not just women in childbirth and children. Animals are extremely sacred to Her, and because I know She knows I feel the same about them I admire Her even more now.

I can't fathom how it's possible for some monsters to feel NOTHING towards animals and cause so much pain without the slightest guilt.
But these 'people', who I KNOW are not of Satan, I really want to destroy.
I wish I could force their heart and throat chakras to constantly tune to the pain they caused and know they can't escape it anymore.

Today I have been wondering about the power of my RTRs and felt the need to focus even more on each letter, strongly feeling the letter being destroyed, turned to nothingness, powerless.

I should probably make a standalone post about it, but I sincerely hope everyone is putting as much effort as they can in their daily RTRs, not as much in amount of RTRs as in degree of unwavering intention and power, not assuming the repetition of a letter for 9 times will be equally as powerful as 9 times reps while fully concentrated, willing for the damn letters to be dissipated into nothing, feeling them being completely and permanently depowered.

Hail Satan!

 

[Apprentice]

I can confirm that non essential surgeries in my town have if not ceased then minimized extensively

I was trying to refer to this fact when talking to some people about this coronacircus (in addition to all deaths put on covid) but you can almost feel an iron curtain slam shut in their minds. They are frightened by the news put out by the judenpresse. It is just not possible to awake those who don't want to be awaken.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

I was wondering if you two had ever focused on the water element or the colour blue in a long while in full focus.

Do you mean full focus with a void mind and for how long approx.?

Just general meditation, casual.

 

[Apprentice]

I know, Brother, it gets so unnerving.

Actually no, not anymore. I went through a period of anxiety when this whole circus started. I even got a mild cold working my ass off in conditions with large temperature differences in addition to this anxiety. At one moment you are all hot and sweaty, open the zipper on your coat and the next moment you get a cold wind against your chest.
However, I do remember clearly that when the emergency was declared, I was told in my mind that you don't need to worry.

I used to go home from work half depressed after being laughed at by complete fools, knowing they're just not ever going to get it.

I guess we both should stop misplacing our compassion and caringness. I still care about some people who seem partly awake but even they have their own limitations/blockages. Although lonely, life is much easier when you are in full stealth mode.

I finally have accepted/found my Guardian Demon, something that now makes complete and perfect sense in hindsight, recognizing Her signs and attempts to reveal Herself to me.

I'm happy for your success. I'm yet to find mine. Today, after reading your last reply to me, I felt that the situation is about to change in that regard.

And Brother... if you ask me I'd say someone VERY involved with electricity and lightning specifically has been protecting you for a while. These experiences you had with lightning don't sound to me like 'coincidental' at all... it feels more like a Demon who has a talent for storms to have been watching over you, and possibly giving you all kinds of hints for you to notice them and find out their name (if you don't know who your Guardian is).

What I didn't tell you is that when that powerful lightning struck near that cabin of ours, there was a small night lamp on the floor. The foot of that lamp was made out of approx. 6 mm chromed steel rod, bent like a perfect circle. The small bulb of that lamp together with the socket flew into a bed I was laying in during the storm. The foot of that lamp cut out a perfectly round piece of plywood that was covering the floor. It looked like a laser cut. The charge hit my parent in the leg, jumped around the cables that were on the floor, finally finding a way out into the cellar cable. That light bulb in my bed... Was it a message, already back then when I was just a kid?
The peculiar thing is, I don't feel threatened in the presence of a lightning storm. Am I a bit afraid in the common sense? Yes - after all we are talking about a power so ineffable it can bake you way past 'well done' in a matter of split second.
I haven't checked yet to feel who ‎is closer and who's not. I have skimmed the lists of Daemons many times. At first glance I don't see anyone involved with electricity. According to the lists in JoS, Zeus and Satan are different beings. You see, I'm also cautious not to become delusional so I really can't say yet. OTOH, maybe I'm just being blind to obvious signs.

I feel you may very well have made that extra step, where your inner energy, your Soul, has more to give through your body and physical efforts

And yet I'm still wondering what that would be what I have to give to this world. Maybe I'm still in the 'making of' phase.

To wrap this up I'll give you a bit of listening. I found this track many years back and still love it. It plays on the loop when I'm working on a computer and need to concentrate.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46hSmJhXPyI

 

[ChaosBringer666]

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Um hi brother I just got a message from Lerajie. Whilst thinking of her, hopefully I’m not wrong...
She said that your doing good with your advancements, and you need not try harder. Don’t worry or get anxious your going in the right direction. Also If your in some kind of trouble she said you need to “buy time.”

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Um hi brother I just got a message from Lerajie. Whilst thinking of her, hopefully I’m not wrong...
She said that your doing good with your advancements, and you need not try harder. Don’t worry or get anxious your going in the right direction. Also If your in some kind of trouble she said you need to “buy time.”

Well.. this would be the third time in a month that I read about our Gods using Satanic Brothers and Sisters to delivery messages of some kind to others. Thanks for reporting what you experienced... I'm just... confused, because the message seems so direct, and also a little shocked, because something in that message strongly suggests I keep using a specific type of void meditation that was initially almost scary or made little sense, but that (even if I didn't want to admit it) really helped me get stronger mentally in the end and pull out of grey grasp and getting away from psychotic people.
Also, this brings me straight to what I commented yesterday on HP HC post on functions of the mind... especially because he used the EXACT expression that describes my void meditation type...

...and "coincidentally" (there's no coincidence) this scary type of meditation has a lot to do with the sea and fish, and who better than the one who sometimes called me Nemo to deliver the next message now?

I do need to try harder though.. or rather, train harder, because I know what I must do, I just need to dedicate more time to meditating.
Funny this message gets to me the day after I finally manage to read HoodedCobra's post and almost feel like it was directed at me as well... the Gods must be hard at work to make sure we receive the best guidance.

Can't stop thinking of how many 'coincidences' would suggest my Guardian Demon is satisfied with my efforts, this message makes more sense than I could initially think it did. Thanks, Brother, much appreciated.

Hail Leraje!

Hail Satan!

 

[ChaosBringer666]

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Um hi brother I just got a message from Lerajie. Whilst thinking of her, hopefully I’m not wrong...
She said that your doing good with your advancements, and you need not try harder. Don’t worry or get anxious your going in the right direction. Also If your in some kind of trouble she said you need to “buy time.”

Well.. this would be the third time in a month that I read about our Gods using Satanic Brothers and Sisters to delivery messages of some kind to others. Thanks for reporting what you experienced... I'm just... confused, because the message seems so direct, and also a little shocked, because something in that message strongly suggests I keep using a specific type of void meditation that was initially almost scary or made little sense, but that (even if I didn't want to admit it) really helped me get stronger mentally in the end and pull out of grey grasp and getting away from psychotic people.
Also, this brings me straight to what I commented yesterday on HP HC post on functions of the mind... especially because he used the EXACT expression that describes my void meditation type...

...and "coincidentally" (there's no coincidence) this scary type of meditation has a lot to do with the sea and fish, and who better than the one who sometimes called me Nemo to deliver the next message now?

I do need to try harder though.. or rather, train harder, because I know what I must do, I just need to dedicate more time to meditating.
Funny this message gets to me the day after I finally manage to read HoodedCobra's post and almost feel like it was directed at me as well... the Gods must be hard at work to make sure we receive the best guidance.

Can't stop thinking of how many 'coincidences' would suggest my Guardian Demon is satisfied with my efforts, this message makes more sense than I could initially think it did. Thanks, Brother, much appreciated.

Hail Leraje!

Hail Satan!

whew, that's a relief I was really worried I got it wrong. it was really strange to me as well because it was literally for a second and she said "can you help me with something?" two things I for sure know is she wanted me to tell you something and that you didn't need to try harder, but need is specific. Nobody needs to try harder we just do it for the best results. remember to pace yourself though and put efforts into void meditation first. like I said I was quite worried that I was wrong. but after I sent it I did feel a pleasant feeling so I did something right, the fish thing is kinda funny too. Just as well i asked "why me?" said "well it'd be good for you too because then you know if your communications are satisfactory or not." I am kind of curious are you going through some kind of personal trouble?? you don't have to go into details of course but I want to know if I got it all correct or just most of it since the enemy was trying to interfere. perhaps it was "bide time" or the trouble was simply void meditation.