I need some help - invocation and anger management

[𖤐 Rai 𖤐]

Hello everyone, I have encountered very serious problems in my life. I never gave up, I devoted myself to Satanism and the devil 3 years ago, but I stayed away for a while. After some bad events I experienced this year, I wanted to give myself a chance again, I started meditating again and I made good progress on this magical path. I tried to handle everything myself, I'm not someone who likes to socialize, I don't have many problems with people. I met a very valuable person from this forum, she helped me a lot and now I know she will read this, I greet her with all my love and sincerity. However, there are still things I can't figure out and I would like to get your opinion. I used to be calm and not a person who got angry at everything, but sometimes forces within me that I cannot control erupt and I can't see anything due to instant anger. No matter how hard I try to have a calm mind, everything in my daily life seems to reset and I get caught up in the material world. Do you have any meditation or any suggestions for this? My other question is that the gods have contacted me twice before through invocation. I asked Satan for help in learning about my Guardian Demon, and I got my answer. However, whenever I do invocation work, I cannot get any results. I set a goal in this regard, and I feel ready to give back, but I am not experiencing any progress. I'm feeling a little stuck these days. There may be a lot of such topics in the forum, but I think you may have experienced such things too. My last question is that sometimes I have to use headphones during my meditations due to external factors. If there is any meditation music or frequency sound you can recommend, I would be very happy. I am open to all suggestions, criticism and opinions. I wish everyone a good forum.

HAIL SATAN

 

[Dragonheart666]

First off! Brother I want to welcome you. I am glad your back.
I can relate to these anger, issues. Myself. And we are being tested, each and every day With problems and emotions on all levels.
And it is something to consider... because we are all human.

 

[ambiance666]

You could have pent up anger try this.

Base: Yoga, Repressed Anger

The poses here benefit the Base/Root chakra, if you feel you need extra grounding or stability in your life. Skip ahead to the part titled “Asanas”, and you can also do vibrations for your base chakra during, or after, doing the asanas. Please note, yoga asanas are best performed under the...

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[Dragonheart666]

YES! And those are good poses. Especially if you have pent up, energy. With leads to anger. Yoga is good for releasing these engines.

 

[𖤐 Rai 𖤐]

You could have pent up anger try this.

Base: Yoga, Repressed Anger

The poses here benefit the Base/Root chakra, if you feel you need extra grounding or stability in your life. Skip ahead to the part titled “Asanas”, and you can also do vibrations for your base chakra during, or after, doing the asanas. Please note, yoga asanas are best performed under the...

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YES! And those are good poses. Especially if you have pent up, energy. With leads to anger. Yoga is good for releasing these engines.

Thank you both. I'm so glad to be here with you too guys 𖤐

 

[kaelgr]

Anger is not something that needs to be completely eliminated, there can be a place where you can channel it to achieve balance and be separate from the source of the anger. Rtrs are suitable for this. Also, using the color blue in your meditations will give you calmness and peace, my dear friend. Balancing the energies in the crown chakra and root chakra will harness the energies between the material world and the spiritual realm.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

Hello everyone, I have encountered very serious problems in my life. I never gave up,

I'm not someone who likes to socialize,

forces within me that I cannot control erupt and I can't see anything due to instant anger. No matter how hard I try to have a calm mind, everything in my daily life seems to reset and I get caught up in the material world.

I tend to "overworry" about traumas, childhood problems, etc. ; said this, what you say seems a red flag for possible traumas in your mind, as anger eruption is typical in traumatized people. Also, not willing to socialize.
Other chance is, you are meditating hard on your chakras and you are stimulating them, so repressed emotions may arise. It happens, you need to deal with them. But the two possibilities, are connected each other.
A question, when you feel heavily enraged, do you feel like "it's not you" but another "you" inside ?

I experienced similar problems. The fact you feel caught in the material world, may happen because you main will (ego, I think) i struggling against your unconscious OR another person's will OR an enemy entity, etc. In short, when your willpower is low, you feel caught in the mass mind. That is totally materialistic. At least, this is how I perceive this and how it happened to me.
I think developing a strong will, being proud of yourself and your life, having strong 3rd and lower chakras, highly reduces chances to be caught in lower existence.

In short, if you suffered childhood traumas, you may have high amounts of repressed rage that manifests from time to time

 

[𖤐 Rai 𖤐]

Anger is not something that needs to be completely eliminated, there can be a place where you can channel it to achieve balance and be separate from the source of the anger. Rtrs are suitable for this. Also, using the color blue in your meditations will give you calmness and peace, my dear friend. Balancing the energies in the crown chakra and root chakra will harness the energies between the material world and the spiritual realm.

I don't use the color visualization technique much. Sometimes colors just appear on their own and sometimes I see things with the theme of Egyptian pyramids in yellow or things with the color blue that make it seem like I lived as a tall being from another planet, but everything happens momentarily and disappears.

I tend to "overworry" about traumas, childhood problems, etc. ; said this, what you say seems a red flag for possible traumas in your mind, as anger eruption is typical in traumatized people. Also, not willing to socialize.
Other chance is, you are meditating hard on your chakras and you are stimulating them, so repressed emotions may arise. It happens, you need to deal with them. But the two possibilities, are connected each other.
A question, when you feel heavily enraged, do you feel like "it's not you" but another "you" inside ?

I experienced similar problems. The fact you feel caught in the material world, may happen because you main will (ego, I think) i struggling against your unconscious OR another person's will OR an enemy entity, etc. In short, when your willpower is low, you feel caught in the mass mind. That is totally materialistic. At least, this is how I perceive this and how it happened to me.
I think developing a strong will, being proud of yourself and your life, having strong 3rd and lower chakras, highly reduces chances to be caught in lower existence.

In short, if you suffered childhood traumas, you may have high amounts of repressed rage that manifests from time to time

I often encounter the feeling of being trapped in the material world. Sometimes I don't want to do anything but I know I have to keep up with the world and move on. I didn't have a bad trauma from my childhood, but I'm having a hard time trying to manage my calmness with the ongoing problems. thanks for your comment

 

[kaelgr]

I don't use the color visualization technique much. Sometimes colors just appear on their own and sometimes I see things with the theme of Egyptian pyramids in yellow or things with the color blue that make it seem like I lived as a tall being from another planet, but everything happens momentarily and disappears.

You allow your subconscious to control your visions. You must create something yourself, because your subconscious, which gives you these visions, can also reveal the negative aspects to which your soul is prone. To manage, to create. You should focus on these. Manage colors and how they feel

 

[𖤐 Rai 𖤐]

You allow your subconscious to control your visions. You must create something yourself, because your subconscious, which gives you these visions, can also reveal the negative aspects to which your soul is prone. To manage, to create. You should focus on these. Manage colors and how they feel

I want to ask you one more thing. I just worked on opening my third eye and tried to open it with the Dagaz rune. I felt my third eye flicker and focused on it. I opened my eyes and tried to see my own aura, it worked but my aura was pitch black. Yes, definitely my entire aura was pitch black. How is this possible or am I wrong? I have been doing aura cleansing meditation for months. Frankly, seeing myself as black made me sad

 

[kaelgr]

I want to ask you one more thing. I just worked on opening my third eye and tried to open it with the Dagaz rune. I felt my third eye flicker and focused on it. I opened my eyes and tried to see my own aura, it worked but my aura was pitch black. Yes, definitely my entire aura was pitch black. How is this possible or am I wrong? I have been doing aura cleansing meditation for months. Frankly, seeing myself as black made me sad

Dagaz may not be sufficient or suitable for the third eye when used alone.

In order for your aura to be pitch black, you must be in a very bad mood or do special work while meditating. What you saw was most likely a part of the astral.

Also, even if it is a reflection of a bad mood, it would not be completely black. Don't worry about it

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I often encounter the feeling of being trapped in the material world. Sometimes I don't want to do anything but I know I have to keep up with the world and move on. I didn't have a bad trauma from my childhood, but I'm having a hard time trying to manage my calmness with the ongoing problems. thanks for your comment

To my experience the feeling of being trapped in material world, came for excess pressure from external "mass" or low energies at the lower chakras, mainly 3rd and 2nd chakra. Sometimes it happens when I use high amounts of personal energies, to obtain something in life.

I do not say this is your case, I think and hope not, but many people do not remember traumas until they come out, as they are removed from conscious memory.