Question #4070: Do I offend the Gods if I meditate on their sigil or talk to them?

[AskSatanOperator]

I've been dedicated for a while now, but I tried not to request help or contact the Gods, only in emergency situations. I don't really want to bother them with my problems, and I fear that even if I request help in specific situations and problems I'd fail in the end, and wouldn't be able to "pay back" to them, thus disappointing them greatly. I feel like I already disappointed the Gods enough times, I failed countless times before in my meditations.
In the past I used to talk with Father Satan and my GD almost daily. I was the stereotypical case of "all barks but no bite", always rambled about things I wanted to accomplish, yet reaching none of the goals I set to myself. I was ashamed of it, and for this reason I didn't really contacted the Gods since I came back, out of guilt and being ashamed. I also carry a lot of emotional wounds, past traumas and dross in myself, I'm working on it but I feel like it'd be disrespectful to approach the Gods. I imagine it like if I wanted to shake hands with someone while being covered in mud from head to toe. I have the urge to talk to Father Satan or to my GD, but I feel hesitant about it.
I also thought about meditating on the Sigils of other Gods and Goddesses, I don't really have a specific reason for it only I'd just like to try it out, maybe get to know them a little bit more. I assume that the Gods do know and notice when someone is meditating on their Sigil or doing their Ritual if they have one, and it made me rethink my choice. I just feel like I'd bother them at best, but more than likely make them angry. I don't have anyone in my life I could talk to, so I thought about talking with the Gods just for the sake of it, without any serious reason whatsoever. But again, it's kind of a dumb idea, given how busy they all are, and I doubt they'd be interested in such insignificant things. I don't know how could I define what I feel exactly, it's mostly a mixture of guilt and fear, possibly. I'm just lost on what should I do at this point.

 

[Víbora]

Greetings, brother.
The answer is no. You won't offend any of the gods just by meditating on their sigil and communicating with them. I understand that, in your opinion, there may be a thousand reasons why this is a problem, but it's not. You know your difficulties, self-knowledge is the first step towards healing, so keep working. They won't get angry or turn their backs on you like that. Don't let this guilt and shame keep you away from the Gods, know that they understand you and consider the following phrase: "If all you have is yourself, it's okay with Satan". And that goes for everything.
Correct yourself as best you can, seek a sincere rapprochement, without fear, and walk together with them in these periods of your life.

Take care of yourself!

 

[kaelgr]

If you feel that you are covered in mud and do not want to communicate with the gods in this way, you can get rid of your mud and pass with peace of mind. You are aware of your feelings, that is beautiful.
It is very important to repay the gods for what they have done. You are aware of this and I think you can do this if you want.

The best sign of respect when communicating with a god is to have a pure and strong soul. When this happens, many things are automatically resolved and made sense of.

It is okay to meditate on the sigils of the gods. But if you really want to feel them, invoke them. Trying not to contact them isn't such a bad thing unless there's a big problem or question. I think this is what it should be. Of course, it may vary depending on god and the soul.

Give as much as you get, take as much as you give. When it comes to gods, you will always receive more than you give.

 

[AFODO]

You'll be happy if the Gods would noticeably put their attention on you aren't you?
So why you or we wouldn't do the same for them? Just give them attention: meditate on their sigils, handcraft something for them, etc.. If you spend time on them, they will also eventually.
And if you do this, it's only a matter of advancement: mind control, astral senses, cleanness, etc. that they'll show themself to you or put their attention more on you in any way.