Chaos and Purification

[fuoco blu 666]

I have been intensely purifying my chakras and soul for a long time.

I have been meditating for almost 6 years and this is currently my meditation program:

Final RTR vibrated on each major chakra for a total of 7 final RTRs, I intensified this due to my extreme desire for freedom and the extreme hatred I feel for the enemy.

Purification of the soul
Raum x 111

Raum x 111 on the third eye

Raum x 111 on each of the 7 chakras to purify them

Pineal gland activation

Rune Sugil for 36 on the pineal gland

Chakra breathing preferably in sunlight for 15 minutes

Kundalini Yoga and Hatha Yoga

Pranayama (cobra breathing, alternate nostril breathing and fire breathing)

In this period I am doing the planetary square of the Sun to strengthen the solar chakra 666 and I repeat the purification meditation on it several times.

With the Full Moon in Scorpio I wanted to try a very powerful meditation: Eihwaz rune on the base chakra to activate the Kundalini energy, I used this affirmation: "the energy of the Eihwaz rune safely awakens my Kundalini energy".


With this meditation program done over time I feel much better and experience various effects.

When I vibrate Raum to cleanse the chakras I perfectly feel the vibration in my being and experience a certain spiritual pleasure that transcends the physical, I feel the light in my soul and greater clarity and power.

I feel that the meditation I am doing with Raum on the chakras makes me very receptive to solar energy and there are healing effects with chakra breathing when I am in the Sun.

I see "internally" that my chakras are brighter and brighter, colors so beautiful that they are impossible for the average person's mind to imagine.

I still have a lot to purify especially the anger and sadness that come out of my solar chakra and my heart chakra.

Now I feel like a warm and vibrant fist pushing into my base chakra, it is the effect of the meditation with the Eihwaz rune that I performed with the Full Moon in Scorpio.

On April 30th, a Tuesday, I begin the planetary square of Mars and a work of liberation of sexual energy because there is a waning Moon in Aquarius on this date.


I work very hard and in a meticulous and perfectionist way to prepare for the rise of Kundalini, no matter how long it takes.

I'm reading Gopi Krishna's books on Kundalini, they are very interesting especially after I read his birth chart.


I feel that the pleasures of life are more intense for me at some times, other times I feel waves of anger and extreme hatred and do emptiness meditation to control this.

The anger I feel is due to the events that happened to me, I am very disappointed by how humanity is in this era but this has poisoned my energy, I feel the sadness in my lungs and the excess of yang energy that starts from the liver, yes it spreads like a dark red fire in my energy channels.

I have difficulty approaching ordinary people because I feel inadequate and not understandable.

I had a past in which I was hurt by the people I loved and because I am homosexual and also because due to my energy others feel I am strange, I have a particular sensitivity.

In my mind I feel the need to take extreme revenge with my spiritual anger.

I want to heal and feel relief from the emotional pain of the past and I try to improve myself through meditation every day.

I currently have food cravings, there are times when I feel rabidly hungry and I feel pain in my stomach like a feeling of emptiness.

I also did the solar chakra purification twice with Raum x 111 vibrations and the hunger calmed down quite a bit.

Do these hunger pangs come to me because I am purifying my chakras very intensely and my soul reacts with a sort of transformative chaos?

Do I want to isolate myself for this reason too and is it just a phase of purification and healing of the soul?

I have an extreme desire to meditate but I have been told that this meditative cocoon hurts me and that it does not allow me to adapt to society

I have been called schizoaffective and schizotypal psychotic and this causes me such strong anger that I have difficulty keeping it even with my willpower and self-control.

They think I have delusions of omnipotence and mood swings and even hallucinations.

How can I get rid of all this?

How can I manage this chaos as I advance spiritually and achieve greater balance?

 

[AbyssalDragon777]

understanding law of stability, law of controlling, law of emotional in spirituality if that was done just refill sea mind spiritual power .sea heart spiritual power then using 3 laws in mind and heart

 

[fuoco blu 666]

Anyone have any advice and opinions?

Is what I am experiencing due to the soul cleansing effect?

Sharing your spiritual experiences can also be very helpful

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I have been intensely purifying my chakras and soul for a long time.

I have been meditating for almost 6 years and this is currently my meditation program:

Final RTR vibrated on each major chakra for a total of 7 final RTRs, I intensified this due to my extreme desire for freedom and the extreme hatred I feel for the enemy.

Purification of the soul
Raum x 111

Raum x 111 on the third eye

Raum x 111 on each of the 7 chakras to purify them

Pineal gland activation

Rune Sugil for 36 on the pineal gland

Chakra breathing preferably in sunlight for 15 minutes

Kundalini Yoga and Hatha Yoga

Pranayama (cobra breathing, alternate nostril breathing and fire breathing)

In this period I am doing the planetary square of the Sun to strengthen the solar chakra 666 and I repeat the purification meditation on it several times.

With the Full Moon in Scorpio I wanted to try a very powerful meditation: Eihwaz rune on the base chakra to activate the Kundalini energy, I used this affirmation: "the energy of the Eihwaz rune safely awakens my Kundalini energy".


With this meditation program done over time I feel much better and experience various effects.

When I vibrate Raum to cleanse the chakras I perfectly feel the vibration in my being and experience a certain spiritual pleasure that transcends the physical, I feel the light in my soul and greater clarity and power.

I feel that the meditation I am doing with Raum on the chakras makes me very receptive to solar energy and there are healing effects with chakra breathing when I am in the Sun.

I see "internally" that my chakras are brighter and brighter, colors so beautiful that they are impossible for the average person's mind to imagine.

I still have a lot to purify especially the anger and sadness that come out of my solar chakra and my heart chakra.

Now I feel like a warm and vibrant fist pushing into my base chakra, it is the effect of the meditation with the Eihwaz rune that I performed with the Full Moon in Scorpio.

On April 30th, a Tuesday, I begin the planetary square of Mars and a work of liberation of sexual energy because there is a waning Moon in Aquarius on this date.


I work very hard and in a meticulous and perfectionist way to prepare for the rise of Kundalini, no matter how long it takes.

I'm reading Gopi Krishna's books on Kundalini, they are very interesting especially after I read his birth chart.


I feel that the pleasures of life are more intense for me at some times, other times I feel waves of anger and extreme hatred and do emptiness meditation to control this.

The anger I feel is due to the events that happened to me, I am very disappointed by how humanity is in this era but this has poisoned my energy, I feel the sadness in my lungs and the excess of yang energy that starts from the liver, yes it spreads like a dark red fire in my energy channels.

I have difficulty approaching ordinary people because I feel inadequate and not understandable.

I had a past in which I was hurt by the people I loved and because I am homosexual and also because due to my energy others feel I am strange, I have a particular sensitivity.

In my mind I feel the need to take extreme revenge with my spiritual anger.

I want to heal and feel relief from the emotional pain of the past and I try to improve myself through meditation every day.

I currently have food cravings, there are times when I feel rabidly hungry and I feel pain in my stomach like a feeling of emptiness.

I also did the solar chakra purification twice with Raum x 111 vibrations and the hunger calmed down quite a bit.

Do these hunger pangs come to me because I am purifying my chakras very intensely and my soul reacts with a sort of transformative chaos?

Do I want to isolate myself for this reason too and is it just a phase of purification and healing of the soul?

I have an extreme desire to meditate but I have been told that this meditative cocoon hurts me and that it does not allow me to adapt to society

I have been called schizoaffective and schizotypal psychotic and this causes me such strong anger that I have difficulty keeping it even with my willpower and self-control.

They think I have delusions of omnipotence and mood swings and even hallucinations.

How can I get rid of all this?

How can I manage this chaos as I advance spiritually and achieve greater balance?

What symptoms do you have related to the schizoaffective and schizotypal conditions? If you have this, I would think this is a big priority to work upon, as it pertains to mental stability. I would seek out the help of Valefor, but I would imagine that runes like Wunjo would be good to resolve this, however be careful to avoid backlash.

While Wunjo may directly fix, Nauthiz would also be useful for grounding and avoiding delusions. It might make sense to build up your base chakra and Saturn energies before any major work on the upper chakras, although I can't say for sure.

If you want to isolate yourself, this could be coming from the hurt from other people, especially if this extended into past lives. Again, Wunjo would help restore your harmony and joy with those around you. Try to think about the reasons you wish to isolate, as generally this can point towards avoidance of something. I would try to target this more directly, rather than assume it would go away once you are done purifying.

Feelings of inadequacy are generally related to our solar energies, and improvement here can make it easier for you to express and project yourself, plus be more confident in doing so.

My assumption about your hunger would be due to your active transformations of the solar chakra, as this pertains to our vitality, which itself derives partially out of the digestive power, therefore appetite changes seem normal here.

In my experience, the main side effect of purification was fatigue, with backlash symptoms or fluctuations mainly occurring through workings themselves. Rather, it seemed like cleaning during these times alleviated or mitigated my symptoms, rather than improved them. However, there could be some differences in the mechanics going on here.

Although I am hesitant to to major directives to your own spiritual path, I would say that you should try more direct workings for your problems, rather than just intensive cleaning alone. To me, the cleaning sets the stage for major transformations to occur successfully, but cleaning itself cannot substitute for a Moon Square aimed at emotional improvement, for example.

So I would think it is time to try to break out of your cocoon, but do so backed by the spiritual power you have been cultivating. There are runes and spiritual solutions for everything, including the problems you describe, so it is just a matter of planning and implementing this.

 

[Satyanama]

My advice might be to do a bit less of the whole meditation program you stated. Unless you break half for the morning half for night time is probably a better suggestion. Since to too much can also have a really bad backlash on a spiritual level. Like vomiting enough tel you would be in the ER to you a more physical plane for comparison to what all these symptoms you are experiencing. Also it does seem like you are impatient to have your kundalini to ascend. Which is great to have that as a goal, but do not do a whole spiritual version of the iron man triathlon. You would have greater chances of buyout too deal with. Another suggestion is pick one of the power meditation from the Joy of Satan Power Meditation section from the JoS website to work on and master for a whole month. After you have done the 40 training meditation program and the satanic spiritual warfare program’s PDF from the JoS website too. The once you have master let’s say you picked one of the first breathing exercises for Spiritual Satanist to do and master for a whole month. Then go onto the next one. You would see great improvements on your soul and advancement of your power and your chakras and aura will become much more stronger and cleaner. Also have you mastered how to work with energy or how to go into a trance ?you need to master the major basics too. This will help you greatly also. You bc an do this small program that works too for morning at night time too that is from the 40 day meditation program from the Joy of Satan Ministries too. Being:
Cleaning your aura and chakras while vibrating surya 108 two time and rain 108 two times. I do 108 surya vibrations into my soul and chakras and do the same with Raum.
Do Aura of Protection
Then I do void meditation
and then onto doing my Breathing exercises too. I especially find benifit with the foundation yogic breath and the hummming breath then I spin my chakras and finally breath in energy into my aura and body and my chakras that is white golden energy with the energy meditation. The benifits are great and much long lasting without risk of burnout too. Which is also especially great if you are like me someone busy with university studies or someone who is busy with a time consuming job too. Plus you can close your chakras when you go out and interact with people while you are getting out of your social cocoon as you call your social isolation.
Another thing you mentioned you had schizotypical whatever is was? You sure that is what you have again if you got that from a psychiatrist make sure the shrink is not just some kike. Since there is a lot of Kikes in that profession. It is the one reason I don’t support that profession or therapy for that matter. Yet that is my personal choice. You might want to see about getting a second opinion since you sound pretty sane when you were writing this post. Since I person with some delusion might not be able to do even that.