This is unbelivably stupid. Isnt it?:s

[Artanis]

I dont even know why am writing this. I just wish for some answers. Maybe i need someone to say that "stop thinking about unbelivable things like that! Its not even possible in ANY way "

But everytime im in a bad situation, wheter it would be anxiety/panic attack, sad thoughts/things, or any other thing, like thinking about Father Satan, about the Future after the War is over etc etc etc. i always get a feeling of specialness, VERY big specialness.

And this is the point where you guys *are* going to state that "stop thinking about unbelivable things like that! Its not even possible in ANY way "

That specialness i feel *EVERY SINGLE TIME* i think about things like the above

Is that i would be a God

And what i mean by that, is that im VERY "philosophical" i think much by myself these kind of things. And why i feel like a God, is because i "daydream" a lot. What i have been daydreaming is that my current parents, are either Thoughtforms created by... Father and Mother Lilith ... Or that
They ARE my parents in disguise.

And i have done many many MANY RTRs and everything, but i havent almost been drained at all, nor attacked in any "big" way, at which i could definetly tell that, yeah, this is the Enemy

I know that this is UNBELIVABLY stupid and ignorant and everything, but i just wanted to share my thoughts with someone. Because i Of COURSE cannot speak about this with anyone else.

I just want to forget about these idiotic daydream thoughts.

I always be like "another person" when i think about Father or anything related to satanism.

[Dahaarkan]

Why do you want to be average?

You should actually be actively working towards becoming a god. I don't know if you've noticed but that's the whole point of this religion xd


Yeah sure there's a lot more to it such as your relationship with Satan and so on but let's face it. The magnum opus is the real deal. Now, if you feel that you will get there without having to work for it and that it'll just be handed to you on a silver platter then yeah. You might have the wrong idea.

[luis]

Well like you said yourself they are daydreams. Not everyone get attackted and maybe you are powerful enough so those attack's can't do anything to you (and i'm not talking that you are powerful like a God just more powerful than most people), in a way you are attackting yourself in a way with those daydreams, imaginations it's not bad It make you creative but you have to stay grounded and know what is real and what is not, i dream sometime too to have big powers and things like this because it's in my nature to daydream too but i know what is real and what is not.

Lately we are really spiritualy ripping the jews appart especially with the Shema RTR, they have lost a lot of power, so maybe this is why you don't get attacted because they don't have much power now.

[13th_Wolf]

I am personally guilty of this too. It is something to be acknowledged to an extent but what is there to feel special about if you have barely done anything except confuse yourself with said idea? I think spiritually, the answer to this is focusing on the lower chakras, particularly the root in cases of extreme far-fetched idealism, the Solar Plexus as well to ensure you are strong in your sense of self. The thing about your parents- I'm not sure of as I don't know you're situation but I have a similar view of mine. I believe it is to do with characteristics of your parents and how you perceive them in yourself more than anything. Whites are of course of Satan's lineage so you may be confused viewing your parents there.

Noting your daydreaming, this is how the enemy infests the mind with deluding and misleading thoughts as you are opening yourself to the subjective and gullible states of brain frequency (to do with trances) as I'm sure you are aware of.

I also no longer am attacked much at all from the enemy, in big ways and whenever they have done anything which I perceive to be them I react violently and become a Spartan of the astral XD. This repels them immediately and I am pretty sure its because I have read up enough on how the enemy works to know them as such, and I have a severe hatred of any kind of repression (they ultimately work to repress us, thus triggering this in me). Bragging aside, I believe your issue with over-idealising aspects of Satan and his works is due to an imbalance in the chakras which of course can be corrected by focusing on the lower, rooted ones. These specifically help you stay grounded in the reality of things and ward away potential astral delusion. This doesn't mean you won't stop daydreaming (unless ofc you want that) but you will be tied to reality to an extent when you do-catching yourself from illusion.

I seriously suggest you apply this, if you spin all of your chakra's regularly-take more time on the root. Not doing this will further be a waste of your time as your works in life will delude themselves in more ways unless you correct this NOW. I have actually been focusing on the root recently for similar reasons, it is also the keeper of the kundalini and when you spin the red pyramid and shine it, it feels very pleasant.

*You could also use affirmational sexual energy to help you here- on the 27th of march is a Leo moon and Aries Sun (and some other fire signs). This is a good time to start focusing on perhaps building an excercising routine if you don't have one or changing it up if you do. Exercising, coupled with True Aries reflection and Pride etc. is extremely useful on bringing your real self on a pedestal and not an idealised and deluded version*

Saytan Abbrasa

[Artanis]

That attack thing was meant to be continued that i havent been attacked even that i have done few dozens of RTRs a day.
That the Gods are protecting me a LOT.

[Zygisrko]

Its just a daydream. I was in my underpants flying around shooting lazors outta my eyes in one of my dreams, doesn't mean I can actually do that.

[Ol argedco luciftias]

It's the truth. They made humans to be equally powerful as them then some enemies came and tried to harm us because they didn't want anyone to have any power. The ones who are still strong enough to keep getting better are still on the path to being gods, just like many thousands or millions of people have done before. The enemy is being removed extremely quickly, then when they are gone it will be much easier again to grow this strong. Just know that is you are always doing what's best and always getting better then you are on this path and you're one of the most important people there is. Most people are too damaged to do much help in fixing the world, so people who are good and important enough to lead and teach the truth are made to be very powerful.

[ZirGohed999]

You are very much OK. When one meditates, the dross in the soul cleanses out in so many way depending on the individual. It seems yours is manifesting in the way of unnecessary self-criticism/inferiority complex and wandering thoughts. The God forbids that the issues in your manifests in the way of you sniffing glue and shooting yourself in the head. Take a permanent note now that the more you meditate, the more deeper issues will come out and self-control is key here. What you need do is take out the inferiority complex and establish control with meditations. The Runes Ansuz and Isa are very good for this, respectively. Yes! Satan is your Father and Lilith is your Mother. Why? Because, they are the progenitors/ancestors of the human race, so you are their little kid. If you do the meditations I recommended above, your special feeling, your daydreaming and wandering thoughts won't get over your head. Your genuine feeling of specialness should propell you to advance and do more for the group. It shouldn't make you hate yourself.

[Shining Sloth 666]

Father Satan created the Human race. Every Gentile is a child of Satan and has a satanic soul.
I totally get what you mean when you say you're feeling special.
I mean to realize you have the chance to evolve and become a God alongside our
Mighty Creator Father Satan is enough to make shivers run through my spine every time I think about it.

Most of the time through my day I am always Void meditating and I like to focus on Father Satan.
Just saying His name in my mind here and then.
When I think about him every other thoughts, habits that are negative or useless just vanish.
I begin to feel what is good for me.
And most of the time the inner dialogue is replaced by a feeling of knowingness when I find solutions to the tasks at hand.

[NaziMan12]

I dont even know why am writing this. I just wish for some answers. Maybe i need someone to say that "stop thinking about unbelivable things like that! Its not even possible in ANY way "

But everytime im in a bad situation, wheter it would be anxiety/panic attack, sad thoughts/things, or any other thing, like thinking about Father Satan, about the Future after the War is over etc etc etc. i always get a feeling of specialness, VERY big specialness.

And this is the point where you guys *are* going to state that "stop thinking about unbelivable things like that! Its not even possible in ANY way "

That specialness i feel *EVERY SINGLE TIME* i think about things like the above

Is that i would be a God

And what i mean by that, is that im VERY "philosophical" i think much by myself these kind of things. And why i feel like a God, is because i "daydream" a lot. What i have been daydreaming is that my current parents, are either Thoughtforms created by... Father and Mother Lilith ... Or that
They ARE my parents in disguise.

And i have done many many MANY RTRs and everything, but i havent almost been drained at all, nor attacked in any "big" way, at which i could definetly tell that, yeah, this is the Enemy

I know that this is UNBELIVABLY stupid and ignorant and everything, but i just wanted to share my thoughts with someone. Because i Of COURSE cannot speak about this with anyone else.

I just want to forget about these idiotic daydream thoughts.

I always be like "another person" when i think about Father or anything related to satanism.

HP Mageson said that parents are "biological gods" so it is not irregular to attribute supernatural powers to your parents.

[ess]

These fantasies, I'm assuming, are not blasphemous to Satan in any way. Why would Satan care about these fantasies of yours? He knows you inside and out, he knows you better than any human could ever hope to, he knows the true natures of your ways. No need to be worried.

[Wotanwarrior]

My advice is to be realistic and do not let your ego swell excessively, even if you really were someone important in another past life you should work just as hard as everyone else or even more.