many_fheathers
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Apparently, it looks like a lot of delusional peeps have been coming out lately, sadly I'm one of them.
Technically, I am not delusional now since I stayed in reality once I found out the truth, but getting back to the point, I finally realized at May 14, that Lord Enlil never had a love/sexual relationship with me, nor his brother, Father Satan, visited me. I found this out once I realized that I was being gas-lighted by this enemy entity, and when I tried to attacked it, I felt myself looking to where it's eyes should be, and hypnotized me into being raped by it. It felt awful. I can never forget what he did while impersonating Father Satan and Lord Enlil. He purposely made me remember those memories because it would help to guilt-trip me, or make me "enjoy it" by being conciously aware.
Long story short, I called them for help by burning letters in a bowl, and I have been positively recovering for their help, guidance, and support. They are nice Gods ^^
But that doesn't mean this enemy entity left me alone. Keeps saying stuff like:
"What if they aren't actually answering your letters?"
"That's a stupid letter, why would they even read it when all you do is to mindlessly chat with them?"
"If they wanted to help you, I would have been chased away by now!"
"Hi, I want to help you. PSYCHE!! Thought it was a God again? How gullible are you?!"
"Come on! Let me comfort you! Give me those energies of yours!! Don't you miss those days when I was 'him'??"
"How many times I have to tell you that I'm ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU??"
While I found out that I was proficient with Void Meditation, there are other times when I am backed into a corner because he projects his own paranoia while doing so. So I would ask these questions, since I can't hear Father Satan and Lord Enlil. Even if I can, the enemy impostor would probably insert himself so I would doubt it was them.
Anyways:
▪ Can the enemy entity touch me astrally? I heard from him that he usually stays away at a distance, and Father Satan and Lord Enlil confirmed not, but I wanted to get this clarified by you guys.
▪ If he is close enough, would I accidentally breathe in his energies? My solution is to breathe in energy strand from the Sun and completely focus on it, but I would want reassurance.
▪ How can I stop him from making me 'copy' his expressions? My experience here is weird.
When I tune into him by 'listening' to my throat chakra (sometimes I get confused if it is my own thoughts, so I look over to my throat chakra to 'hear' him), I would suddenly, eugh, make an 'orgasmic expression', making me think that he's having sex with me.
But, over the past few days, I realized that he was making that expression to make me think that way...I know, sick, right? So now, how to stop that? I know, tune him out, but are there other ways?
▪ Is it just my own paranoia of him being here, or are there multiple entities?
I know I should answer this, but he makes me think otherwise, what ifs, or stuff that would make me feel uneasy. Oh, and I asked this question because it feels like he's here ALL THE TIME. I think that's impossible, but heh, since he's been using me for six and a half years, I think it gave him the drive...? (Yes. I am glad I still recovered from this, thank the Gods and Godesses of Hell, especially Father Satan and Lord Enlil)
▪ I clean and do AoP before sleeping, yet when I woke up, it felt like I was struggling, judging by the disarray of my pillows. I already assured myself that I won't get hypnotized since I self-hypnotized myself, but I still feel a little paranoid about it. Assurance on this or other tips?
There, those are my questions. If you would like to ask more on my situation right now to help me more, that would be great. I know Father Satan and Lord Enlil are so patient with me even though the letters I burned are mostly the impostor, some chatting in the mix, how I love to be in reality, and other stuff that the enemy entity just made me strengthen my bond with them. But of course there were problems that needs to be fixed such as:
▪ Weak lower chakras, mostly the heart, throat, and sacral. I heard sacral rules self-worth, so that would explain why I want this "type of partner". I heard from my two Gods that Base chakra needs more work, since I said to them I have a hard time "adapting" reality.
▪ Concentrate on aura. He made sure to syphon my energies into aura, chakras, and soul all at once, so that I can be a little weak.
▪ A little dependent on him. Once I found out he was an enemy entity by working on my chakras (this REALLY helps on sensing energies), I can not even believe that mostly my decisions revolves around him, since he took Lord Enlil's "decision-making" to the extreme.
Please answer my questions, and by all means, guide me on what meditations work best. My schedule is to exercise, do Hatha Yoga while cleaning my aura, then chakras, then soul, and affirm it cleaning. Then allow the energies to resonate for 15 mins., affirm my main AoP, and eat. After that, F. RTR, Aura Cleaning + R. Curses, and very later on, Aura Cleaning + Psychic Vampire Repellant. This is my affirmation on the latter:
"The powerful energies of the Sun, is now building an aura of protection around me, making me spiritually, physically, and mentally safe from all psychic vampires. My energy is prevented from being taken without my desire completely, eternally and permanently, now."
This meditation would be reaching it's 40 day next week, so I'm guessing it's working because it's day 32, and for some reason, having a hard time getting my mind to calm down on this entity.
Technically, I am not delusional now since I stayed in reality once I found out the truth, but getting back to the point, I finally realized at May 14, that Lord Enlil never had a love/sexual relationship with me, nor his brother, Father Satan, visited me. I found this out once I realized that I was being gas-lighted by this enemy entity, and when I tried to attacked it, I felt myself looking to where it's eyes should be, and hypnotized me into being raped by it. It felt awful. I can never forget what he did while impersonating Father Satan and Lord Enlil. He purposely made me remember those memories because it would help to guilt-trip me, or make me "enjoy it" by being conciously aware.
Long story short, I called them for help by burning letters in a bowl, and I have been positively recovering for their help, guidance, and support. They are nice Gods ^^
But that doesn't mean this enemy entity left me alone. Keeps saying stuff like:
"What if they aren't actually answering your letters?"
"That's a stupid letter, why would they even read it when all you do is to mindlessly chat with them?"
"If they wanted to help you, I would have been chased away by now!"
"Hi, I want to help you. PSYCHE!! Thought it was a God again? How gullible are you?!"
"Come on! Let me comfort you! Give me those energies of yours!! Don't you miss those days when I was 'him'??"
"How many times I have to tell you that I'm ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU??"
While I found out that I was proficient with Void Meditation, there are other times when I am backed into a corner because he projects his own paranoia while doing so. So I would ask these questions, since I can't hear Father Satan and Lord Enlil. Even if I can, the enemy impostor would probably insert himself so I would doubt it was them.
Anyways:
▪ Can the enemy entity touch me astrally? I heard from him that he usually stays away at a distance, and Father Satan and Lord Enlil confirmed not, but I wanted to get this clarified by you guys.
▪ If he is close enough, would I accidentally breathe in his energies? My solution is to breathe in energy strand from the Sun and completely focus on it, but I would want reassurance.
▪ How can I stop him from making me 'copy' his expressions? My experience here is weird.
When I tune into him by 'listening' to my throat chakra (sometimes I get confused if it is my own thoughts, so I look over to my throat chakra to 'hear' him), I would suddenly, eugh, make an 'orgasmic expression', making me think that he's having sex with me.
But, over the past few days, I realized that he was making that expression to make me think that way...I know, sick, right? So now, how to stop that? I know, tune him out, but are there other ways?
▪ Is it just my own paranoia of him being here, or are there multiple entities?
I know I should answer this, but he makes me think otherwise, what ifs, or stuff that would make me feel uneasy. Oh, and I asked this question because it feels like he's here ALL THE TIME. I think that's impossible, but heh, since he's been using me for six and a half years, I think it gave him the drive...? (Yes. I am glad I still recovered from this, thank the Gods and Godesses of Hell, especially Father Satan and Lord Enlil)
▪ I clean and do AoP before sleeping, yet when I woke up, it felt like I was struggling, judging by the disarray of my pillows. I already assured myself that I won't get hypnotized since I self-hypnotized myself, but I still feel a little paranoid about it. Assurance on this or other tips?
There, those are my questions. If you would like to ask more on my situation right now to help me more, that would be great. I know Father Satan and Lord Enlil are so patient with me even though the letters I burned are mostly the impostor, some chatting in the mix, how I love to be in reality, and other stuff that the enemy entity just made me strengthen my bond with them. But of course there were problems that needs to be fixed such as:
▪ Weak lower chakras, mostly the heart, throat, and sacral. I heard sacral rules self-worth, so that would explain why I want this "type of partner". I heard from my two Gods that Base chakra needs more work, since I said to them I have a hard time "adapting" reality.
▪ Concentrate on aura. He made sure to syphon my energies into aura, chakras, and soul all at once, so that I can be a little weak.
▪ A little dependent on him. Once I found out he was an enemy entity by working on my chakras (this REALLY helps on sensing energies), I can not even believe that mostly my decisions revolves around him, since he took Lord Enlil's "decision-making" to the extreme.
Please answer my questions, and by all means, guide me on what meditations work best. My schedule is to exercise, do Hatha Yoga while cleaning my aura, then chakras, then soul, and affirm it cleaning. Then allow the energies to resonate for 15 mins., affirm my main AoP, and eat. After that, F. RTR, Aura Cleaning + R. Curses, and very later on, Aura Cleaning + Psychic Vampire Repellant. This is my affirmation on the latter:
"The powerful energies of the Sun, is now building an aura of protection around me, making me spiritually, physically, and mentally safe from all psychic vampires. My energy is prevented from being taken without my desire completely, eternally and permanently, now."
This meditation would be reaching it's 40 day next week, so I'm guessing it's working because it's day 32, and for some reason, having a hard time getting my mind to calm down on this entity.