Crystallized Mushroom
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I wanna start off by saying that i'm basically a loser with nothing going on in my life and still living with my parents and unable to find any career or skill that has any interest to me no matter how many times I've looked into it. and how I've never had a relationship or sex and just lie to my parents that i'm happy with my life because every time I point out the stuff that bothers me whether it be personal problems like how I was circumcised without my consent or how I hate being lonely it only causes a problem and goes nowhere the only thing they want me to do is just seemingly have a job(already have) house( which I can't afford right now too expensive in the capitalist USA) and that's it. also I've had arguments about why its wrong to circumcise and how it used to be illegal and how life right now is just about pointless work for the sake of working and getting nothing out of it except not being on the street and some people work but live on the street strangely enough so I guess work isn't enough so I guess i'll never afford a house because its too expensive and I guess i'll never have sex because my mom thinks that people getting sexual urges is a "bad habit" and that people should wear chastity belts if they can't help it due to urges because she seems to think that this isn't natural and I tried explaining to her that celibacy doesn't work look at the catholic church and judaism and yet she seems to think that people are just "not controlling themselves" when I explained that this was part of the reason Polytheistic people legalized prostitution because of the urges people get in accordance to their nature but that didn't make sense to her neither did explaining that circumcision used to carry the death penalty and lots of people say they would kill someone if someone did that to them and of course my dad would be worthless to explain this too because circumcision is just nothing and removing dick skin as he puts it and thinks this is all in my head because the current society is so just and all and is right and people don't need certain things because its perverted and all. anyways i'm still trying to save money to move out and become a manager where I work at to have better pay but I don't feel interested in anything the world has to offer currently because of the way it is I feel my life is pointless with me being bossed around and never allowed to have sex or relationships which is what I currently mainly want at this momwnt nothing else really because it just seems pointless also I never told my parents siblings or any other family members that I sometimes get sexual feeling to men and I know that wouldn't go well because they think its and evil lifestyle but think that islam and god and Christianity is "good" my dad is muslim and my mom is Christian.