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Astaroth Drawing

LaTe bLoOmErX

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hey
decided to occasionally draw something on a new notebook

(i fucked up a lot of things compared to the initial idea but yeah, that's it)

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thank you, i really appreciate it

i often thought of building a career on art or music in the past, with an open perspective on the possibility in this in their various fields too, being both great passions of mine from an early age

for example, at art school one of the subjects in which i excelled was technical drawing, almost always reaching the highest score, and i was passionate about architecture
then i had a serious accident on my dominant hand, i was also very lucky that time
however, physiotherapy after the surgery was too expensive for my parents, i tried to do it myself with poor online exercises, my hand never went back to normal 100%
i didn’t have that firmness and precision that i had before and my grades were going down
in the end, angry, i chose graphics as specialization because i was fascinated by lettering as a graffiti writer during adolescence, and the artistic logic behind the creation of logos
one year later i dropped out of school, not even really my decision :)

now i mean, i've tried a lot over time
little story aside, i don't think i'll ever try again, for numerous reasons, i also had a big rejection for art and music, more and more until i reached some crises that led to, let's say, some "irreversible" points recently

maybe if i get the opportunity and the peace in the future, i could go back to doing something as a hobby, playing the piano for example, before i got screwed in this too i was learning some chopin nocturnes, i love classical music even if i come from a rap/trap background, i had also reached an excellent level as an independent amateur i would say, like i always do in the things i apply myself to

c'est la vie
maybe in the next life 😂

(i guess the translator who helped me screwed up a thousand words and meanings)
 
thank you, i really appreciate it

i often thought of building a career on art or music in the past, with an open perspective on the possibility in this in their various fields too, being both great passions of mine from an early age

for example, at art school one of the subjects in which i excelled was technical drawing, almost always reaching the highest score, and i was passionate about architecture
then i had a serious accident on my dominant hand, i was also very lucky that time
however, physiotherapy after the surgery was too expensive for my parents, i tried to do it myself with poor online exercises, my hand never went back to normal 100%
i didn’t have that firmness and precision that i had before and my grades were going down
in the end, angry, i chose graphics as specialization because i was fascinated by lettering as a graffiti writer during adolescence, and the artistic logic behind the creation of logos
one year later i dropped out of school, not even really my decision :)

now i mean, i've tried a lot over time
little story aside, i don't think i'll ever try again, for numerous reasons, i also had a big rejection for art and music, more and more until i reached some crises that led to, let's say, some "irreversible" points recently

maybe if i get the opportunity and the peace in the future, i could go back to doing something as a hobby, playing the piano for example, before i got screwed in this too i was learning some chopin nocturnes, i love classical music even if i come from a rap/trap background, i had also reached an excellent level as an independent amateur i would say, like i always do in the things i apply myself to

c'est la vie
maybe in the next life 😂

(i guess the translator who helped me screwed up a thousand words and meanings)
Nice hearing your short story on deciding a career and I am sorry about your hand.

Here I am wanting a better one which is why I showed up in tech college with a 100% better career decision to put one of my skills for humanity’s defense projects. I’m busy coding two legit softwares closely related to mission critical ones right now for thesis. No, I’m NEVER going to do WMD’s, that’s too far-fetched in reality. I used to do animation as a career until some assholes doxxed my real life info and had me almost die hungry I got myself out of it all alone and sometimes with help from new friends, the whole thing was a long story.

Every now and then in my totally free times I still draw or play games, read books, watch movies for inspiration of whatever art I do to remind me of keeping good habits like writing lol. I have partially done SS stories(although very 18+ and serious in nature) that kick me in the teeth every time I go back to read and revise them because they remind me of values I fail to follow but at the same time motivate me to get my head right. I made my hobby a productive and meaningful one besides being fun.

Go with whatever career YOU want, ^ ^ remember to use the tools of this path to get you to win life no matter what life’s cards are thrown at you.
 
before i got screwed in this too i was learning some chopin nocturnes
if anyone was ever curious about this
i just extracted the audio from some short videos found in the camera roll that i haven't deleted yet


i repeat that i'm obviously not a professional, i learned on my own a bit at random
the digital keyboard not of the best quality, as well as the sustain pedal, semi-weighted keys therefore little possibility of dynamic expressiveness, completely wrong tempo, etc you know, lol
 
oh, your story sounds interesting too

you seem like a very skilled, strong and determined individual
i'm glad you were able to find a way out despite everything, and i hope you can soon free yourself from whatever is tormenting you

also thank you for your attention and advice ⁠(⁠・⁠◡⁠・⁠)
 
oh, your story sounds interesting too

you seem like a very skilled, strong and determined individual
i'm glad you were able to find a way out despite everything, and i hope you can soon free yourself from whatever is tormenting you

also thank you for your attention and advice ⁠(⁠・⁠◡⁠・⁠)
Ah no worries, I’M FINE NOW ^ ^ Everything got resolved but…

It’s just college and work that’s fucking me up right now but that’s going to pass. Just like all the problems everyone has faced and overcame, just like how many great satanists have “defeated their titans, sea monsters and legendary beasts that held their inner worlds back”, I still have yet more to defeat.

And I have one that’s as big as a mountain that I want vanquished, but I’ll let all of you know this in 18+ spiritually allegorical contexts.

I WILL MAKE. THAT MOUNTAIN. BLEED.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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