ı want to commit suicide

[Xerath666]

You are on the path to divinity, and that alone should make you proud and motivated to move forward. The journey is long and hard but it's really worth it. I come more or less from the same situation as you, I can guarantee you that since I woke up and dedicated myself to Satan 2 years ago and started meditating every day despite some initial errors, resolved by experimenting and thanks to the precious help of some wonderful forum members, my life has completely changed for the better.

I have acquired great self-confidence, and an immense love for life, nature, discipline, Astrology, deepening scientific subjects, I have started to professionally cultivate very particular plants (which gives me great satisfaction) and much more. You will see you are just in an altered mental state, trauma, etc, focus on cleansing and start putting curses back as soon as possible.

Keep in mind that because of the enemy, society is currently sick, then don't you keep going crazy after friends who cheat on you and girls who do the same.

HAIL SATAN FOR EVER BROTHER!

 

[Achemedai]

From my experience the thing we need to focus on to really be good mentally is bettering ourselves, in every way possible. Everyday is a chance to get better, to progress in something, to achieve something. Take more care of yourself, not only your health, but your appeareance too. Looking good in your mirror is a major switch to feel better.
Loving yourself and life comes from these things with time.
There will be days when you just feel down whatever you do and it's fine, accept it as normal and go on.

Repeat to yourself It's not over until you win.

 

[moon light]

I get back on this post as I usually have few time so I forgot to underline this point.
Self-damage is an expression of self-hate and is often done to "release tension", I mean, to discharge some emotion that would be unbearable. This is a clear sign of trauma, possible childhood abuse, and lack of self esteem. There is no need to damage yourself - listen - you own a body a mind and a soul that, thanks to Satan and the Gods, can become perfect and shining through many lifetimes of hard work. You own an amazing tool to Godhead so why should you damage it??
Traumatized and abused people often need to please someone as they have been forced to please their abuser in childhood, while childhood teachings remain in the mind are not easy to reprogram. Why do not try to shift the pleasing attitude towards Satan or your Guardian Demon? They are loving, they are caring - you will feel loved and cared if you treat them with respect. Satan loves humanity in its essence. Why don't you try to see them as you caregivers and try to please them? How? Taking care of yourself and your body. Yes, your Guardian Demon needs time and efforts to protect you, so why don't you please him/her taking care of yourself too? This is the minimum you can do for the Gods.
Do non treat you as a waste as you are NOT. Would a waste and unworthy person find the Truth on here?

You seem to be young, and your message reveals you seek attention and you want to be understood.
The Gods do understand you even before you talk to them.

You said, you want to rinse all-over. I know what this means and I acknowledged, I have been doing this for all my life without even knowing that, I have slowly changed things and changed my attitude towards life.
If you need a fresh start, do that.
Finding a new place (with new people, fresh environments, different streets, different shops, etc.), relocating, a new job, would be of great help. If something bad happened to you in a place, you will probably hate that place and local people too, as a projection of self-hate from he damage yu suffered. Look for a place you would not hate; people will not see you as you "were before" but as you "are now" - so this may help a lot while rinsing your mind. There is nothing to rinse anyway, as the DIRT is on your offenders and abusers, not on yourself as you think. Leaving much of this behind, can be helpful.

Bunlar gerçekten güzel tavsiyeler yardımınız için minnetarim

 

[moon light]

You are on the path to divinity, and that alone should make you proud and motivated to move forward. The journey is long and hard but it's really worth it. I come more or less from the same situation as you, I can guarantee you that since I woke up and dedicated myself to Satan 2 years ago and started meditating every day despite some initial errors, resolved by experimenting and thanks to the precious help of some wonderful forum members, my life has completely changed for the better.

I have acquired great self-confidence, and an immense love for life, nature, discipline, Astrology, deepening scientific subjects, I have started to professionally cultivate very particular plants (which gives me great satisfaction) and much more. You will see you are just in an altered mental state, trauma, etc, focus on cleansing and start putting curses back as soon as possible.

Keep in mind that because of the enemy, society is currently sick, then don't you keep going crazy after friends who cheat on you and girls who do the same.

HAIL SATAN FOR EVER BROTHER!

Okayyy yessss This is really good advice and I am grateful for your help

 

[Hellenic SS]

Satan loves you. The Gods love you. Your family loves you.

Bring the change you want to see in the world.