Newest potential priestesses dilemma

[Violence666Westerling]

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Evening, my name is Violence Westerling. I just discovered this forum and felt rather relieved to say the least but, I do have many questions. That I am hoping someone understanding and patient and intelligent, can help me answer.
I have always been a person of honesty and unapologetic hedonism. ( for lack of a better term)
I grew up in a non religious household and never went to church. At a very young age I had big issues with what people had shared with me from their bible. I was born out of wedlock and bastardly. I am female yet, have never been dainty or a crybaby. In my youth I struggled with being able to sympathize with others pain and suffering ( except for animals) so much so that my aunt questioned if I was a prime candidate for a serial killer. Despite this, I grew to understand empathy and did not in fact grow up to be a serial killer. Though this utter distain for the certain types of people has steadily increased. It is very hard to find people in real life that I can share my true feelings of disgust towards people with.
I pose no question here now, as I am simply seeing if someone is interested in having a ton of blunt questions thrown at you?

 

[HPS Lydia]

Hello

Have you read the Joy of Satan? That's what these forums are based on, and this will clear up any doubts or misconceptions about who we are.

https://joyofsatan.org/

 

[AFODO]

A lack of sympathy towards people is not a good trait in any way.
This new sermon from HPHC describes what we truly are:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=92479

 

[Invictvs]

Evening, my name is Violence Westerling.

:? Okay.

I just discovered this forum and felt rather relieved to say the least but, I do have many questions.

Something tells me that you could have the wrong idea. It could be I'm just assuming things based on what you wrote which sounds weird. Tell me, how did you stumble upon this forum? Did you click it from the JoS site like you are supposed to, or from somewhere else?

Are you aware that we don't conform to the enemy stereotypes about Satan and Satanism like the BS "evil" and related Holywood crap and even though we don't conform to Christian suicidal morality we're pretty nice and ethical people and don't like hurting others for no reason, right?

As Lydia said, read the main site if you haven't already and if you still have any other questions ask them here.

 

[Violence666Westerling]

Yes I have. You see, I do not question Satan. I question myself. I have a huge distain for Jews, always have. And lately because of this whole uptick in Palestine, my utter distain for Jews has come to a boiling point. I guess I just need others to talk to who feel the same about them.
As far as my youth goes, I understand that not being able to sympathize with others is a red flag but, as I stated I grew to understand sympathy and even sympathize with others. I deeply care about the general well being of most people, especially their mental well being. I see that their is something very anti-human pushing and pulling us humans into disaster and debauchery. I want the world to grow and prosper in all the right ways but, society makes me feel hopeless about it ever changing for the better.
My suicidal thoughts have kicked it up a notch and I don't know... I guess I am just really sick and tired of all the lies and suffering. I feel isolated, alien, and not in the right place.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

Yes I have. You see, I do not question Satan. I question myself. I have a huge distain for Jews, always have. And lately because of this whole uptick in Palestine, my utter distain for Jews has come to a boiling point. I guess I just need others to talk to who feel the same about them.
As far as my youth goes, I understand that not being able to sympathize with others is a red flag but, as I stated I grew to understand sympathy and even sympathize with others. I deeply care about the general well being of most people, especially their mental well being. I see that their is something very anti-human pushing and pulling us humans into disaster and debauchery. I want the world to grow and prosper in all the right ways but, society makes me feel hopeless about it ever changing for the better.
My suicidal thoughts have kicked it up a notch and I don't know... I guess I am just really sick and tired of all the lies and suffering. I feel isolated, alien, and not in the right place.

Do not worry about being fully sympathetic or anything, try to follow your nature. Our nature unveils and changes as we develop, read, learn and expand. Just stay around and keep studying you will receive a lot from this place. Don't feel overly judged, and it's for sure you will find understanding here if you are a different person.

Welcome.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

I want the world to grow and prosper in all the right ways but, society makes me feel hopeless about it ever changing for the better.
My suicidal thoughts have kicked it up a notch and I don't know... I guess I am just really sick and tired of all the lies and suffering. I feel isolated, alien, and not in the right place.

I totally understand this and we do struggle with this. Especially, with having “hope” with this world and stuff.

But to deal with this you should realize we bring our own change into the world. You personally and being a part of Joy of Satan as well is all about shaping a world in father Satan’s image which is truth, freedom, harmony, beauty, and personal power.

On this path, improving yourself brings improvement to the current state of affairs, slowly but surely. You are a part of the change if you’re committed here.

Also, regarding having “disdain” with yourself, father Satan states in the Aljilwah:

I allow everyone to follow the dictates of his own nature.

So accept and love yourself you’re awesome and unique. There is no specific universal standard of having to “love” everyone and be kind to everything to adhere to here. We stand upon justice and truth. Not just lovey dovey stuff.

You’re welcome here explore the Joy of Satan websites and the sermons on Satan’s library. The first times I found JoS website was one of my most enjoyable moments in life. So much so, I binged all the websites, links, sermons haha. It felt amazing, liberating, and like finding a secret treasure that no one else found. It’s a very dear treasure. You’re lucky.

Welcome.

 

[Violence666Westerling]

Thank you for the welcome and advice.

 

[Violence666Westerling]

Thank you for the welcome and advice.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Just focus on doing what you are able to help yourself and to give yourself a better life. In spiritual workings for healing and advancing yourself. Then when you feel that you are ready to, you can participate in work to help make the world a better place for everybody so that we will all have better lives in future generations.

 

[Silverfire]

Welcome to the forums. The jew has me at boiling point as well, I understand. I seem to have the need for extra void meditation and cleaning aura recently.
It sickens me to see my NPC family bend the knee to zion.

 

[Gearshift]

A lack of sympathy isn't a problem. Perhaps at one point someone took your sympathy or used your sympathy against you.

If not then it's just a trait. Perhaps learning and doing meditation and studying sympathy can make you more sympathic.

Sometimes fake it till you make it.

The reality is you remind me of myself a person with deep violent and military mentality. If you look at me physically you'll laugh but mentally and spiritually I'm a totally different person.

My best suggestion is get into a basic meditation practice and help yourself out. Study sympathy if not wanting to it's okay. You don't have to sympathize with anyone. Perhaps your sympathy is elevated to a higher level perhaps if you advance and receive advice from the Gods your sympathy can go to those that matter.

No where does it say you have to be sympathetic to everyone some don't deserve it and some abuse you. Even your own family and being unsympathetic is fine.

You are whom you are and is free to choose what and how. Look at Lerajie the Goddess she is sarcastic as hell. But everyone who has interacted with her loves her and her rhetoric.

JoS is all about freedom perhaps not outright disgraceful freedumb a total lack of justice. Perhaps your ice-cold unsympatheticness is a sign your a very justly person and wish to have power. Remember many people lack power even a modest amount of power is needed.

I can envision Satan agreeing that people need power. Powerlessness is a sign of corruption and denaturing of man.

So you are whom you are you can always work on it and do magick to teach you sympathy....to those that DESERVE it!

Practice makes perfect...take your time!

 

[Violence666Westerling]

SILVERFIRE,

Thank you for your reply. It sat very well with me, and rang rather true to my soul. My family had always pushed me down and attempted to make me feel like I was bad or wrong. Especially my egg donor, she has probably done the most damage. Most of which I have already healed but, there is something that has been weighing heavy on me. I don't know if what she did has any merit but, she spoke of blood letting herself over me and letting it drip down on to me when I was an infant. She said something to the effect of it being done with some ridiculous intention of hers to be lusted after by every man who saw her. Could this carnal blood letting of hers effect me in anyway negatively?

 

[Violence666Westerling]

Gear88,

Thank you for your reply. It sat very well with me, and rang rather true to my soul. My family had always pushed me down and attempted to make me feel like I was bad or wrong. Especially my egg donor, she has probably done the most damage. Most of which I have already healed but, there is something that has been weighing heavy on me. I don't know if what she did has any merit but, she spoke of blood letting herself over me and letting it drip down on to me when I was an infant. She said something to the effect of it being done with some ridiculous intention of hers to be lusted after by every man who saw her. Could this carnal blood letting of hers effect me in anyway negatively? [/b]

 

[Henu the Great]

Gear88,

Thank you for your reply. It sat very well with me, and rang rather true to my soul. My family had always pushed me down and attempted to make me feel like I was bad or wrong. Especially my egg donor, she has probably done the most damage. Most of which I have already healed but, there is something that has been weighing heavy on me. I don't know if what she did has any merit but, she spoke of blood letting herself over me and letting it drip down on to me when I was an infant. She said something to the effect of it being done with some ridiculous intention of hers to be lusted after by every man who saw her. Could this carnal blood letting of hers effect me in anyway negatively? [/b]

Not something you should be overly concerned about considering the tools that are at our disposal. Prime example in this case being Returning Curses 1&2 meditations that are easily accessible for newbies in the JoS meditation section.

If I would worry about something, that something would be about the possibility and execution of self development, be it mental, physical, or spiritual.

 

[Violence666Westerling]

What about self pleasure? I have always been à highly sexually charged person, and tend to day dreàm lustful thoughts throughout the day every day. Is this something I should worry about or watch out for? I have not tried anything out of the ordinary really but, I have some rather kinky day dreams lately.

 

[Aquarius]

What about self pleasure? I have always been à highly sexually charged person, and tend to day dreàm lustful thoughts throughout the day every day. Is this something I should worry about or watch out for? I have not tried anything out of the ordinary really but, I have some rather kinky day dreams lately.

Please read the JoyofSatan website, there you will find answers to most of your questions.

To answer your question directly, this is not xianity, you are free to pursue sexuality the way you want to.

 

[kraken25]

What about self pleasure? I have always been à highly sexually charged person, and tend to day dreàm lustful thoughts throughout the day every day. Is this something I should worry about or watch out for? I have not tried anything out of the ordinary really but, I have some rather kinky day dreams lately.

What you feel is very good, every pleasurable act that the church calls sin brings us closer to the gods