problems of being clearly beyond average as an individual

[nebu]

it’s a sincere, unscripted outburst.

imagine that you have searched for prestige, shine, your achievements, to advance your life.

you materialized everything.

very good, a completely different universe opens up to you, contacts, places, experiences, a sense of accomplishment, your “self-sufficiency” is alive and continuous.

despite everything, even with the low expectations of what your life would be like on another level, things become monotonous, they don't cause as much emotion or impact as before, the success that you are, doesn't fulfill you all the time, and even comes to bother you, reflecting.

if anything can maintain a flame of lies, it is your ego, which in some time, will bring to light the ruin that your life has become.

so that you still contemplate what is known to you, the feeling of ACHIEVING, HAVING, ENJOYING.

and all freedom is accompanied by deprivation, on the other hand, it is what it is.

thinking about it, was it really worth it?
paying attention all the time to who should have the honor of your company and contact with you, which places are appropriate for you, what impression you will make, how many looks will you attract simply by standing in one place?

what if this was just an unrealistic impression?

i went to talk to ordinary people in every way, even the outstanding ones, but what do you mean?

did the standards see me with total superiority and not even risk saying silly things, stopped by admiration?

as for those highlighted, i was envied and in conversations some ignored me, out of zero logic?

and with few that are worth taking forward, after so many tests.

glory, reputation, gains, must be infinite to the maximum.

i think that the balance that Apollo always talked about may not be useful for these matters, who wants just enough, or a little more?

oh, what will my week be like today?
my routine?
who walks by my side?
wow.
is this what it’s all about?
…

(everything can be changed here, for the better.)

 

[Draconi666]

it’s a sincere, unscripted outburst.

imagine that you have searched for prestige, shine, your achievements, to advance your life.

you materialized everything.

very good, a completely different universe opens up to you, contacts, places, experiences, a sense of accomplishment, your “self-sufficiency” is alive and continuous.

despite everything, even with the low expectations of what your life would be like on another level, things become monotonous, they don't cause as much emotion or impact as before, the success that you are, doesn't fulfill you all the time, and even comes to bother you, reflecting.

if anything can maintain a flame of lies, it is your ego, which in some time, will bring to light the ruin that your life has become.

so that you still contemplate what is known to you, the feeling of ACHIEVING, HAVING, ENJOYING.

and all freedom is accompanied by deprivation, on the other hand, it is what it is.

thinking about it, was it really worth it?
paying attention all the time to who should have the honor of your company and contact with you, which places are appropriate for you, what impression you will make, how many looks will you attract simply by standing in one place?

what if this was just an unrealistic impression?

i went to talk to ordinary people in every way, even the outstanding ones, but what do you mean?

did the standards see me with total superiority and not even risk saying silly things, stopped by admiration?

as for those highlighted, i was envied and in conversations some ignored me, out of zero logic?

and with few that are worth taking forward, after so many tests.

glory, reputation, gains, must be infinite to the maximum.

i think that the balance that Apollo always talked about may not be useful for these matters, who wants just enough, or a little more?

oh, what will my week be like today?
my routine?
who walks by my side?
wow.
is this what it’s all about?
…

(everything can be changed here, for the better.)

Balance between spiritual and material, should always be, and this is the key for mastering everything to the maximum.

I think these thoughts lingering of yours, are there as an indicator of how you feel now, and this is definetly not the end.

Or if you feeling being entangled in this then diligent work to overcome it.

All this in my experience when similar thoughts comes to me, I always considering it as thoughts which is keeping me down, and I always get success by not going “all in” in to this.

Because even trough all this I always feel wanting to break free from it in any way possible.

what I do I just go trough, like trough everything, like with anything.

Mind always finds ways to create something, what is corresponds to your experience, but this should not be given too much attention.

Yes, It is of course based on reality, but goal is to become even more real than that.

after all these thoughts looks sympathic, and I think this is the reason why you are keeping with it and it is very beautiful when SS is successful,

But should this stop you?

No…

I bet Father Satan has something for you to show what is far far more beyond what you are experiencing now…

So aim at it and go to take it.

There is much higher things and thoughts which is on the way come into crossways with you.

Things where is no words for it, and what is completely beyond what one may think “this is it.”

Our deeds, our aim, our loyalty and advancement and using all what we have achieved as a tool for hitting the enemy even harder.

When I read your posts, without looking at negativity in the past, I always see something very artistic and talented behind your words.

Don’t get to become supressed by these thoughts, this is not the limit.

By the way. Enemy always wants us to put more attention on certain things so we should not see more.

And also:
This Topic by our dearest HPHC:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=91419

About comparison to others, I think it is somehow related to this thinking of yours.

 

[nebu]

Balance between spiritual and material, should always be, and this is the key for mastering everything to the maximum.

I think these thoughts lingering of yours, are there as an indicator of how you feel now, and this is definetly not the end.

yes sir.

But should this stop you?

No…

I bet Father Satan has something for you to show what is far far more beyond what you are experiencing now…

So aim at it and go to take it.

There is much higher things and thoughts which is on the way come into crossways with you.

Things where is no words for it, and what is completely beyond what one may think “this is it.”

Our deeds, our aim, our loyalty and advancement and using all what we have achieved as a tool for hitting the enemy even harder.

i am absolutely sure that you were a means for me to receive a divine message.
it’s not you speaking directly.

When I read your posts, without looking at negativity in the past, I always see something very artistic and talented behind your words.

Don’t get to become supressed by these thoughts, this is not the limit.

By the way. Enemy always wants us to put more attention on certain things so we should not see more.

And also:
This Topic by our dearest HPHC:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=91419

About comparison to others, I think it is somehow related to this thinking of yours.

about “very artistic” and talented, i’m grateful for the words, i dealt with the excess of art and only got the good things from the influence, and talented, i don’t know which side you were referring to, thanks.

i wrote this channeling all the frustration after having been out for a few hours at night, and experiencing the scene of being sunny at night with lots of looks, but dealing with loneliness for all the reasons i mentioned, it's ironic, but painful.

i’m already dealing with the roots, in just 3 days and the manifestation had an impact very quickly.
nothing to worry about.

just as it already happened, i will see this situation months later and understand the demonic message, and i see here the pattern of greatness changing in me.

thank you very much for all your words, my dear brother who also has Thor as his guardian, Draconi666.

 

[Draconi666]

Few days ago, I looked back to my past and thought how far I would have gone if I was not alone, while considering what kind of “people” are living in this world.

And I started see how loneliness for me was actually, like a gift.

This loneliness which gives me such immense freedom, to do what is needed and grow in doing so on this way of living of advancement.

We are all individuals, but some of us can’t see life without crazy thirst for development, knowledge, connection with Gods or just moving on.

Somehow, for me this don’t look as sacrifice anymore, I don’t know maybe I am crazy, but it is a real blessing for me,

I can’t find time for anything not Satanic in anyway, I see it as complete time wasting… xD

Until a point I where I saw some video online where children was petting cat or something, and in my mind came tought - “what a time waste...”

Of course it was sarcasm… and now this make me laugh.

But while I look back how much time I wasted until I found Father Satan, even when I was young

Now I literally feeling that I can’t give even 1 minute of my attention to any nonesense..

So there is constant war.

But ofccourse, after sometime when certain developments in me will be finished, everything will change and to find someone will be inevitable.

I strongly believe serious development should be done so one would be able to not bring down his/her partner at some point…

No.., one doesn’t have to be their guru, but at least clean enough, deprogrammed as much as possible, and really seriously meditative all the time, for what is needed plenty of time if not at least decade of advancement in total…

At least I see this like that, because how others constantly trying to bring me down,

If my future partner gonna strive for betterment of her life, I definetly don’t want to have any type of programming in me, which in any way would try to bring her down at any point.