if I'm wrong, please correct me.... I'm new

[Tulips]

Growing up I've rarely had it easy with spirits and ghosts. I've been attacked by a thought form with disguised nordics or entities who pretend to serve him. I have always had those attacks growing up from a wee child and reaching past adulthood.

I had bizarre dreams. Please know that I'm new.

These dreams haunt me. I have PTSD, but I know I knew Satan since before Christianity in this life. I knew I love him. I was tiny, 3 years old almost and I knew I love Satan.

I keep on having dreams of our gods, talking to me, seeing through their eyes and seeing what they do or have done. I knew about earth's golden veins, before I was ever told. I knew about the beginning of this planet and I saw through Nebuchadnezzar ii's eyes.

I saw how evil the Jews are. How they do what antifa and BLM are doing to this country now.

I saw how evil so many times through other people's eyes.

Then when I became a teen, I dreamed of kissing yearning man who bedded me in a garden. he had a strange helmet or hat with horns. I dreamed of him multiple times.

I dreamed of a beautiful man many times, with or without a beard.

I saw from another perspective the creation on this planet. I saw through one of Satan's wives eyes...

Ninhursag.

Some speculate that she is ninlil, who is really Lilith. However, I saw Lilith as a separate person from the other blonde. I dreamed that the sea was sacred to her, so was the land. She studied animals and created new life. She created the snakes, particularly the king Cobra.

I saw a man with a face I cannot see. I'm in deep love for him. I see Lilith with him, but he always says to me, calling out my middle name....

So far he has told me that Flora is his wife, she is Brigid, Danu... she is Frigg and Psyche... she is Ninhursag. Not Ninlil. She is Maia, mother of Hermes, and Gaia...Athena.

Ninhursag can easily be confused with Astarte, because Ninhursag was the original queen of heaven... and she can easily be confused with Lilith because she's a mother goddess.

[Shael]

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Make sure to read https://www.joyofsatan.org fully. Take the time to read everything.

You need to get started with some basic meditations like the AoP, chakra spinning, void meditation, and Hatha + Kundalini yoga.

I think that likely you wont find much people here who know anything about those names you mentioned. You will need to find some answers on those things for yourself, by studying the JoS site and getting started with meditations. Once you open your chakras properly, astral communication will get easier too.

[Shrekelstein]

Ninlil is Enlil's (Beelzebub's) wife, not Satan's.

Some speculate that she is ninlil, who is really Lilith.

Pretty impossible to confuse her with Astarte because she is Inanna in the Sumerian Pantheon, not Ninhursag.

Ninhursag can easily be confused with Astarte,

As about the rest, like the other person said it's important to empower and protect yourself if you have these attacks. The enemy targets those who are psychically open more than the others. And do the dedication ritual if you haven't done already, it'll help.

[Tulips]

Thank you both for replying to me. Much appreciated. Thank you again, brothers or sisters.

I have a question...

When I was looking at my astral. I noticed that it was blue... a bright blue with bright light like a gold... is that normal?

[Tulips]

Diana answered me. It's normal and it means that I'm a gentile. I saw gray from some people. They possessed moon gray color and outlined in black. I'm confused about those people.