Drug Rehabilitation Center

[Sta_Satanama]

Hello fellow travelers. I am totally down, killing myself with marijuana, mentally and killing myself with inaction. I don't know what to do anymore. I was in remission for 7 months, but snapped, already 2 months in use, and 13 years in total. I feel like a dead man, there is no hope for the gods anymore. I don't understand why I don't change my life, I just want to die. Okay, that's lyrics, tears, whining.

Has anyone had any experience with rehab centers? Is it useful or not? I feel that I can't cope alone, but I can't kill myself, and I don't want to suffer all my life either.

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[Henu the Great]

Hello fellow travelers. I am totally down, killing myself with marijuana, mentally and killing myself with inaction. I don't know what to do anymore. I was in remission for 7 months, but snapped, already 2 months in use, and 13 years in total. I feel like a dead man, there is no hope for the gods anymore. I don't understand why I don't change my life, I just want to die. Okay, that's lyrics, tears, whining.

Has anyone had any experience with rehab centers? Is it useful or not? I feel that I can't cope alone, but I can't kill myself, and I don't want to suffer all my life either.

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What are you running away/hiding from by using drugs? Assess the core of the issue so that it shall be permanently fixed for the better.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Hello fellow travelers. I am totally down, killing myself with marijuana, mentally and killing myself with inaction. I don't know what to do anymore. I was in remission for 7 months, but snapped, already 2 months in use, and 13 years in total. I feel like a dead man, there is no hope for the gods anymore. I don't understand why I don't change my life, I just want to die. Okay, that's lyrics, tears, whining.

Has anyone had any experience with rehab centers? Is it useful or not? I feel that I can't cope alone, but I can't kill myself, and I don't want to suffer all my life either.

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Hello

Contact Buer, ask Him for help. Valefor's power ritual can also help. And know that we are all rooting for you to permanently kick this addiction

 

[Sta_Satanama]

От чего вы убегаете / прячетесь, употребляя наркотики?

I don't know. I spent my entire adolescence from 19 to 32 on drugs. I'm used to being without them. In general, I don't like myself, my mind or ego (or whoever it is in my stupid head). doesn't accept me/me, or is it schizophrenia already? I am an unloved child, (I was not accepted by my parents, this is the foundation of the traumas that affect me) I have become an egoist, who feels no feelings, no life, no joy, I only know the pursuit of sensations, in an attempt to apparently brighten my existence through them - but whatever I brighten it with, it is always not enough and does not help. I don't get along well with people, I don't even understand my own feelings. I don't want to see this whole venegert and myself, but there is nowhere to go.

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[Henu the Great]

I don't know. I spent my entire adolescence from 19 to 32 on drugs. I'm used to being without them. In general, I don't like myself, my mind or ego (or whoever it is in my stupid head). doesn't accept me/me, or is it schizophrenia already? I am an unloved child, (I was not accepted by my parents, this is the foundation of the traumas that affect me) I have become an egoist, who feels no feelings, no life, no joy, I only know the pursuit of sensations, in an attempt to apparently brighten my existence through them - but whatever I brighten it with, it is always not enough and does not help. I don't get along well with people, I don't even understand my own feelings. I don't want to see this whole venegert and myself, but there is nowhere to go.

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I know how it is because I have had a similar past with self worth issues and I can guarantee that you can overcome those issues completely. It will be a process like never before and each passing day is another opportunity to better yourself.

I suggest that you start by learning what spiritual practices are available through Joy of Satan, and start practicing. Lydia gave you good advice as well. This group is always here to help and encourage you and we can continue giving more specific advice if that is required. Take your time and be well.

 

[Viego]

Man, look. You're not a child anymore , everyone has suffer , some more then others but that won't matter and change anything.
What is important and will change things is what we do from now on.

I am writing this to help you, not to judge you , as we are spiritual Satanists and we shall stick together.

The thing is you're not a child anymore, you're a grown ass man and you should take charge of your own life now and by that I mean to accept what it is ,not to hide from it using stuff like alcohol and drugs , now I understand that there are times where the desperation is so massive that we used to say "I can do this as I can't take this pain anymore" so we are trying to justify and make the bad things look as good things which in reality we know drugs and alcohol are only shortcuts with worse effects in the long term but you probably discovered this by now on your own skin so stop doing it.

You say is nowhere to go but there's many places/ways to go.
In this regard it could be complete destruction or a new you, a better you , a higher place, a higher you and by this I don't mean stonned.

I do not know nothing about rehab places but I'm sure the meditations and the information's here will help you more then anything else if you truly whish to change and heal, you will find the resources to do so.

MY ADVICE:
I would honestly advice to look into your natal astrology chart, I like what Mr Henu said about "better yourself" but I would advise to "knowing yourself" more then you can start the better yourself. Look into your astrology chart, discover how you work , what's your pro and cons, how do you think the way you think, why things happened , what things will happen from now on? What influences me right now[and before and future] ,how, why so on. Astrology is the best and the most divine thing that will help you , BEST.

I would also advise to get into psychology , start to read books about traumas, how do they work ,how they affected you ,how can you heal from them.
We might say we know who we are and how we work but subconsciously we do not know deep down what actually affect us the most , that's why I want to get more into dream study, at the moment I can't but I am looking forward for that moment , I have trust in myself but mostly in the Gods, you shall have too but then again remember that the Gods themselves want's us to be independent and responsible but when there are things beyond our powers they never fail to surprise me with their kindness , love, tolerance and so much more.

You can also do Father Satan invocation and tell him what you have on your mind and soul, release your emotions and thoughts and be open and free to him , ask him for guidance and help and empowerment.

 

[Sta_Satanama]

Thank you for your support. It's interesting that for 10 years I've been looking for the root of my problem and just yesterday, I found it. I have a personality disorder called Narcissism. I benefit from my addiction and my failures in order to attract attention and to feel my grandiosity as a great sufferer and sacrificial altar. I need to seek counseling now. I don't think I can get out of this alone.

 

[Viego]

Thank you for your support. It's interesting that for 10 years I've been looking for the root of my problem and just yesterday, I found it. I have a personality disorder called Narcissism. I benefit from my addiction and my failures in order to attract attention and to feel my grandiosity as a great sufferer and sacrificial altar. I need to seek counseling now. I don't think I can get out of this alone.

First of all do not read everything online and do not trust in google , you might have something else.

Secondly take control over your thoughts , if you do believe that you can't do it alone they you just make think worse , everything is possible alone , just BELIVE it and work towards what you want to achieve but stop with the negative thinking of that you need someone to wipe up your ass for you, I am saying this kindly not in a bad way

You do not benefit nothing from you addiction , it's just temporary "antidote" with worse long term effect. Quit the shit , make a healthier lifestyle , you don't need stuff to be great , just yourself in the most healthy manner.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Thank you for your support. It's interesting that for 10 years I've been looking for the root of my problem and just yesterday, I found it. I have a personality disorder called Narcissism. I benefit from my addiction and my failures in order to attract attention and to feel my grandiosity as a great sufferer and sacrificial altar. I need to seek counseling now. I don't think I can get out of this alone.

Not feeling easily feeling joy can create a bit of "desperation" in the soul which makes you go for the quickest form of joy first, as opposed to accomplishments which take longer, but give more fulfillment. Then the drugs create more self-hatred, plus secondary problems, so you have to break the cycle here.

If you are able to, do a working to help this. You could use Wunjo, since it promotes happiness and healing. With the moon waxing, you could program it like to "permanently increase my ability to live and grow without drugs." Wunjo and Sowilo, as well as solar energy, deal with feelings of joy and fulfillment.

Regarding family problems, here the moon is involved, with the Berkano rune. As JG NP had mentioned, journaling is a great way to start reflecting on your life and feelings, which itself is a lunar activity and can help heal a lack of "lunar activity" from family problems.

Also, yes you should certainly seek help and I am glad you are working on it. Don't be afraid or upset, even if relapse occurs. It is very possible to be free, then permanently heal and advance past this.